Chapter 1:
"This is the last time you'll ever see me. I'll make sure that i never hurt you again like this" I clenched my jaw, and walked away from my life. It hurt to leave her, My soul was begging me to turn back. That's if i have a soul. Something only Bella believed existed. If i did have a soul, it was now with her. It had deserted me, just as i had deserted her. So much as i wanted to turn and run as fast as i could back to my love. I couldn't. What didn't happen only made it more possible to happen, And it could have been worse. She could be dead.
And that i would never let myself live with.
I closed my eyes and stopped running when i saw the sight of the house. I couldn't believe what i had done. I am a monster. What living thing would leave their love? Well, i am not living. Nor am i dead. Then why do i exist? Simply, for her
I walked as slow as i could. Images of her swamping in my mind. Drowning my in my sorrows. I hurt to say good bye. But if i didn't say good bye, There was still that possibility that she could be killed. By one of us. And i wouldn't ever be able to live with that.
At least now she could marry someone like her. Have kids, grow old with that special someone. But she could never do any of that with me. At least she has a soul.
Mine is a figment of her imagination. Something that purely doesn't exist. I know that now, And i need to leave before i destroy hers. I have hurt her enough, this is the last time i will never need to hurt her.