Chapter 1-
Shizuo x Izaya
Shizuo's POV-
Why does he always think he can mess with me? "AND WHY THE FUCK DOES HE ALWAYS GET AWAY WITH IT!" I yelled as he had just taken off running after he cut my vest, shirt, and pants, and broke my sunglasses… We argue, then fight, and then he gets away and SOME part of my clothing is unusable anymore.
"Damn flea…. My brother got me these clothes…." I mumbled but decided to let it go today since I didn't want to chase after him in torn clothes. So I went back to my apartment and when I got there, my brother was waiting for me when I walked in the door.
"Hello Nee-san." He greeted. "Eh? Kasuka? What are you doing here?..." A better thought would be how he got into my LOCKED apartment… He probably found out where I lived and just got another key. It's probably easy with all of the resources he has…
"I thought I'd visit you… Did you get into a fight again? What have I told you about that, it's bad for you to fight so much so stop it. Okay?" he said blankly. "B-But he's the one who always starts EVERYTHING!" I blurted out, trying not to lose my temper. "He always taunts me and goes after me first! Why do I have to-" He stopped me and repeated himself.
"Don't fight so much with Izaya. Got it Nee-san?" I stared at him and tried to resist fighting back. "Fine. I'll try." I stated coldly. "Good. Now I have to leave for a photo shoot but I'll be around again… Bye bye Nee-san." He said and walked out the door.
I lit a cigarette and sighed, trying not to let out my frustrations on my apartment… I laid down and stared up at my ceiling. Why does everything in my life have to suck?... Why does the flea always have to make things worse?
I ended up falling asleep and I didn't wake up until the next morning. I opened my eyes slowly and stretched, yawning and scratching my head. I decided to get dressed since I fell asleep in my torn up clothes and went outside for a walk.
I lit another cigarette and gave a sigh… Today seemed so quiet… I watched as the cars passed by and people crossed the street. It was actually turning out to be a decent day…
"Hey Shizu-chan~" Izaya called from behind me. I winced at his annoying voice and didn't turn around. "Beat it flea." I threatened. "Oh my Shizu-chan~ Grumpy today aren't we? ~" He chimed and walked up behind me.
"I don't want to fight today. So get the hell away from me….." I said scowling and started to walk away. "Oh~… Your scared? I never knew you to be such a chicken, Shi-zu-chan~" I stopped and tightened my fists. Just ignore him…. He's baiting you…. Don't fall for it…. Kasuka will get mad again…
"Hehe…. Ya'know Shizu-chan…" he paused and walked up right up behind me again. "I love it when you get mad~" he whispered in my ear and grabbed my ass. I jumped and turned around, about ready to hit him square in the face but then he stood up on his toes and kissed me.
I froze. This….. There's no way this is happening right now… Suddenly I felt a pain in my side and pushed him away. "Wh-What the fuck Izaya!" I snapped and swung at him. Of course I missed and he danced around like a 5 year old who had just gotten what he wanted for Christmas….. I looked down at my side and saw that a needle was there. I pulled it out and threw it on the ground, breaking it.
"What the hell did you give me." I growled. "Oh?~ That… Well I didn't actually think it wound work.~ I didn't know I could actually manage to stab you with something~" He taunted and twirled around. I was officially pissed. I walked up to him and grabbed him by the neck, squeezing tightly.
"Tell. Me. What. You. Gave. Me. NOW" I yelled and slammed him against a nearby wall. "Heh… Ugghh… Hahaha I love it w-when you're like this… Sh-Shizu-chan… -cough-cough-… but…" he paused and grabbed my arm tightly with one hand and held a knife to my neck with the other.
"I would let me go… If I were you…" he threatened. "HA! YOU THINK I'M SCARED OF YOU! Che! Gimme a break!" I shot back and squeezed harder on his neck, hearing his gasp for air. "Shi…zuo… S-Stop… Y-Your… Hurting me-uhhgnn…" he barely breathed and pressed the knife to my abdomen. I winced as the knife cut through my clothes and into my skin, going further and further. The pain was beginning to become noticeable and caused me to grit my teeth and loosen my grip. He pushed it farther and had the whole blade stab into me.
"Uhhgg… D-Damn it…" I breathed and released him. He fell to the ground and hunched over holding his neck, coughing and gasping. I held my stomach and looked down… I could see a lot of blood already oozing out of my wound…. It was pretty deep and I was starting to get dizzy. "Heh… Serves you right…" he sneered and walked up to me. "Not scared huh?..." He slashed at me again and cut my arm before I was able to avoid it. "Shit…. Ugghh…" I was starting to lose control of my body…
"That drug I gave you should start to have an effect on you by now…" he smirked and kicked me in the stomach, causing me to fall on my back and knocked the wind out of me. I couldn't move and I was gasping for air…. My mind was starting to get dark… I couldn't see straight…
"You're so pathetic Shizu-chan… Heh…" he bent down and tilted my head up, holding the knife to my throat. I winced as it cut into my skin again and Izaya laughed… "I could kill you right now ya'know… It would be so easy… But, I don't think I should right now~"
I glared at him and I said something but I don't remember what it was… His eyes widened and his expression was completely surprised… that was the last thing I remembered before I felt the cold darkness consume me… I knew this darkness all too well… Whenever I got injured really badly I would meet this darkness every single time… I hate it. I feel like I'll never see light again…. It scares me… I…. Somebody…. Help me….
-Every now and then I'd feel warmth on my forehead or cheek…. Or felt someone rustling my hair… it felt nice…. I was actually pretty calm for once. Then, suddenly there was this rush of cold air and I was in a room….. All of the lights were out and there was an eerie silence. "Hello?..." I said and it echoed through the small room.
Then, I heard Izaya's voice…. It didn't sound annoying like usual though. It sounded like he was in pain… I looked around and squinted my eyes in the dark room but I couldn't see anything, it was almost pitch black. I got a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach and was starting to get worried.
I called Izaya's name over and over but he didn't respond.
Why am I freaking out? It's just Izaya….
I panicked and searched the room. I felt my way around and I didn't come across anything until I tripped over something on the floor. "Oww… Uhhnn…. What is this?..." I mumbled and felt around. I got a pain of shock as I realized that it was a person on the floor… Suddenly the room started smelling of blood and the room lit up with a dark red glow.
"Shi….zu…o… h-help… me…. Uhhnn…" My eyes widened in shock and saw Izaya lying on the floor…. bloody and barely able to speak. "I-Izaya?..." I said with fear in my voice and I noticed that the smell of blood grew stronger. I came over to him and held his head up, lingering over him.
Why do I feel so much pain...?
"Who did this? What happened?" I asked frantically. "Mmhhnnn…. I-I'm… sor..ry… Sh-Shizu…ch-an… I… can't…" he stopped and his whole body went limp. Huh?... what's happening… this is all wrong.
"No…. Izaya…. Y-Your not dead….. you… Y-Your just messing with me…. T-this isn't r-real…." I said, my voice filled to the brim with panic and fear, hoping I was right.
Why do I want to cry?…..
But he didn't move…. His body became colder and colder…. I could feel myself start to lose it. Why was I getting so upset? Why does he seem to mean so much to me?... I could feel a warm stream of tears on my face and I bent over him.
"Izaya… Izaya… uhhnn… Izaya…I-Izaya….." I cried helplessly, trying to bring him back. I looked up from my tears and noticed something else… there were more people…. People I knew… My brother…. Kanra….. Celty… Kida… everyone. I looked around in fear…. They were all covered in blood…. Dead.
No…. this isn't happening…. No… No…. NO! "NO DAMN IT!... " I cried through my tears. "Izaya! Wake up! Please! Nuhhh… Izaya!" I hugged his lifeless body and cried over him… I just kept calling his name over and over.
Why is this happening?...
….But then…. I heard something…. That was from somewhere else….-
"Shi-"….-"Shizu-"…..-"Shizuo! Oi Shizuo!" " Wake up!" …. My eyes snapped open and I sat up quickly, breathing heavily and sweating. "Oi Shizuo… are you okay?"…. I looked around and I saw Izaya sitting next to me by my bed. "What…. Happened…." I asked with my voice unsteady.
"Heh… You tell me. I come in the room to check on you and you were sweating and tossing around, the next thing I know you're calling out my name and you started crying….." His voice trailed off and he looked away. "Huh?..." I questioned and I rubbed my eyes, only to find wet tears on my hands. "Oh….. Sorry…." I said and wiped the rest of them off with my shirt.
"It's fine but… what on earth were you dreaming about that would make you act this way?... Heh, I've never seen Shizu-chan cry before." He said with a small laugh. I looked down and avoided the question… "How did I get here?..." I asked trying to keep calm.
"Uhh… well after you passed out I decided to take care of you so I brought you to your apartment and you've been out for two days…" He said with a forced smile. "Huh… Oh yeah…. I remember saying something before I passed out but I don't remember what it was…." He got a slight blush on his face and looked away. "Oh, it's nothing important! Just some mindless jabber! Just like you, Hahaha…" I stared at him with a dull expression.
"Why….. did you decide to take care of me?..." I asked curiously. "O-Oh…. Well I didn't want to just leave you out in the open to die and I didn't feel like killing you yet so I decided to take care of you~" He chimed. I laughed slightly and went back to looking down…
"Hey…. Seriously though Shizu-chan…. What did you dream about?..." he got closer to me and listened. "I hate…. that darkness….." I mumbled. "What?" he asked, obviously confused but I went on. "It always leads to something bad…. Something scary…. Something that I don't want to happen…."
I could feel the tears building up again but I kept my head hung low. "Everyone…. You… My brother…. My friends… you all had died… in a bloody mess…. And I didn't know what to do… all I could do was hold you…. I-I couldn't bring you back….. I… I kept calling your name b-but you just kept getting cold…-" I hunched over and shivered as the tears returned and streamed down my face. I gripped the sheets tightly and felt the warm droplets hit the back of my hands.
"I had nobody left!... –sniff- a-all could do was cry…. I couldn't do anything!... uhhnn….. I was so scared…. I th-thought It was my fault!... I thought you were gone forever… I-I-" My eyes widened as I got cut off by Izaya hugging me. I just sat there and stared off into space, wide-eyed and had tears going down my face.
"It's okay now Shizuo…. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere…" He mumbled. I paused for a minute before breaking down and hung my head over his shoulder, hugging him tightly. "Uhhnn… -sniff- I-Izaya…. I-I'm sorry…." I sniffed and let go of him, but he didn't let go of me. I sat there and nudged at him, but he didn't let go…
"I-Izaya…?" He only hugged me tighter and hung his head. "I'm sorry Shizu-chan… but it scares me to see you like this for some reason. I don't know why… but it makes me sad…" He mumbled and then laughed slightly, "Don't think this changes anything though! Heh… I'm still gunna kill you one day!... I smiled slightly and put my hand on his back as he continued to hug me.
Still the same old Izaya…. I thought, strangely happy and drifted off to sleep, lying on Izaya's shoulder.
-I didn't dream about anything this time… just sleep and it was pretty nice considering I was exhausted. When I had woken up earlier I didn't even check on my injuries, I was just too distracted. I started to wake up again and opened my eyes slowly… my throat felt extremely dry and I decided to get out of bed and get some water. But when I tried to get up, I had a striking pain in my side and felt dizzy… Oh yeah… I got stabbed… I remembered and wobbled a little. I managed to stand up fully and took a deep breath
"Okay… -huff-…" I took one step and thought I was good, but my feet buckled out from underneath me and I made a loud thud on the floor. "Oww….. uggghhh…." I held my side and winced as I tried to get back up. I heard footsteps and they were coming closer and closer until Izaya rushed into the room and come over to me. "Baka! What are you doing! You're supposed to be in bed!" he shot at me and helped me back on my bed.
"I… only wanted a drink of water…" I said with a forced smile and laughed slightly. "Gahhh! You could have hurt yourself! Do you know how worried I was! Ugghh, why didn't you ask me for help?" He snapped with his hands on his hips. "Uhhh… I-I didn't know you cared so much…hahaha…" I laughed, half nervous. I thought he didn't give a damn about me?... I thought in confusion. But then again…. There was earlier…. Wait- could he-…..
"Che! Well I do since it's my fault you're like this…." He said and drifted off. I looked up at him and he had a look of guilt on his face and I was getting really confused now… but somewhere… deep inside… It felt nice to know that he cared for me.
"Hey… uhh, Izaya-kun?... Could I have a glass of water? " I asked nicely with a warm smile. He looked up and blushed slightly, which I thought was odd, but cute at the same time. "M-Mmmm… y-yeah hold on…" He stuttered and went off to the kitchen. I sighed and my mind wandered…. Come to think of it…. What did I say before I passed out?... urrgg… I can't remember…. All I remember is Izaya's surprised face and then nothing. Did it have something to do with why he's taking care of me? Gahhhh…. I focused more as he walked back into the room and handed me then water. "Here" He mumbled and I took it from him thankfully.
"Hey, Izaya-kun…. I know I already asked but… What did I say before I passed out?..." I said and looked at him. He got a kind of irritated look and averted his eyes. "Why do you keep asking that?" He tightened his fists and sighed.
"Well… I'm wondering if it has anything to do with why you're looking after me." I said bluntly, starting to get irritated that he hasn't told me yet. "No… I don't want to. Heh, like I'd e-even remember… Baka." That's it.
I grabbed him by his shirt and glared at him. "What did I say." I growled. He only laughed and smirked. "What are ya gunna do about it? Force it out of me, Shizu-chan?" I tightened my grip and then I realized that this is EXACTLY what he wanted.
"Hmmm…. You know what- never mind…" I say with a slightly irritated smile and let go of him. He looked dumbfounded and speechless, in denial that his plan didn't work. I laughed and held my sides, "Hahahaha that l-look! It's priceless!"
He glared at me and pinned me to the bed, straddling my sides and holding a knife to my neck. "Better be careful Shizu-chan. My hand might slip." He threatened and I only smirked. "I'm already injured, hahahaha! Awwwhh, does the little flea not know what to do? Hahahahaha" He gritted his teeth and pulled the knife away.
"Fine! You wanna know what you said!..." He paused and looked away. "You… Said you… L-loved me…." My eyes widened and he blushed furiously. "What?... b-but I… HA, y-your just messing with me! There's… no way I would say that. Not to anybody…" I mumbled and trailed off.
"This is why I wasn't gunna tell you. You weren't gunna believe me and its stupid anyway… But you made me so frustrated and it just slipped out!" He said in frustration and put his knife away. "Hey Shizu-chan….. Ignore what I'm about to do okay? It's just a test…" I looked at him in confusion.
He leaned down slowly and met his lips with mine, ignoring my surprised reaction and slipping his tongue into my mouth. I blushed slightly and closed my eyes, feeling his warm tongue explore my mouth.
He's….. a good kisser….
I opened my mouth more and slipped my tongue into his mouth, kissing him back gently and putting my arms around him.
Why…. Does this feel so strange?... I…
"Sh-Shizu-chan….. Wha-are you doin…." Izaya mumbled and pulled away, blushing and wiped off his mouth.
I… I think I…..
I pulled him back into me for a passionate kiss, feeling his heart race against my chest. He gradually gave up and melted into the kiss, meeting his tongue with mine once again.
I-I….. Really do…. I…..I'm….
"I'm… I really think I'm in love with you….. Izaya-kun…." I say and break apart from the kiss. His eyes widened and he blushed more, not knowing what to say. "Sh-Shi-zu-chan…. Wh-what are you saying…. Y-your acting weird…." He mumbled and sat up.
"Izaya…. I'm s-serious…. I… I think I love you….." I said desperately and grabbed his arm. He faced me and smirked.
What….why is he….
"That's all I needed to hear. I didn't think you actually meant it and I didn't know I was going to be this embarrassed…. But whatever~ I got what I wanted~" He chimed. "Wait-Wh-What!" I stuttered and was about to hit him until he leaned back down and lifted up my shirt, kissing my chest and going down farther, tugging at my pants.
"This should be fun, Shizu-chan~" He said with a smile. "Wha- S-So you mean all of this was an act!" I snapped and blushed. "Yup~ Good job Shizu-chan~ I didn't think you were that smart…" I tightened my fists and was about to hit him again but I got stopped and moaned slightly as he rubbed my member through my pants. "Oh my Shizu-chan….. Your hard." He taunted and rubbed harder. "Uhhnn…. Sh-Shut up…" I blushed and looked away.
Izaya's POV-
Shizu-chan Is so cute~…
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