What I Must Do
Why am I here? I hurt and I don't know why. No that's not right I do know why, I should be dead. I was dead. Why aren't I now? Why am I here, who really needs me here? Is there anyone in the world that needs me to be here, instead of there? Where I was happy, and loved. Where I felt at peace and knew that everyone I cared for was fine. That they were living and happy and that I could be at peace. But I guess that feeling was wrong, because they pulled me out. And after they went to all that trouble they think that I should just be the same me. That I shouldn't be changed by my death, in their eyes I can't change. I can't be weak. So I'm giving up, just like I did two years ago. I'll become the perfect Slayer and the perfect friend/sister. But right now I'm still weak, so I'm going to the only one who loves me even if I am weak. He will hold me and sooth me and then he will leave me, to change again. To become someone who doesn't long for him every minute of every day. And I will, for them. For my, so called, family I will become someone I despise, someone he would despise. But even if he sees me as 'her' he will still love me. The real me, the girl that I have hid for three years. The girl that I become when I am with him and his friends. Because they don't think I should hate him, and they don't think I should be with a man who needs more than I can ever give another. He will always accept me as me and he will always love me even if I have to be 'her'. Because he is my other half, he is my soulmate. And I love him more then the whole world.
The End
Just a little babble fic about Buffy going to meet Angel after she's brought back. I just found this and felt that I should post something. I'm sorry to those of you who are reading my Thoughts fic, I am planning on continuing, however I can't seem to write anything for it. For more on it go to my author page. I hope you like this! Bye