Chapter one
I paced my lake, running my pale snowy white hand through my silver-white hair, scowling at the lake beneath me. My lake of course, but I-I need to get out of- "Hey snowflake."
Quickly turning around, and without missing a beat I plastered my best smile before leaning on my staff in a casual manner despite my internal panicking that had surprisingly yet to show on the outside. "Hey Bunny, whats up?" I said, barely containing myself as I watched him sauntered over, slim hips swaying.
"Ah thought ah come check on ya after ya, ya know, bolted." He said, giving me a pointed stare, crossing his arms on his hard.. muscular chest...
"Oh! Uhh, yeah, I had something to do.. We weren't doing anything important anyway." I said as nonchalantly as possible, waving my hand in the air in dismissal.
Bunny glared, his muscles tensing in the most delicious way possible. There's a reason why I always pranked him. "We were about to have sex, Frost." I blushed, whoop there it is, way to be blunt. Yes, that's the reason why I left,m what was I suppose to do? I am a virgin and I chickened out. It had happened all too fast. The never ending touches, the delirious heat, the feeling of pleasure... It all overwhelmed me.
"Aster..." I said torned, I couldn't take that leap yet, not yet.. Turning away from Bunny, letting the frown settle on my face as I took a good few steps away from him and towards the centre of my lake, ensuring its safety.
"Yeah mate?" He asked when I didn't continue, hearing his feet softly hit the ice as he followed behind me.
"I-I don't think I can do t-this right now.." I squeezed my eyes as my shoulders tensed in anticipation, knowing he was going to yell- "Whattya saying?!" His panicked voice filled with shock and confusion, sending a sharp pain in my chest, making it hard to swallow the lump in the throat.
Just before his paw/hand could touch my shoulder I jumped up onto a high branch above us, with the help of the wind I managed to sit on a sturdy branch(not that he's actually heavy).
"I mean I can't do this, it's not the right time and-and.. Its a little overwhelming.. Aster.. Its been over four hundred years since I've had a partner.. Much less a life partner.. Not that its a bad thing! Just not for right now." I explained, continuing to not face him, fearing I would break down.
I need to bolt again. And soon. Before I start bawling like an idiot I am.. But this is what needs to happen before one of us gets hurt.. He's quiet.. What is he doing? Regret filled me as I had to choke back the cry that threaten to break down my will. Looking up to the sky I took deep shuddering breaths that didn't help with the clenching pain in my chest as I rapidly blinked back the tears that threaten to over flow.
He just.. stood there looking broken. But that was not why I looked away, no, It was the look in his once hopeful eyes that had now filled with hopelessness. Without a thought I gently flew down from the branch, the wind caressing my cheek as I had landed in front of the last Pooka in the universe, the Pooka who had chosen to have me as a mate.
Yeah, me, a winter sprite. You think you were shocked? I was so shocked I had to try to calm down the sudden frigid air. But that didn't last as long as the blush that frosted over from my cheeks to my chest. But once I noticed his fading smile, I quickly went to hug him while giving him a small kiss to his furry cheek, breathing out how I had liked him too.
And that had been three months ago. We hadn't told the guardians yet, but we had a feeling Sandy knew, who had told Tooth who had, and I'm guessing hesitated, told North, who took on the fatherly figure over me. And of course Tooth later on took on the motherly role, finding out how much she enjoyed it.
Finally looking up to him, lifting a hand to cup his warm cheek, watching him lean into the touch as he placed his own over my hand and giving it a quick squeeze.
"I just need a break.. Okay?" I said softer than a landing snowflake, giving him a sad smile. Aster's emerald green eyes flickered with hope.
"What if a-ah jus' back off for ah little bit-" With the help of my staff's support while I tippy toed, I managed to get nearly at eye level with him as I used my hand to cover his mouth. "Aster, I-I-" I shook my head. "I wouldn't be doing this if that was an option. But I am, and I need to and its not because of you, I promise.. I like you too much."
Giving him a small, genuine smile I leaned closer to him so I was kissing the back of my hand that was over his mouth, feeling him kiss my hand to.
Pulling away, I slid my hand back to his cheek, I gripped my staff tighter as I gave him one last smile. "I promise, over my dead body, that I will come back to you."
And without another word, I briefly searched his deep, emerald green eyes before turning and flying away as quickly as possible, not wanting his sharp ears to hear how I had broken.