SongFic Title: Just
Like You
Song Used: Just Like You by Three Days Grace
Author:
mmerryddeath
Pairing: Ron/Draco, implied Draco/Harry
Disclaimer:
Harry Potter and all the characters and settings e.t.c. belong to J K
Rowling, not me. The lyrics to Just Like You belong to Three Days
Grace. I am not making money from this.
Author's notes: This was
originally published on my LJ account, mery_death_7. This is the
first song fic I've tried. It's quite angsty, and portrays Ron in a
dark way. The idea came from how angry he must get at always being
the third wheel to Harry's fame and Hermione's smartness. Set in the
fifth and sixth books. Enjoy.
I
could be mean
I remember the way he walked, as if he
owned the school.
I could be
angry
Expensive robes billowing around him, blond hair
slicked back perfect.
You know I could be
just like you
How I blushed when he saw my hand-me-down
clothes. How he looked at me as if I was dirt on his shoe.
I
could be fake
I remember when his smiles stopped touching
his eyes. Eyes like ice.
I could be
stupid
He never saw me. I'm just a tag-along. Best
friend of the Boy Who Lived.
You know I
could be just like you
I could be just as mean if I
wanted. Just as cruel and cutting and subversive. The only way he
would see me is when we trade insults, and I can never think of
anything then because he's talking to me.
You
thought you were standing beside me
But he doesn't look
at me. Not in the way I want.
You were
only in my way
He looks at Harry. Grey eyes digging into
him. He'll never see me watching him; he's too busy watching my
best mate.
You're wrong if you think that
I'll be just like you
And Harry never noticed the look in
Draco's eyes.
You
thought you were there to guide me
You
were only in my way
I got used to being a shadow,
You're
wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
Suffering
his cruel laughs because anything was worth it if he only looked at
me with those eyes.
You thought you were
there to guide me
You were
only in my way
I started hating Harry: Harry who could
have all the things I wanted, and never took them.
You're
wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
And Draco
with his money and perfection.
I
could be cold
He was always unattainable, icy, out of my
league.
I could be ruthless
Which
doesn't mean I didn't try.
You know I
could be just like you
It's easy, easy, once you get
past the guilt. Stealing Harry's hair wasn't difficult.
I
could be weak
Polyjuice potion was harder, but I managed.
Laughed because if Hermione ever found out, she wouldn't believe I
could do it.
I could be senseless
So
easy.
You know I could be just like you
I
could pretend he was mine. Not for long. An hour. His skin, so pale
it nearly glowed, pressed me against a wall. His hair in disarray,
colour rising in his face. His hands were lukewarm.
You
thought you were standing beside me
The Boy Who Lived. He
gets everything I want.
You were only in
my way
I remember the hurt on Draco's face the next
day. Knowing I had caused it, and feeling pained and happy all at the
same time.
You're wrong if you think that
I'll be just like you
Harry never knew what I did. He
couldn't understand why his enemy was suddenly following him
around, grabbing at his body and talking about kisses.
You
thought you were there to guide me
I knew.
You
were only in my way
I knew something that Harry and
Hermione never did.
You're wrong if you
think that I'll be just like you
They don't know what
I'm like.
You thought you were there to
guide me
You were only in my
way
They don't know what I'm capable of.
You're
wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
I let him
taunt me. I let him use me as a replacement. Before, I couldn't
imagine there was anything that the rich Slytherin couldn't have.
But he had his weaknesses. Just like I do. And I used him just as
much as he used me.
On
my own, cause I can't take living with you
I still hated
Harry for it. Imagined that if he had never existed, I could be
more.
I'm alone, so I won't turn out like
you
Want me to
More
than a sidekick or a replacement. It built up in me like a fire, like
a storm of rage.
You
thought you were standing beside me
All I needed was an
excuse.
You were only in my way
Any
excuse.
You're wrong if you think
that I'll be just like you
I would have done away with
the Boy Who Bloody Lived faster than any Death Eater. All for him.
You
thought you were there to guide me
You
were only in my way
Even when we were together, it wasn't
me Draco saw.
You're wrong if you think
that I'll be just like you
Wasn't me he touched or my
name he cried out.
You thought you were
there to guide me
It hurt like nothing else could. But it
was pain that he gave me, and I cherished it for that.
You
were only in my way
I saw him hurting and
vulnerable.
You're wrong if you think that
I'll be just like you
I saw the snake on his arm before
Harry did. I keep it secret. He turns to me more this year, scared.
His cruelty stripped away. Imperious mask gone. I almost feel like
he's mine.
I
could be mean
Now he's alone and frightened.
I
could be angry
He hurts me because I'm not who he wants
and he isn't really a killer. I taunt him with the name he's
meant to live up to.
You know I could be
just like you
I wonder if they knew, how shocked they
would be? If they could see past our physicality and know that I'm
as cruel to him as he is to me. Even if I'm a replacement, he'll
come back to me. He'll come back for my body, and because there's
no-one else he can turn to.
You know I
could be just like you
End.
