The room was dark and musty. Only the moonlight outside illuminated through the barred window, seeping through the uncovered parts of it. Nothing else could be seen but outlines of a low bed, a flimsy chair and an old table. Also a blue figure sat on the bed, hanging his head low. Probably thinking something heavy and a very sorrowful one at it. Although very dark to see his face, he knew he was feeling something that what he had to do earlier broke his heart, it felt so painful and was definitely filling his thoughts with guilt.
"Why did I have to do that?" he managed to think aloud softly through his dry lips.
"Why couldn't I save him? Why?" he kept repeating the word a few times. Still not giving up saying it aloud.
The pain in his heart he felt inside was so painful he cringed everytime he brought the subject up, or anyone else in fact. But probably to him it was the only way he could reduce the impact, finding an answer would be good enough for him to soothe his nerves.
But if he were to have done it, it was already too late for it to change. It happened all too quickly before he could make a decision. He couldn't stand the fact but in the end, it remained true. He was gone, gone forever.
The rest of his alive family tried what they could to calm him down. In some cases it did help, but that would rarely happen. And he still had much to let go.
He turned to the table in front of him. On top of it layed a notebook he used to write a journal of everything that happened each day, although dirty it still remained useful. Many pages were still empty, waiting to be filled in.
He had planned to write something, anyway. As probably what happened today would be best written down so he could remember it forever, remember him forever.
He got up and groggily made his way towards the chair. He then took the pencil he placed on the page he wrote down the latest on. He then wrote a couple of words onto the free spaces on the bottom. It said,
Scavenging today. Took off with enough food. And the most surprising part of it all, we lost Darwin.