As I gave her one last hug, my resolve failed and the dam holding back my tears failed. She was leaving and it wasn't even after an argument, it hadn't ended up as an "I don't love you any more" situation. She just had to go.
"A few years ago you'd have been glad to see me go," she laughed. I laughed too. It was true but it didn't make it any better, didn't stop the pain. As I cried harder, she said "come on now Freddie, you know I can't pass up this opportunity." She patted me on the shoulder before gently pulling me off her. "Besides, you've got your whole life ahead of you. You'll probably forget about me before I get off the plane." And with that, her flight was called. In an instant she was heaving her luggage down the terminal, one hand waving goodbye and a beaming grin on her face.
Nearby a man in a suit, probably a travelling businessman, looked towards me from his laptop. "Everything's gonna be all right," he said.
I doubted his words. I was feeling a pain I'd never felt before and it a cure didn't seem possible. I smiled through the tears and nodded to him. "It won't but thanks anyway," I said. I took a seat with a view out of the window overlooking the runway. I sat and watched the planes taking off and landing for about an hour, not knowing which one was hers.
I made the loneliest walk of my life back to the car. That we'd shared the car for two years didn't help my broken heart in the slightest. Reaching towards the door handle, it occurred to me that she had driven, wanting to have one last drive in it and she still had the keys. Seattle never disappointed and the first drops of rain splashed on the roof. In the circumstances, I thought it mildly fortunate that people wouldn't see my tears on the long walk home.
-A/N-
It's been a while. This one was partially inspired by a song called "Summercat" by Billie the Vision and the Dancers. Also, I wrote it with the idea of quickly saying goodbye to iCarly and the fandom, just in case (as I've been pretty inactive for which you can blame writer's block and personal stuff). I am working on another fic in the wake of the revelation of Sam's mum. Plus I've got a few unfinished things that might get finished and I hope some sort of ending to my current multi-chapter fics. But no promises.