Its been 8 months 9 weeks 3 days and 19 hours since Edward left me in the forest. That day he left
me he took my heart with him I'm not me I haven't been. I want to move on but no matter how hard I try
that hole just keeps getting bigger. Every mention of Ed… him the hole gets bigger and I cant stop it.
Charlie's about had it with me and my zombie mode. My friends well… I don't think you could call them
my friends anymore they tried making conversation but I just ignored them and after a while they gave up.
Its like I'm on autopilot I do everything I'm suppose to I get up I go to school im come home do
my homework clean and go to bed., but there's one problem I don't want to be the person who dwells on the
past and keeps thinking every second it was just a mistake he's coming back for me when in the back of my
head I know he isn't it wasn't a mistake it never was and never will be. I want to move on I want to be
happy and be me be bells… Whoa the last person to call me that was Jake? Jacob Black.
FLASHBACK (Italics are bella and bold is Jacob)
Hey bells his tone happy and well Jake
Bells? since when am I called bells?
Since now, you're my new best friend and I think I should give you a nick name. How about this I can call you bells and you can give me a nickname?
Urmmm… Ok then bells it is and your nickname is……..Jake!
Ha ok then its settled bells.
End Flashback
I miss being the days were you could be young and so care free. I never got that chance I always
had to be the adult in the case of Renee I had to be the responsible one. I could never cut loose have fun ,
instead I had responsibilities. But you know what im done im gunna be a new bells A stronger confident
healthy bells no more fragile scared self conscious Bella. Good bye Bella Hello Bells.