A Time of Innocence
By Rhyianna Merquise
AN : No angst demon hither! Hahaha! Not saying this fic is happy… Me, write a happy fic? You wish!! Trowa's POV…
Disclaimer: I own nothing. I don't even own the computer I'm typing on…
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Two minutes till midnight.
120 seconds until the sky falls down.
And I'm stuck here.
As I sit on this hillside, remembering all I've never done in my lifetime, I feel immense amounts of regret and guilt. All those "I might's" should have become "I did's", but no, I was busy contemplating how to get from Point A to Point B and do it in the least amount of time.
I'm too young to do this. There were still so many things I wanted to see, wanted to do… So many of life's little miracles I wanted to witness… The sound of a child laughing, as she embraces life, like I never got to… Or the look in Midii's eyes when she woke up beside me every morning… Which she will never get the chance to do now…
I was stupid enough not to consider these.
All the mistakes I had made, all the people I've hurt, it all came down to this. I regret that I don't have the time to repent for all of my mistakes. But I do have time for this…
I check my watch. 30 seconds have passed. 30 seconds and I haven't done anything. 90 seconds till the world ends…
I have to make up for my mistake.
Turning to my sole companion, as still and silent as she will ever be, I study her. Wanting to imprint her in my memory… As I took precious time to notice her, I look into her eyes. I've done this many times before, but I never really looked. It seemed as if some fog had always been separating us. Not now. As I looked, I saw understanding, compassion, regret and doubt. And love. So much love… Why didn't I see it before?
I will correct my mistake.
Things haven't been good for us in the past few days. I've been…cold. And Midii has been crying herself to sleep. It made my heart ache.
A lone man, a street urchin, turned up his radio.
"Hey," I said.
"Hmm?"
It was awful. Horrible. I had to restrain myself from recoiling in disgust. This was our final conversation? No. Hell no. There had been mistakes made, dreadful mistakes, but I refuse to let it end like this….
"Do you know I love you?"
Her eyes showed surprise. It must have been the way I said it. In the past, I've only said it because I felt I had to. Now, I put my heart and soul in my hand and held it out to her. Because I did love her.
"Trowa… I… I…" she started.
"No, don't think. Act." It was something she would have said.
I slid closer to her, wrapping my arms around her waist and letting her rest her head on my shoulder.
In a split second, I leaned down and kissed her. After a moment of being still, she leaned into me. Finally. Every thing is finished and repented for. She still loved me. Not that it would help me when I reached my final destination, but it was nice to know.
30 seconds till midnight and still I held her.
The street urchin turned up his radio.
That would be the last sound I heard. But in that moment, I was content. I had found inner peace. In a single moment, I had found what most people spend lifetimes looking for.
I listened.
Five…
Four…
Three…
Two….
Do you know how time seems to stop right before a catastrophe? Well, that's how it seemed to me. Suddenly there was a vision of us… and what might have been… The radio was playing…
"I've found all I've waited for…
And I could not ask for more…"
One….
Silence.
The End