Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. Nor it's characters or anything in it. Jeez, how many times to I hafta say this?

This is what Yami would think if Yugi had given his life to Pegasus to save the souls of the Kaiba brothers. I know that Yami would probably die if Yugi died, but let's just say he didn't, just so the situation would fit this little something I wrote up. Hope you like it!

I Wonder

I often wonder.

Why did you have to leave me?
I can still see vividly the look of shock and anguish on your face as your soul was ripped away.
It still pains me greatly.

Yes, I know you did this for the Kaiba brothers, but for once-
Couldn't you just have thought about yourself…and me?
Couldn't you just have thought about what where we would be right now if Pegasus hadn't taken you?
We could be laughing and joking in the Game Shop with Grandpa in the background, organizing cards.
You and I…
We could have had so much more together.
So much we could have done as one.
All those hopes ripped away by that dammed Pegasus.

You did the right thing.
You always do.
You gave your life for the sake of others.
The Kaibas are grateful.
But what about me?
Why couldn't you have thought of me?
I know I'm being selfish, but anyone would be if they knew someone like you as well as I do.
How I wish you could be right here with me.
I miss you.

Your last words are buried deep in my heart; I shall always remember them.
Three simple words, yet they mean so much.
"I love you."
Ever since that day you admitted your love, I have been in a sort of shock and anger.
Right at the last moment, when I finally know you love me too, you are ripped away from me.
Sometimes I think the gods play with me.
Giving me happiness one moment, then sadness the next.
You were my happiness, my joy, the love of my life.
You were the reason I existed.
And in just a few mere seconds, all that was taken cruelly away.
Now, all I have is sadness, sorrow, and hate left.
I have no reason to exist anymore.
No purpose.

You once told me, wherever there is darkness, there will be light.
So where is the light now?
I am here, as darkness.
Where is light?
If light is gone, shouldn't the darkness be also?
Perhaps I should embrace the call of death.
I could finally be at peace.
I would be with you.

And yet, I still continue to live.
Why?
Because I know you would have wanted me to.

You wouldn't have wanted me to throw away the chance of life.
But still…
I've lived for more than a millennia.
You have barely gotten to experience the real treasures life can give.

You wouldn't have wanted me to live my life in pain.
But that is what I am doing.
I try, but I cannot regain the happiness I once had.
If only you came back…then I could rejoice once more.
But that is impossible.

Still, I live my life out for you.
I wish I could have said this to your face.
It hurts me to know that I could not have answered your last words when you were alive.
But you still have the right to hear it out loud, dead or alive.
No matter how dark it seems, I shall always think of you.
What you would have done in my place.
Even in death, you give me the courage to live.
To go on.
To face all hardships, even if I have to do it alone.
My light, you are certainly an extraordinary person.
I shall treasure your memory forever.

I love you too, aibou.

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Okay, okay, I know that was weird, but be nice and tell me what was good about it!

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