"YOU'RE HERE! YOU ACTUALLY SHOWED UP!" She ran across the room and jumped into my hug. I couldn't help but smile. She made me happier than I've ever been. These moments were my favourite. Whenever she saw me in person she would give me the biggest grin I think I've ever seen. She's beautiful when she smiles.
"Of course I'm here. I promised didn't I." And we looked at each other as we both laughed. She and I both knew that my promises to show up aren't really reliable. What she doesn't know is that before that laugh I had been crying for days. She's the one who makes me laugh after days of feeling down. She turned back around and did the most dorky smile at me and told me not to be late again. And I fell even more in love with someone I can't have.
Let me give you some backstory. Me and Her have been friends for about a year. Maybe longer. I met her at a youth group. She was bouncy and bubbly, I on the other hand didn't want to be there. I had no intention of making any friends that day. But thanks to her I have a best friend. The second time I met her I started to fall in love. She was everything I wanted to be and more. Confident. Intelligent. Funny. And more than anything else she was beautiful. We've been friends since the first hello.
Now this all sounds horrifically cheesy. Love at first (well technically second) sight ect ect. However there's a twist. She has no idea how much I love her. At all. And I think I'm going to keep it to myself. It's better than ruining our friendship. I'd rather daydream about our fantasy future together than tell her how I feel and lose her. Oh and another issue? She's in love with someone else. And they suit perfectly. I mean they're best friends. They love each other. And they're happy.
Well I mean, if she's happy I'm happy right? Um... yeah.. sounds right. Who am I kidding. It kills me when I see them together. But I can't say a word. Why? Because SHE DOESN'T KNOW HOW I FEEL. AND SHE NEVER EVER WILL. Unless someone else finds out and tells her but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it hey?