Chapter#1: realization
He's really gone! That's the one thought that kept going through my head. I am now flashing back to 3 months ago when Edward left me in the woods. I couldn't except it before but now i'm coming to terms as I sit and look out my bedroom window. A stray tear falls down my face as I look out into the driveway where Edwards car used to pick me up for school everyday. "Did you ever really love me?" I sobbed to myself.
I heard a knock on my door but I ignored it. The door creaked open "Bella?" my father called sticking his head in the door. "Yes dad?" I asked turning to face him as he came the rest of the way in. "Are you OK honey?" He asked. Should I tell him? Will he send me to Florida? The tears streamed once again as I looked at him and decided to tell him. "He's really gone isn't he?" I asked sobbing. "Oh Bella" he cried coming to me wrapping me in his arms. It was comforting but not the arms I wanted to be in. "He's not coming back is he?" I asked though I already knew the answer.
My dad pulled back to look at me. "No Hun he's not" He stated solemnly. I just cried harder. I had been so numb these past few months I only cried in my sleep it was good to get it out as I laid my head on my dads shoulder letting his work jacket soak up the tears of the unwanted. "Shh! Its OK baby girl" my dad soothed me.
It seemed like hours later my eyes had ran dry and I had dosed off on my dads shoulder. I dint realize it entail I felt my dad lift me from my chair and take me to my bed. I kept my eyes closed I dint want to see how much I was hurting him. After I was laid down I heard my dad walk back to the chair by my window. I squinted my eyes so I could see but he dint know. He sat on the chair shoulders slumped in defeat. Head in hand. "Why god?" he whispered my dad never prayed it took me off guard. I kept my eyes squinted just in case he looked up. His head looked to the ceiling eyes still closed tightly. "Why my baby lord? Please help her don't let her suffer make me suffer lord not her!" His whisper sounding angry.
I had tried to hide my pain so much and it dint help. My dad knew he always knew he was never fooled by my facade. I stood up my dad had put his head back in his hands and was sobbing. I walked to him and wrapped my arms around him. "I'm sorry dad" I whispered. He wrapped me tightly in his arms in response. We were both hurting. He had gotten his prayer because he was suffering because I was.
Alice's pov:
"What the fuck rose!" I heard Emmett yell from upstairs. They were fighting again. Ever since we left they had been. Leaving Bella was the worst decision we had ever made. "I miss you so much Bella" I said to myself not thinking that everyone else could hear me. "Me to" I heard Emmett say. Which was followed by a slap. "Damn it Rosalie Lilian hale!" I heard Emmett scream. "Better go brake it up...again" jasper said standing and walking up the stairs of our Alaska home. I just nodded.
Sorry for the short chapter but I promise to keep going on this story I will continue this one all my time is going into this one story right now the rest are on hold I will have an update every other day if not every day so r+r