Disclaimer: I don't own Evangelion. I don't own Good Charlotte or the song 'Day that I die'. I don't make any money off this.

Shinji looked to the sun that just cracked in his eyes. /Dad...I blame this on you. Even your Intsturmentality project won't save me this time./ He sat up and looked at PenPen who was sitting next to him. "Come on PenPen let's go outside for a bit." Shinji walked off to the balcony with PenPen right behind him. Leaning against the bars that lined the edge of the open room he stared at the sunrise. /It's amazing how wonderful your last sunrise looks. If only it looked the same everyday./

{One day I woke up

I woke up knowing

Today is the day I will die

Cash Dogg was barking

Went to the park

And enjoyed it one last time}

Shinji glanced back at Asuka who was curled up in her blankets as well as Shinji's. Her hair scattered over the floor in the style of a lions. Sitting in his desk, Shinji took out a pen and looked at the paper in front of him. He heard the soft waddle of PenPen as he began to sketch out a note for his 'guardian.' When he was done he held it up and read out loud to the penguin behind him. "Dear Misato, I am sorry that I am writing this down instead of telling you upfront but I don't know how to say this out loud, to your face. I am just writing to say thanks for watching over me for all this time and that I consider you a mother. You have always been there for me like my mom would have. So I would just like to say thank you and I love you. As a mom. Sincerely, Shinji."

{I called my mother

Told her I loved her

And I begged her not to cry

I wrote a letter

I said I'd miss her

And I signed that good bye}

Shinji looked at the PenPen that had a 'you can do better than that' face. "No I couldn't PenPen...I am barely awake." He smiled as he walked to the balcony again. A dagger in his hand.

{You know the happiest day of my life

I swear the happiest day of my life

Is the day that I die}

Shinji held out the dagger thoughts filling his mind. /They always knew I would do this. What could they expect? MY mom died when I was young and my father abandoned me./ He looked over as a wind slightly picked up. /Good luck everyone. This is the wind that tells the story of my death./

{Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I died)

It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I died)

Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I died)

All alone, but I feel fine (the day that I died)}

Shinji led the dagger to his heart but paused when he felt a warm hand on his shoulder blocking the chilling wind. Looking back he smiled at Asuka who leaned down next to him. "Don't do it Shinji. You have a lot more to experience before your death comes..." Asuka stood up and walked back to her bed and shut the window, closed the blinds and got changed. While she was changing Shinji smiled to himself. /I haven't earned my way to death I guess. Then this wind must be the wind of...Hope/

{Did I live it right?

(day that i die)

I hope I lived it right

(day that i die)

Did I live it right?

(day that i die)

Did I Live it right?

I Hope I lived it right

(day that i die)

I know I Lived it right}

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