Christine
The name burns me
The name I must not speak
Or think
But long to…
It is holy fire
Against my black demon's heart
And yet…
It is a pleasant burning
It makes me feel…
Almost…
Human
But not quite
I will never be
I am a monster
A beast
A thing
I do not deserve life
I know this
I have finally learned it
And I agree
But she…
No
It was all a façade
A joke
A mask
Just to save the boy
But at the time…
It felt so…
Real?
Right?
Perfect?
No, it was a lie
It was my first kiss
My only kiss
Could she not feel
How much I loved her?
Or could she
And just not care
But it matters not
She has left
And I am alone
Beaten
Broken
Dying
Just like I deserve
To have a taste of life
And have it taken away
Why did I start to hope?
I knew I shouldn't have
Keep away from the edge
I didn't
And I fell…
Fell in love
But kept falling
And falling
Until I hit the bottom
I am ready to die
I welcome it
With open arms
The fires of hell
Seem tame
Now that I have tasted
The fires
Of love
The ugliest creature
Felt the most beautiful love
Her love
Christine's love
Hello death