Sheldon Cooper has never been a man to get social conventions but since knowing Penny he has learned and adapted to her chaos. Sheldon Cooper has a secret; a secret he has never told anyone not even verbalized it himself. Most days this secret wasn't difficult to keep under control but when Penny would come into his apartment with her skimpy clothes and bubbly smile Sheldon would have to fight this secret.
At first it started out with Sheldon noticing the way Penny's legs looked in her short shorts. An image flashed before him of her bent over and all he could see is her beautiful tan legs. He had to shake it off as an unfortunate biological response to seeing her in those garments she calls shorts. The next thing he noticed was the way her breast would bounce when she giggled. That instant he saw her bent over; breast jiggling asking for more from him. Sheldon instantly shrieked and ran off to his room.
Sheldon could not get it out of his head how he just wanted to control every part of her. He wanted to dominate her in every way. He couldn't even handle speaking to her without wanting to dominate her, so he did the only thing he could do and that was to ignore everything that was causing the issue. So Sheldon started ignoring Penny at all cost even go to the point of avoiding her.
Penny starts to notice Sheldon getting very rigid any time she would come near him or even in the same room as him. She was determined to figure out what was going on in the beautiful mind of his. Penny only wanted to find out what she had done to change him to a point where he was barely talking to her.
"Sheldon, sweetie can we talk?" Penny said hoping for just a simple yes…
"Penny you of all people know that you can talk, you should have said may we talk?"
"Okay Sheldon, may we talk?"
"Of course, I assume you have a desired topic in which you are going to converse with me."
"Yes I do Sheldon." Penny said. She thought she might as well take the bull by the horns and just flat out ask him what she did.
"Sheldon, what did I do to make you not want to talk to me anymore?"
"Penny, we are conversing right this moment, what makes you think that we no longer communicate?" Sheldon says with restraint and trying to not burst out his secret.
"Sheldon! I know we are talking right now but I mean over the last couple weeks you completely avoid talking to me and when you do, you're cold and abrupt." Penny yelled, her skin flushed.
Sheldon almost couldn't contain himself. "Penny it isn't any of your concern."
"The HELL it isn't any of my concern. IT INVOLVES ME! Sheldon, what did I do so horrible that made you hate me?" Penny's anger died out and she started to cry.
"Penny you didn't do anything, it is just something I have to do to maintain my balance and schedule."
"So you can't talk to me anymore because I am doing something to prevent that. That is ridiculous Sheldon, sweetie I always take into account your schedules even if I do tease you a bit for them. I would never want you to stop talking to me because I was doing something wrong. I want you to tell me, please Sheldon, Please?" Penny begged fearing she was losing her best friend. She got down on her knees in front of Sheldon and begged for him to tell her.
Sheldon just sat in his spot staring at her and trying to control himself.
"Moonpie, sweetie, I will do anything to keep you as my friend, my best friend." Penny sobbed.
"Penny only Meemaw can call me that. " Sheldon says completely ignoring Penny's attempts of getting the truth or a resolution out of him.
"Penny, I think it would be best if you no longer came over to the apartment." Sheldon said as coldly as he could muster, noticing it hurt him more than he ever thought possible.
"Why Sheldon?! Why would it be best for you?" Penny nearly yelled.
"You are an unnecessary distraction to obtaining my ultimate goal in life; now please remove yourself from my apartment and life." Sheldon said trying to ignore the hurt in his chest he was feeling.
Penny just burst into more tears and ran out the apartment not even closing the door. She wanted to get away from the humiliation as quickly as possible.
Sheldon tries and fails at focusing on his whiteboard. His breathing is short and he cannot control the overwhelming feeling of crying. He sits in his spot to regain some sense of normalcy but it fails. He feels like his stomach and heart was just stomped on. This time it wasn't because of a bully, it was because Sheldon Cooper, PH D made the most logical decision for his life and goals and this time he doesn't think it was the right one.
Penny slammed her door and slid down the door sobbing. She just lost her best friend and even though she never said the words out loud her one true love. She was happy just being Sheldon's friend even if what she really wanted was to be his and only his. Penny couldn't understand what was going or what she did to make Sheldon hate her but her heart was shattered and nothing but Sheldon could fix it.
2 weeks passed before Penny ran into Sheldon since that night. Sheldon stiffened at the sight of his neighbor. None of his feelings changed despite avoiding her like the plague. Penny looked different, she didn't look like her normal happy self and she lost about 15lbs like she hasn't been eating. This unnerved Sheldon more than his own feelings. Penny was fading away and it was his entire fault.
Penny saw Sheldon stiffen when he saw her. She was so sad she over losing her best friend all she did was go to work and come home. Most of the time she forgot to eat, so she was losing too much weight. She just wanted to run up to him and hug him but she couldn't do that anymore. So she just did a sad smile to him and went into her apartment.
The other guys noticed this for the last couple weeks that their friends were no longer themselves not to mention not even speaking. They tried to get Sheldon to tell them what had happened but Sheldon said it wasn't any of their concern. They let it slide until they saw what it was doing to Penny.
"Sheldon I know you said it wasn't any of our concern with what happened between you and Penny but it is hurting her more than I think either of you are admitting. You have to fix this and you have to do it soon or you will lose Penny forever." Leonard said not understanding the weight of his words.
"Well if you must know her friendship served as a distraction from my work and I let it go on for far too long." Sheldon said arrogantly but his eyes slightly twitched.
"Sheldon if that was even remotely true you would have gotten rid of all the people in your life that you consider friends and acquaintances but you haven't. So what is really going on? I will not stop asking until I get an answer and if I have to I will call your mother to sort this out!" Leonard said with absolute resolve.
Sheldon sighed.
"Well okay, Leonard but this isn't something I am very comfortable admitting to anyone let alone aloud." Sheldon said.
"Okay Sheldon take your time." Leonard said hoping he would finally know what was going on with his two best friends.
"Well I have noticed for quite some time that when Penny is around me I get this overwhelming need to fix any issue she has. I dislike it very much when she is sad and have no understanding on how to comfort her. I always want to make her smile and laugh. It is really concerning because it takes all my time up not even allowing my mind to focus on my work." Sheldon said omitting the part where he wants to dominate Penny in every way imaginable.
"Okay." Leonard said realizing his best friend was in love and couldn't or wouldn't admit it.
"Sheldon you have to realize that you have feelings for Penny." Leonard said.
"I most certainly do not!" Sheldon said not very convincingly.
"Sheldon, do not make me call your mother. She will know you are lying." Leonard threatened.
"Fine, it's true I do have feelings for Penny, unreturned feelings." Sheldon sighed defeated.
"Sheldon have you even told Penny this?" Leonard asked.
"Well of course not, why would I do something so stupid? I am not stupid therefore I would not tell her this. She does not return these feelings so it would just be an embarrassment on my part." Sheldon said.
"Sheldon, you may never know unless you tell her. Jesus Sheldon! Look at her and what these last 2 weeks have done to her. She is wasting away because you shoved her out of YOUR life, not the others but yours!" Leonard yelling realizing that Sheldon made a horrible mistake.
"But Leona…." Sheldon tried saying.
"No Sheldon, you will fix this and fix your friendship with her. You both need to know the truth whatever it may be. Trust me Sheldon even if she doesn't share the same type of feelings you two will always be in each other's lives." Leonard said finally reaching Sheldon.
Sheldon finally realizing what a huge colossal mistake he had made with Penny, he marched across the hall determined to fix it.
Knock, Knock, Knock. "Penny"
Knock, Knock, Knock. "Penny"
She heard him knocking his signature knock with her name at the end. She decided to wait till he finished then she was going to let him know how much he hurt her.
Knock, Knock, Knock. "Penny"
Sheldon hoped that Penny would answer and give him a chance to explain everything and even apologize for this mistake. He was nervous and terrified that he had already ruined his friendship forever.
Penny slowly opened the door and saw Sheldon standing nervous and terrified. Penny was ready to go Nebraska on his ass but saw the look in Sheldon's eyes and all that anger was washed away.
"Penny, may I come in?" Sheldon whispered.
"Yah sure Sheldon." Penny said.
"Penny I would like discuss these last couple weeks and I would like to have my say without interruption." Sheldon said.
"Okay just as long as I get a chance to have my say." Penny demanded as she sat on the couch.
"Of course Penny." Sheldon said quickly still standing keeping his distance away from Penny.
"Well first off you were correct that the issue was involving you but it was mostly on my part. I am sorry I have pushed you away and hurt you. I know I have told you this before but you have and will always be my best friend. I am dealing with... These feelings that I have never had before." Sheldon said.
"Sheldon…" Penny gasped.
"Penny please let me finish before I lose my nerve to tell you everything I had planned to." Sheldon said
Penny just nodded, agreeing to be silent for him to finish.
"The only logical decision to my problem was to push the focus of it away, which in my case is you Penny. I knew at the time I was running from my problems but I again have never dealt with these types of feelings." Sheldon stopped and took a moment to gather his thoughts.
"I have come to the conclusion that I made the wrong choice. I was selfish in my decision to distance myself away from you. I never took into account your feelings and for that I am sorry. I also did this to prevent myself heartbreak. Penny, I have come to realize that I may harbor feelings for you. These feelings are of the romantic sense." Sheldon said like he was running out of air.
"May I speak sweetie?" Penny said quietly
Sheldon just nodded not trusting himself to be able to speak.
"Sweetie, first of all I want to tell you that it means a lot to me for you to finally tell me what has been going on in the beautiful mind of yours. I was and am very hurt it took almost a month to tell me this. I am your best friend and would always want you to come to me if you ever have a problem especially if it involves me." Penny sighed.
She was happy it wasn't anything she had done but Sheldon, Dr. No Emotion had honest to God feelings for her. He wasn't lying to her; she knew the signs of Sheldon's lies. She actually is having her feelings returned, feelings she never thought would ever be returned.
"Sheldon, sweetie those feelings are normal for a person to have. I want you to know that those feelings are returned." Penny said still nervous Sheldon might freak out.
"Sheldon, please say something." Penny said.
Sheldon was just staring at her and could not believe his beautiful blonde fairy returns his feelings! Sheldon can't think of anything to say so he does the first thing that comes to his mind. He walks the short distance to Penny and grabs her face and kisses her. It was a little awkward but Sheldon was adapting to Penny's lips.