Summary: This is just a drabbly one-shot about Ashfur. I figured that he needs a chance for his side of the story. Well, my interpretation, anyways. XP
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She Chose Amber Over Blue
They said that time heals all wounds.
They were wrong.
Because, it's been seasons since she left me, but it still hurts just as much as it did when the pain was fresh.
I suppose that I always knew that I was just the distraction; just some random tom to make Brambleclaw jealous.
But it still hurts.
I was there every time she needed me. I was there to listen sympathetically and tell her what a jerk he was for not realizing that she was the best thing that ever happened to her.
How could she discard of me after everything we went through? It hardly seems fair that she can toy with my heart and then toss me away like a foul piece of prey when something better comes along. How is it exactly, after everything I did for her, that I am made out to be the bad guy because I still love her?
I can deal with the pitying looks that the queens give me when she walks past. I can deal with the disapproving things the elders whisper when they think that I can't hear them. But, what I can't deal with is that smug look Brambleclaw has whenever he and Squirrelflight are together.
It makes me sick.
Sure, she claims that we can still be "friends", but it will never be the same, because she prefers him to me.
She prefers his dark tabby pelt to my light gray one.
She likes the amber color of his eyes more than the deep blue of mine.
I hate her for the pain she has caused me. And yet, I still love her. I love her with every fiber of my being.
I would throw myself off of a cliff if she asked me to. I would eat a pile of rocks if she would smile at me. I would battle BloodClan and Tigerstar all by myself if only she would take me back.
But, in my heart, I know it will never be enough.
Because I lost, and now she's gone.
She isn't coming back.
She chose amber over blue.
She chose wrong.
A/N: Alrighty, that was my first attempt at a one-shot. Please, please, please review and tell me what you thought! I NEED your feedback!