I took in the air of what the August had to offer here in Forks. It was cool. Not too hot, not to cold. I had just started school here over a month ago. I loved it.

We were constantly always moving around due to my rapid growing but I've been growing a lot slower the past couple months, a lot slower, actually growing at normal speed. We finally chose to live in Forks permanently so that I could go to school. Momma was thrilled. She wanted to live next to Grandpa Charlie. I always make sure to see him enough—oh how I loved my grandpa Charlie.

I'm five, soon to be six but I'm psychically sixteen and dad told me I'm mentally even older. He never told me how old I am mentally and I really didn't care.

I was glad to be moving closer to my best friend, Jacob who always visited a lot despite where we lived. He made sure to come often and it still wasn't enough. He would stay over sometimes—the longest he has stayed was for about a week and I still needed to see him more.

I walked away from building five, French which was my last class.

"Hey Ren," I heard Joshua Richards greet.

I twirled around to find him behind me with his sweet smile I loved.

Josh was tall, lean and muscular. His dirty blonde hair was cut short, always spiked. I loved how strong his face features were, how cute he looked. I loved his dark green eyes. I cared about him, I did… But I don't know if I would call it love, like how momma loves dad or how dad loves momma. I cared about him though, which is all that mattered.

I told no one. I kept my thoughts from my dad and was so glad I was practically unable to show up in Alice's visions—I would come out blurry, and rarely she would make out what my future was but she never picked up on my relationship with Josh.

I wanted to tell Jacob, my best friend but I was afraid for him to think about it and have my dad find out—and I couldn't tell momma. She's always with dad. But even I think she would be against me being so close with a human. I didn't let any of my friends come to the house, afraid they would think about me and Josh.

I smiled. "Hey, what are—"

He interrupted me with a kiss. I kissed him back, our lips moving against one another for a moment until I pulled away with a slight smile.

"Let's study at my place." He smiled, grabbing hold of both my hands.

"Okay!" I quickly said because no way in hell were we studying at my house.

"Hey—Ren!"

I turned to see Chelsea Writer running along after me. She was breathless by the time she reached me.

"Can I borrow your notes from English?" She asked.

I nodded. "Sure. But… you were there?"

She bit her thin bottom lip before releasing it, "Actually I was texting Conner and got distracted."

I laughed. "Okay yeah, I can come over tonight and we will work something out.

Chelsea flashed me her big smile before trotting off.

The clouds covered the whole sky. It rained most of the day and just stopped about an hour ago. I have to admit I do miss the sun. My skin didn't sparkle when in the sun like my family, it glowed. A human's eyes really can't see—not like a vampire's eye-sight could.

Joshua started to lead me towards his red neon.

I slung my pink backpack in his backseat before getting into the passenger seat. When we both were now into the car and fastened in, I concentrated on feeling the soft fabric of the seat against my bare shoulders because of the strapless yellow top I wore with my reddish curls lightly touching the top of my shoulders.

I took off the black elastic band off my wrist—from Jacob, I picked up this habit to always carry a hair tie around—I tied my hair back in a messy bun and then looked at Josh who I caught was already looking at me with a grin.

I pulled out my Blackberry phone from my pocket and decided to text Jacob.

Hey don't pick me up. I'm going to Chelsea's house to study. I will talk to you later though.

I'm trying to live a normal teenage life. Is that so much to ask?

My phone vibrated, indicating I had a text from… Jacob.

Where is Chelsea's house?

I sighed.

I don't know. I will ask and then text you back.

I hit send the moment I felt the car start to move when Josh backed out, out of the parking spot. When he pulled out of the school it started to drizzle unsurprisingly. I felt his right hand grab for mine and I took hold of his hand in return.

I had a new text and I used my right hand to open it.

Okay honey. Get back to me ASAP.

Guilty, I felt nothing but guilty… I lied to Jacob; I lied to my best friend. That's something I haven't done yet. I lied to everyone else—momma, dad, my aunts and my uncles… even Grandma Esme and Grandpa Carlisle but never Jacob. I always tried to stay far away from lying to him.

Thinking about how guilty I felt the car came to an abrupt stop.

I looked at the clock on the dashboard that read 3:21PM—did it really take eleven minutes to get here? It felt much shorter than that.

I took off my seat belt and was about to swing over into the back seat to get my backpack but Josh grabbed my arm, stopping me.

"Don't worry about it," he smiled. "Come on, let's get inside. The rain is only getting harder."

I felt a little confused that he didn't want me to get my bag. We needed it to study. But I listened… Maybe he wanted to just come and get it later.

It was a nice house. A blue concrete two story house that had four white columns in the front with white trimming around the windows that were high and beautiful. A garden wrapped along the front to the sides of the house.

I couldn't stop and stare at the house for longer than three seconds. Josh and I jumped out of his car and ran through the doublewide front door, inside the house. I was completely soaked and so was he. We giggled like idiots for a few moments.

I've never been to his house. We've only been together for about five days. We were friends before then but I still never came to his house. It was very detailed. The inside was much nicer then the outside and the outside were pretty nice.

A huge living room greeted you when you walked in and to the left a curved, marbled stairway went up onto the second floor… obviously. I noticed that the tile was marble, just like the stairs. There were paintings hanging along the walls perfectly. A statue of a woman stood next to the black grand piano in the far back—the piano reminded me of my dad. I felt so much guiltier.

I felt my expression change when forcing myself to look elsewhere.

"Are you okay?" Josh asked gently. "You look upset…"

I forced a smile. "I'm fine—show me more of the house."

A huge smile formed on his lips. He grabbed my hand, leading me to the stairway. We walked up to the second floor which was all carpeted on that floor, a deep dark pink colored filled the area when stepping off the stairs. Josh led me to the room straight ahead, the door already opened.

It was a bedroom. The walls were painted green and posters were hanging along the walls of familiar and unfamiliar famous people. The carpet was a light gray color. I noticed a flat screen computer to the far right corner and a laptop on the desk next to it.

I skimmed my eyes around the room…

The queen sized bed in the room had a dark green comforter, a complete different shade from the walls—the walls were a much lighter green.

"This is your room?" I asked. I turned to face him.

He placed both his hands on my hips, pressing me against him.

"Yes, my room." He whispered right before catching his lips to mine.

I immediately wrapped my arms around his neck. I felt his tongue run against my bottom lip. I parted my lips, allowing his tongue to make entrance. His hands swept pass my backside and went to the back of my thighs before slowly rising a little higher, staying at my backside before griping there. My insides were startled at first—Josh has never touched that way and I wasn't sure what to make of it… if I liked it. I let him. It wasn't hurting anything…

He started to walk forward, our lips not unattached as he continued to walk, making me walk backwards. I didn't understand what was going on, why we were moving while kissing until I felt the bed against the back of my legs. He pressed me, pushing me lightly and I knew for sure now that he wanted me on the bed so I sat down and he pushed me down to where I was now laying on my back with him against me.

I felt his lips placing kisses along my neck. I felt my nails starting to dig into the back of his neck and I really had to chant to myself to be easy, to not use all my straight when feeling the sudden jolt of something run through me as he continued to kiss my neck. It felt good. I liked it. A lot.

We've never kissed like this.

My nails dug in his skin just a little bit deeper and his breathing got heavier with mine possibly heavier than his. His lips sucked and kissed my neck and I gasped when he hit a very sensitive spot. I wanted to make him feel as great as he was making me feel.

"J-Josh," I panted.

He took a moment before he pulled away to look at me and I took that opportunity to do exactly what he had just did to me. I kissed him along his neck… I was glad I hunted yesterday or this would be very difficult for me but my throat still felt a little uneasy.

I watched him pull away, quickly taking off his blue t-shirt, revealing his muscles of his pale chest. I brought my lips back to his neck and he gripped my hips. I moved a little lower, now against his collarbone as I was still under him.

"Oh hell, Ren!" He groaned loudly, his hand rubbing up and down my bare thigh. "You're so amazing."

I've been told that from my family… but it was different hearing it from him but why?

I smiled, still kissing along his collarbone and back to his neck when feeling him slowly switch positions, now between my legs. He took both his hands, guiding me to wrap my legs around him and I did. My sandals slipped off now.

I had both our lips meet again right before feeling something hard against me right in between my legs and I was a little confused...

Josh grab had grabbed hold at the top of my strapless shirt, pulling it down so quickly and forcefully. By the time I realized what he was doing, he was already massaging my breast through my strapless bra before he pulled that down too, massaging me there again. I started to like it at first until that hard feeling pressed up against me, between my legs again.

I pulled away and looked down towards where the hard feeling was coming from—my eyes widened and I couldn't believe I hadn't thought of it before. My heart had already been pounding in my chest but it just got a lot rougher and more uneven.

As long as it didn't get farther than this, then I'm fine…

It was like he read my mind, to try and make my life a living hell because he brought his hand down to unbutton his pants and undo his zipper.

"N-no," I stuttered. "I… don't—"

He smashed his lips to mine right when I felt him rub his hand up against my breast again.

So we weren't going to do… that? I hope not. This is as far as it's getting.

His hands gripped my hips pressing me against him and I still felt very uncomfortable. I was afraid that this would go farther so I only concentrated on every move from here and on. I wouldn't let it get farther.

"God Ren, I want you." He whispered right after pulling away from my lips. "So, so much."

I watched him hover lower, his face right between my legs now and quickly zipped down my shorts.

"Josh, we need to stop—please."

His face was quickly to back up to mine with his hand still down there and his other started to cup my breast.

"I can make you feel amazing, Ren." He murmured against my neck. "Just relax."

I slowly shook my head and I expected him to stop right there but he didn't. Instead he quickly unbuttoned my shorts and I was horrorstruck. I couldn't believe that he wouldn't stop after I asked him to. I couldn't move, still shocked.

"P-p-please stop." I still couldn't move and was surprised when I was able to make sound. "I don't want to do—"

"Shhh… Ren, just go with it. You will warm up to it, I promise."

The tears streamed down my face.

"No!" I screamed. "Get off of me!"

"If you just relax you will enjoy—"

"NO!" I screamed louder.

A second later I was able to move and pushed him off of me. He was shocked I pushed him off so easily, as if he were a feather. I knew I didn't want… that. I wasn't ready and it didn't feel right. It felt wrong. Completely wrong. The tears continued running down my cheeks nonstop.

"Baby," he spoke softly, getting to his feet onto the carpet. "Everything is okay—trust me, you will be fine."

I just shook my head, pulling my bra and strapless shirt back up. My head started to spin. My heart ached with hurt and betrayal. I wished that this didn't happen, that the Josh I thought I knew wouldn't have tried to… force me. He was still trying to force me.

"You're amazing, baby." He skimmed his eyes down my body. "I love you."

"If you love me then we don't have to do this…" I nearly whispered.

I gave him a chance to turn this all around, to even forgive and forget that this ever happened. His dark green eyes had burned into mine.

"We're together. This is what we're supposed to do." His voice was harsh—I've never heard him use that tone. "If you expect me to stay with you without this then you're a joke and I don't need you."

More tears came, blurring my vision.

"Y-you don't… need me?" I sniffled, thinking about his words.

"Not if you can't give this one little thing I ask from you."

I looked at his angry expression he held. I had to leave. I couldn't stay; I couldn't stay and give him… that. I was better than that. I wouldn't give it up so easily. I will just have to leave. I don't care if him and were suppose to be friends… he wasn't suppose to do that; he wasn't suppose to try and force me into something I didn't want. Friends don't do that.

I quickly grabbed my sandals and ran out of the room—I fought the urge to take off inhumanly fast. I had to wait to be outside at least. It was pouring now. I waited until I was into the forest until I picked up speed. The ran slapped against me as my tears still came.

I sobbed, running and running through the mossy green trees, everything blurring right by.

I knew exactly where to go. Who I needed. I needed Jacob.

Jacob. I need him.

So Jacob Black's house it is.

I'm not sure if this is a one-shot or if I'm continuing. Leave a review and tell me what you think! This is my first fafic. Reviews will encourage me. Thank you for reading!