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Shinigami's Bible: Learning the ways of Death
Chpt 1: Ways to die.
Often at times people regret the choices they've made in their life. Sometimes ending up in tears because of regret. I could never be one of those people, at least that's how I've always felt. As I see it people have a tendency to blame themselves for everything. Secretly harboring the saint in them, just waiting for an opportunity to get all high and mighty. I honestly despise those sorts of people because they're all just pretending to be perfect. But people are far from perfect. The earth is full of humans who lie, cheat, steal, pillage, burn, break, kill, sell themselves for money, and rape. In this world there's no point to breath, you'll only end up imposing on someone else's space. If you take one step outside all you see is the evil in people waiting to make you look bad just to get ahead in this world. Who needs to get ahead in this world full of phonies and fakes. All this leads me to wonder, what possessed God to create such horrible likenesses of himself? Why mass produce these creatures with so many obvious flaws? Couldn't he have just made a copy of his better traits and let us have those instead? And in the end if I remember correctly, in the Bible didn't God flood the earth with water for forty days and forty nights to get rid of all the evil people inhabiting it? By the looks of it, that didn't really help much, except to lower the population.
I'm not about to complain too much, my family doesn't need to add my personal problems to their things to worry about. We're constantly low on cash and Mother barely has time to rest between jobs. She asked me to go out and get a job recently because of the fact she got laid off and we desperately need the money to keep us alive. I know it's got to be hard raising six kids on your own. Actually I've been the one taking care of my three brothers and two sisters, I have to, I'm the oldest. But when she got laid off she decided that she wanted to stay home and watch her family. But if anything, it was the worst thing I've ever done in my life. I did the most horrible thing ever to get the job; I slept with the guy who was hiring people for the position. There was no way I could feel bad for doing it. The job was paying six-seventy-five an hour. In this town you're lucky enough to even get minimum wage. I was competing against with about fifty other people for the job, the odds of me getting it the conventional way was slim, considering I was still in high school. The man was morally incorrect he was willing to give the job away for a quick fuck. The guy even knew I was still in my teens, but sadly to say I didn't mind it that much, considering I had already lost my virginity last year, to a hot jock. That's beside the point.
You know, I'd have to say the non-conventional way of getting paid is much more profiting then any conventional, moral, way. What I mean by that is, the hours weren't that great so.......I did something I knew would give my mother a heart attack if she found out. I started to do the selling yourself for money thing, I know it is wrong, but it brought home a lot more money for food and clothes. Now everyone seemed so happy that they were nicely clothed and feed regularly. The only problem was that it was at the coast of my body, but like I said before I couldn't feel bad I was doing it for a good cause, for my family. And recently I figured something out, I'm worth more dead then I am alive. I could provide my family with a sufficient amount of money to last them the rest of their adolescent life, just by dieing. The only problem now is I can't stand living like this anymore, knowing I could do much better laying beneath the ground.
"Duo please open your eyes!"
"Lady that's not going to bring him back any quicker."
"I don't care he's my baby!" I could hear sirens playing in the back round knowing fully well that I had not died as I had tried.
"Mother?"
"Oh Duo."
The world is full of impurities, and I'm just another blemish on the porcelain skin.
A/N: A short but effective chpt if you ask me, and if anyone was in some way offended by my mentioning of God and the bible I'm sorry sincerely. But if you liked the chpt PLEASE REVIEW IT!! I have eleven chpts so far and I've got up to chpt six with plans on what's happening in the chpts so this should go by relatively fast taking into consideration that school doesn't get in the way too much.