I do not own the beautiful work of Stephenie Meyer.
AND HOLY CRUD, I saw the midnight premiere of Twilight with my friends! It was AMAZING, much better than I thought it would be. And I thought they'd screw it up! Phew. OMG, Edward was SO hot. Ew, I sounded like a fangirl. Jasper and Emmett were hilarious. "Oh, and the one that looks like he's in pain? That's Jasper." I burst out laughing at that part.
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It was searing hot
The pain
That ripped through my own ice chest
Fire and Ice
Knowing she loved him
Knowing he would've married her
She would've had a normal life
No pain, whatsoever
Until I came along
The monster
The murderer
The one who comes and messes everything up
And I knew it was my fault
Knew it was my fault that she could die
Knew it was my fault she would never live a normal life
I was sick
Masochistic
Wallowing in my self-pity, self-hatred, selfishness
I should've let her go
I know it
I should've let her go, go away, leave
Instead of grabbing her and twisting her in my own mess of lies
When she should be in her own
With Jacob, and Charlie, and Angela, and Mike
But now she's entangled in my web of monstrosity
With me, and Alice, and Emmett, and Jasper, and Rosalie
And every single vampire
Every vampire with a thirst
A thirst that can kill
That can kill her
Any second
Her life was in my hands
I could break her
Twist her
Her fragile, petite body
I could take it and break every bone in the body
And I hated it
Knowing I should've let her go
But I was too selfish
Too buried in my own needs
And I hate knowing if she walked away like she should've
I'd never be as happy as I am now
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That was my first Twilight fic. What do you think? I hated the ending, but I love the Edward! Of course, I heart Jacob more. Arf, arf!