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I've heard stories of girls getting involved with older men some last other don't. I never thought it would be me who would find herself in one either. But life never turns out the way you plan it never goes the way you want. Love is love, forbidden or not.

BEEP, BEEP, BEEP!

"Ugh," I grumbled as I rolled out of bed and hit my alarm clock effectively shutting it off. I made my way to the bathroom I shared with Charlie.

Charlie and my mother purchased this house together before I was born, I liked the house it was cute. I did however hate one part of it, the kitchen and not because I couldn't cook because I could I was really good at it. No I hated it because when I was two my mother had attempted to add a bit of color to it and painted it bright yellow. Like puke inducing bright yellow. Shortly after this however she left us claiming she wasn't happy and didn't want to be a mother anymore. Well when Charlie told the story he left out the part about her not wanting to be a mother, but I remember because I was an exceptionally bright kid. So I can remember things from when I was 18 months old. I would never tell Charlie that I knew though, he would hate himself. I knew he only left it out so that I wouldn't hate her but I do I hate her. The last time I heard from her I was 11 she sent me a red headed glass doll about a week later I claimed the wind from my open window had blown it off the shelf and it broke. Charlie had looked at the window then down at the doll then said well clean it up just make sure nothing else that is breakable is near the edge. He knew I had dropped it on purpose it had been a nice sunny day no breeze but he knew I hated the doll I didn't like any doll this one in particular.

I turned off the shower and wrapped my towel around me and went back to my room to get ready. I pulled on a pair of skinny jeans a white cami tank top and one of Charlie's old flannel shirts that I rolled up to my elbows. I pulled on my converse high tops and grabbed my book bag and went out to my truck. It was a Saturday I was babysitting for Edward Cullen his wife died a few years ago leaving him with three small kids under the age of 5 I had started babysitting about a year ago. The man worked crazy hours and I was always willing to help. He paid me way more then I deserve but I couldn't turn him down. I did once, I refused his money the hurt he got in his eyes made me change my mind in an instant and I took the money making his face go from hurt to relief just as fast.

I pulled into his long drive and parked in front of his house, it was huge maybe too big for him and his kids but it had been a gift from his father and he like me couldn't refuse. I walked up the porch steps and let myself in he had insisted I start doing this shortly after I started babysitting.

I was instantly bombarded by three very squishy kids. I looked down to see Emmett attached to my left leg Alice on my right leg and Jasper hanging back just a bit. Out of the three he was the shyest Emmett and Alice are the oldest they are twins then there is Jasper he's the youngest he, I would have to say is my favorite although I wouldn't voice that out loud. Emmett and Alice both had black hair and in the sunlight it had tints of red in it, Jasper however had cute dirty blond curls just like his mother's but what I loved most about their looks was their eyes they all had their fathers eyes a bright emerald green that could reach your soul.

As I was taking them in making sure they weren't sad today, I saw Edward coming down the stairs. I immediately looked up transfixed, I don't really know when it happened but sometime in the last year I had started to have this attraction to him that I didn't understand it made no sense he was 25 years old for Pete sake. But I fought it as best I could there were times where I fantasized a lot about things I could do to him.

I shook the thoughts out of my head just as he reached me, "So Bella I have to pull a double today we are starting our new interns."

He was an attending pediatric surgeon at Seattle General. At first I didn't understand why he drove 3 hours to work but then my best friend Rosalie had told me his wife had died giving birth to Jasper at the hospital here in Forks. Once I understood I didn't think about it anymore. I think though that that is why Jasper was my favorite. I never knew their mother but from the pictures I've seen of her she was beautiful.

"That's fine so I should expect you home around 1ish?" I said as I pried Emmett off my leg (Alice had since let go and was playing with her dolls in the corner.)

"Yeah maybe sooner if it's slow, I have several surgeries scheduled most of the morning but then after it's just post ops and the occasional emergency surgery." He grabbed his keys then paused, "I don't really have to pull a double but I like to be there when we bring in new interns."

"No problem, I got things under control here." I said giving him a smile

"Yeah you always do, they love you, you know that?"

"What's not to love? I'm freakin awesome!" I responded making him laugh

I noticed he's been doing a lot of that lately I wonder what was causing it. Oh well, I thought as I watched him walk out the door. As soon as it was shut I turned to the kids, "So who wants pancakes?"

There was aloud chorus of mes and yeas, so I made my way to the kitchen I looked back to see them trailing behind me like little ducks. I couldn't resist I took out my phone then switched the camera to the front view then making sure the four of us were all in it I snapped the picture. It was perfect. I locked my phone then slid it into my pocket I would send that to Edward later when I know he's not driving.

Soon pancakes were made and gone and a mess was in their place, all three kids where covered in syrup and in Alice's case peanut butter and syrup. On the counter was a thick layer of syrup as well. Before I let them get up I quickly wiped up the counter then their hands the rest would have to come off in the tub.

"Alright you three tubby time, let's go."

I unhooked Jasper from his highchair as Alice and Emmett hopped down and then followed me up to the bathroom.

"Alright what color do you guys want today I think its Jasper's turn to pick?" I asked as I opened their color tablets.

Alice and Emmett both got pouty looks on their faces, "You guys got to pick the last two nights it's Jasper's turn," I turned to Jasper, and showed him the chart I made up for him being two he didn't know his colors all that well so this helped, "Jasper what color do you want?"

He pointed to the color blue, "But he always picks blue," Emmett whined, "He never picks a fun color like me or Alice."

"If you guys whine I'll let him pick all week long." I said looking down at them

As soon as I said it they shut their mouths tight this was one of their favorite things to do they wouldn't risk not being able to do it. I started the water and dropped in a few blue tablets then started helping them get out of their jammies. Once they were all in the tub I washed their hair and bodies I always did it first the sooner they got it out of the way the sooner I would dump in their toys.

The day had been eventful I had put the kids down about an hour ago and now I was sitting on the floor in front of the couch headphones in and doing homework.

As I did my homework I thought about the kids. They were good kids never gave me any trouble. I thought back to the bath this morning and how Emmett had said Jasper always picks blue as I thought about that I stood up to go get myself some juice as I passed one of the tables I noticed a picture of Lauren Edwards wife. I knew it was there but something had caught my eye, I lifted it up to look at it and it hit me. He isn't picking blue because it's the only one he knows which is what I had originally thought he was picking blue because Blue was the color of her eyes. I looked at the picture for a moment longer before I started to tear up then put the picture down. I couldn't stop thinking about how sweet yet sad that was. I decided to push it out of my mind. I got my juice then went to finish my homework. I was glad this was my last semester, high school bored me, I was getting straight A's and was in all honors classes and because of the honors classes I had to go to school in Aberdeen they didn't offer Honors classes for all the subjects I was taking here in our small town of forks just for English and history.

When my dad had found this out he had enrolled me in Aberdeen high school, normally they don't allow this but my dad being a chief of police they allowed it. It was there that I had met Rosalie. It was freshmen year we were both new to the school district she had just moved to forks from California, and like me was an honor student but unlike me her parents had to pay a huge fee to get her in. But even thought we were so different we have been best friends since.

She knows everything about me (Including my attraction to Edward), and I know everything about her. She is the oldest of 5 and I'm an only child but she says I'm her sister. I smiled when I remembered her calling me that for the first time,

"Bella," Rosalie said as I sat down next to her in trig, "I think you need to be my sister."

"What are you talking about?" I asked really confused

"Well you have your dad and your mom's a bitch but you have no siblings. I'll be your sister."

She had said it so seriously that I just had to agree with her and since then we were sisters.

That was middle of freshman year.

"What are you smiling about?" Edwards soft voice asked from the door way.

I was startled so bad I threw the books I was stacking at him. I'm not the strongest person but if you scare me, I will suddenly become She-Ra.

"Oh I didn't mean to scare you I just got home and you seemed so in the zone I couldn't help but admire it." He said as he stooped to help me gather my books.

"It's fine," I said as I picked up my BioCem book, "and yes I was in the zone," I paused and looked at the clock, "Yeah I finished a lot sooner than I thought I would.

We cleaned up the books in silence, the last book was my trig book we both reached for it at the same time and his hand brushed against mine I pulled away at the sudden contact but what surprised me the most was the feeling I got at his touch.

It was like my body was electrified but not painfully it felt amazing. But I have to ignore that he is so much older than me. I snatched up the book then shoved it into my bag with the rest.

"Well it's late I should go," I said as I zipped up the bag I made the mistake of looking into his eyes, "But maybe I should stay the night I have to be here early tomorrow as well not worth the trip there and back.'

My voice sounded like I was out of breath, my heart was going a mile a minute, and I felt hot and tingly all over.

He reached over and slid the bag off my shoulder then reached into my back pocket and grabbed my phone. He tapped a few keys then set it down on the table by now we were inches from each other.

"You are beautiful Bella, why have I not seen this before?" He said sounding just as breathless as I was

"Maybe for the same reason I was forcing myself to ignore my attraction towards you." I said as we continued to move closer.

He didn't seem surprised by my revelation, he actually seemed delighted. Now we were so close that we could hold up a magazine between the two of us. Slowly he raised his hand to my cheek, and before I knew it he was kissing me.