I Don't Own Anything. If I Did Aiden wouldn't have died. It was just too heart breaking.
AN: Back Story to Maybe It's Not So Gross when Ethan/Jackson met at the bar. I hope it's not too OOC for Ethan. I drew on what felt like loosing my mom. She was more of a sister to me. Been almost 5 years, but still awful feeling some days.
AN2: I really have hard time writing sad things like this so I hope that it is okay. I'd rather write happy with Aiden alive or bring him back.
Title: Meeting Each Other
Characters: Ethan, Jackson and Danny (on phone)
Summary: Jackson decides he wants to pick the guy in the bar up. It doesn't go well at all. He can't figure out why the guy seems familiar, but he does. Ethan had just wanted to be alone, but Jackson happens. They end up becoming friends. Prequel to Maybe It's Not So Gross.
Jackson was trying to scope the bar out, it wasn't an actual gay bar. However, he had done some research about the place. He had also gotten one of the two friends he had actually made when he got to London to come here with him the first couple of times. It wasn't that he was having problems with dealing with being into guys. He'd always looked, but he had never acted on that until he had come here to London.
The bar had a dance floor for if anyone got the urge to dance, but at the moment the music wasn't great. He was about to just give up and leave for the night when he noticed someone walk in the door. He didn't know why on earth the guy looked familiar, but he did. He smiled because he was really hoping the guy was gay or bi. He really didn't want to get his ass kicked going up to the wrong guy.
He decided that it might be better if he watched for a little before approaching the guy. He looked about his age and he wondered if the id he showed the bartender was real or fake. Danny had made theirs when they were fifteen; it had gotten them into some of the clubs back home. He had gone a few times to Jungle with Danny to watch out for him. He wasn't going to hang his best friend out when he had told him he was gay.
Jackson watched as the guy took the beer before going back to one of the corner tables. He watched how he sat down so that he could see the entire place. He hadn't gotten but three and a half months to spend learning how to be a werewolf before his dad told him they were moving. However, he could tell the guy didn't seem happy, he sort of looked down. He probably wouldn't have even bothered months ago, but he was trying to be a better person.
Jackson got a second beer before he sat down at the bar using the mirror to keep an eye on the guy. He didn't want him to seem him staring at him and it was the only way he could keep watch. He'd give it maybe fifteen minutes before he went over to the table. It would give him more time to get a read on the guy. He was hot, even if he did seem like he was having a bad night.
~EJ JE EJ JE~
Ethan didn't really want to be in the bar, but it was better here. He didn't want to keep sitting at the apartment for another minute. It felt like the walls were closing in on him there. Waking up from another nightmare screaming for Aiden had to stop. It had been two weeks, three days and twelve hours since he had gotten to London. He hadn't known where to go at first since Deucalion had screwed over so many people. He'd been a part of that too and it hurt knowing he wasn't going to find a place to call home probably anywhere.
The beer in front of him wasn't actually going to do any good, but it had been his dad's favorite. He barely remembered his parents and it hurt knowing that he was the only one left. However, he had one thing of his parents. It was a journal with things written down in it. He hadn't even known it had existed until he'd been going through Aiden's stuff. He'd found it wrapped up in a box.
He could tell that the thing hadn't been opened in years. It had a lock on it, which had been rusty from lack of use. The key hadn't even been with the thing so he'd had to break it open. It hadn't been so hard, but when he had, he found things he hadn't been expecting. There had been pictures of the building he was staying in now. It had listed places to see and the beer he was sipping on. It had been in his mom's hand writing, but his dad had obviously wrote things in it too.
It was where he had found out that his parents had first met in London. He had remembered asking once and his mom had just said she'd tell him when he was older. It had been six months after that day he'd lost his parents. The journal had given him some comfort with pictures and reading what his parents had wrote. They'd met here in London as teenagers on summer trip the year before they graduated high school. They'd been his age when they found the person they were meant to be with.
He'd had eleven good years with his parents, seventeen with Aiden. He still didn't want to think that Aiden wasn't coming back. He kept expecting to wake up and see his twin making some kind of joke or just smiling at him.
~EJ JE EJ JE~
Before he'd left Beacon Hills he'd gone to see Derek. He had needed two things from the other former alpha. The first had been help finding a really good place to bury Aiden. He'd wanted somewhere his brother could be at peace and no one would ever mess with his grave. Beacon Hills had been a place that they both had felt like home for the first time since they were kids. Aiden had loved it there so he wasn't going to take him anywhere else.
Derek had found a place that looked over Beacon Hills with a view that was amazing any time of the year. The entire pack had been there, even Danny had showed up. They had already broken up, but it had helped knowing that Danny didn't hate him for not telling him the truth. He still had been shocked that Danny had known the truth.
After the rest of the pack had left he'd sat there until the moon had started to rise. Danny hadn't left him there though; he had refused to let him stay alone when he was hurting so much. It had hurt having to leave Danny; it was like having his heart ripped out all over. He'd tried to hold it together for days after he'd held onto Aiden's body that night clinging to his dead brother. He still had no memory of leaving the school
Derek had taken him to the loft though; he'd stayed with him that night like Danny had at the grave. The only difference had been he hadn't broken at the loft after he'd cried holding onto Aiden. He'd shut down a part of his self not wanting to feel it, but when he was sitting at the grave he'd let the rest of the pain out. It was never really going to go away, but he hadn't wanted to believe Aiden was dead.
He still remembered Danny telling him he'd never be alone, he'd always have Aiden looking out for him. He hadn't wanted to let go of Danny either knowing he was the first guy he ever loved. He'd given Danny his heart and another piece of him that only Aiden and Danny knew about. Danny had promised him that he'd find some one that was perfect for him though. He'd find what his parents had had.
When the sun had come up Danny had took him back to the apartment. He hadn't wanted to have sex, but he'd asked Danny to just lay with him until he fell asleep. He knew he wouldn't stay until he woke up. He'd just wanted to feel Danny holding him one last time since he was going to be alone when he woke up.
It had surprised him when he'd woken up with Danny still there though. He'd told him that he wasn't going to let him go as a friend even if they were broken up. He was the one ex he didn't want to make disappear off the face of the earth. Danny had helped him pack up the apartment, what little there was before he had left Beacon Hills. Aiden's motorcycle was in Danny's garage, he couldn't bring his self to sell Aiden's. He'd sold his though, if he ever went back he wanted to have Aiden's. He'd also given Danny his leather jacket because he'd wanted to have Aiden's.
~EJ JE EJ JE~
Ethan pulled his self out of the thoughts of the last few weeks. He didn't want to keep moping even though it was still so fresh. He was so close to breaking his promise and calling Danny again. He knew he had to stop, but they were friends still. He'd even thought about calling Lydia back. She'd called the day before, but he'd been sleeping since it was about six hour's difference from California than London.
He had been told he would be found and have his ass kicked if he didn't keep in touch. Scott had told him that he'd already made the decision of having Aiden and him in the pack. He just hadn't wanted to stay without Aiden there. It wouldn't seem right, but he knew if he needed help that all he had to do was call one of them. Isaac had even been nice to him before he had left. He also had Isaac's number on his phone. Scott had put it in his phone at some point.
The beer he had was almost gone now and he was debating on getting a second one or just leaving. He had been looking around the bar while he'd been in his own personal hell. He would never be crazy enough not to keep his mind at least half on his surroundings'. Aiden would kick his ass so badly when he finally joined his brother where ever he was. He hoped every night that he was watching over him like their parents.
Ethan downed the last swallow of the beer looking up at the bar. He was starting to feel like he was being watched. The place he knew wasn't an actual gay bar, but the place had some same sex couples on weekends mostly. It was why he liked the place so much, besides his parents coming here. He'd been hit on a lot in the last week. However, he kept turning every guy down; even the women were doing it.
He actually smiled thinking about what Aiden might say about everybody hitting on him. He'd helped Aiden out once, but it was by keeping the woman's boyfriend distracted. It had about gotten both of them beat down. It hadn't mattered though because he'd let Aiden have what he'd wanted that night. Aiden had returned the favor for him the first time he'd wanted to go to a dance club. Aiden hadn't even blinked when he'd realized it was a gay club.
~EJ JE EJ JE~
Jackson saw when the guy looked up at the front and he saw him smile. It was something he hadn't seen in the last fifteen minutes. He'd been getting so many chemo-signals from the guy he wasn't sure if he was going to go over to him at first. However, he decided he was now seeing how wonderful the smile was. It didn't meet the guys eyes, which had mixed emotions too, but he found it sweet.
He hadn't dated a guy, but he had been given a couple of blow jobs at one of the local clubs. He hadn't taken them back to the loft though because he wasn't about to trust no one here. He had thought about maybe hooking up in the bathroom though. He wasn't going to bottom, but he'd fuck the guy. He didn't actually need one, but he had a condom on him because he really wanted to hook up.
He saw the label on the beer from the mirror before he asked the bartender for another one for his self. He put the cash down for both before he went over to the table setting the unopened bottle down. He didn't want the guy to think he roofed it, but he really wanted to talk to him. He might get a feel if the guy was at least bi maybe.
"Hi, you don't know me, but I've been watching you since you walked in." Jackson started when the guy looked up. "I thought maybe we could have a beer and maybe use one of the bathroom stalls?" he had never had to use a pick up line on Lydia or any other girl. They had just been drawn to him because of who he was. He wasn't known here like that though and he was hoping it would work. He just hadn't meant to come on so strong. The words had just slipped out and he was hoping it wasn't a turn off.
Ethan looked at the beer then up at the guy standing in front of him. It was the first time anyone had been so blunt about what they wanted. He was trying to find a way to say it without being mean, but there was no way he was going to be going to any damn bathroom stall. He wasn't going to use sex as no escape, Aiden might have done it, but he wasn't Aiden.
His love for Danny also meant too much to just have sex with the first or rather twentieth guy that offered it. He wasn't going to be getting back together with Danny, but to just go out and have sex with random guys this soon. It would feel like Danny had meant nothing, when he'd meant everything to him. Danny had been a first for him in so many ways. He still had the photos on his phone because he just couldn't delete them. He had put them in a separate folder for now though until it didn't hurt so much.
"I don't mind if you sit, maybe talk, but I'm sorry. I can't have sex with you," Ethan said finally, "I think you're cute, but..."
"You're not into guys? Yet you said I was cute, so why not go back to the bathroom?" He was trying not to seem like he was pushing, he didn't want to be an asshole right now.
"I just can't be with a guy right now. If it was maybe three month from now or four maybe, but I wouldn't just go to some bathroom with you for quick fuck." Ethan was trying not to growl. The guy didn't want to back off. He hadn't met a guy like this in a good while, back then he'd had Aiden to punch the shit out of him. Danny had done it once or twice too when they'd gone to one of the clubs in LA for the weekend. He had only his self now though so he was just going have to leave if the guy didn't back off.
"Why not, am I not asking the right way? I guess we could go to my place." Jackson replied back. "I think you're good looking and I'd really like to maybe fuck you. I'd make it good." he smiled hoping that it would help him out.
Ethan sighed closing his eyes for a moment. He didn't know how to tell the guy to back off politely until the moment he heard the words fuck you. "Look, I am really trying to be nice here. You seem nice and I did say you are cute, but I am not going to be bottoming for anyone. I'm sorry if that offends you, but I'm not even in the mood to have sex. I came here to just have a beer or two and I'd really like you to back off."
Jackson did his best not to bring up his werewolf eyes. He was so close to growling, but he took his beer back. "Well you can sit here and drown in the beer," he said before he walked off going to one of the other tables at the other side of the bar. When he finished the beer he was leaving, he hadn't even bothered taking the second he'd gotten for the guy.
He was pissed off, he hadn't gotten shot down in a long time. He needed to cool off before he left the place not wanting to do something stupid. He hadn't done anything nuts since he'd gotten to London, he didn't want to start now. He didn't know why the guy had to get pissed at him, he just wanted to have sex with him. He just didn't trust anyone to fuck him and he didn't have Danny to watch his back. He was completely alone here and he didn't trust the two friends he had like he did Danny.
Ethan leaned back against the chair wishing he hadn't snapped like he had. He took his phone out looking through a few of the pictures he had on it. It brought him back from wanting to just go back to the apartment. He needed to be around people right now because that was who he was. He didn't shy away from public places or hide out. He just couldn't bring his self to be in the mood for anything. It hadn't just been sex with Danny and he really didn't want to go back to the way it had been.
He had fucked plenty of guys before he'd met Danny. It had never meant anything just a way to get off. He'd been the one wanting to know if the guy wanted to go to the bathroom or back alley. He just wanted to deal with everything from the last few months right now. Then in six months he could attempt to find a guy or it might be longer. He knew he could never replace Danny. He didn't want to do that, but he didn't want to be alone forever.
~EJ JE EJ JE~
After another twenty minutes Ethan got up from his chair going to the bartender. He felt bad that the guy had bought him a beer and he hadn't accepted his offer. He was also thinking that the guy hadn't had much experience picking up a guy. He just couldn't do that and respect his own self the next morning. Instead he told the guy at the bar to send the guy in the corner a beer. He only did it to repay him, but he took the piece of paper he saw writing a quick note on it. He paid for the beer before he left not waiting to see what the guys reaction was.
Jackson had been texting Danny for the last twenty minutes needing someone to vent to. He'd been shot down cold and he didn't know what he'd done wrong. He had been keeping an eye on the guy, but he hadn't sent Danny the picture he'd taken. He didn't even know why he had taken the picture. The guy had told him a flat out no, but he'd still been cute.
"I didn't order another beer," Jackson said when the waitress sat the beer on the table. He had barely finished the second one he had gotten. He liked the taste of the beer even if he couldn't get drunk on it. He still remembered the times he'd gotten plastered so bad he'd gotten sick. He still thanked god that Danny had made sure he didn't kill his self. His best friend had picked him up numerous times from parties. He'd taken him to his house and let Jackson sleep it off.
"The guy you were talking to earlier did," the waitress said looking at the name on the outside of the note. "Um, Ethan no last name though," she said handing him the paper before walking off.
Jackson opened the note reading what was inside wondering what it would be. He was shocked what was written inside. He smiled feeling his anger leaving seeing what was there.
I didn't mean to act like an ass. I don't think you should tell the guy you're trying to pick up that all you want is a quick fuck. I did like your smile when you first walked up, but I just couldn't. Don't let it stop you at trying to ask another guy out. Just be careful who you hit on. If you want to actually talk to someone, no thoughts of sex, I'll be back Friday.
Jackson read the note three times before looking up to see if the Ethan guy was still in the bar, but he wasn't. "Crap," Jackson said before texting Danny back that he wasn't going to be able to do their usual Skype chat on Friday, which was two days away. He drank the beer in two pulls before he left the bar.
He might have gotten shot down for sex, but he felt like he could maybe find a friend in the guy. He had offered him advice, which none of his friends here had. Danny was always giving him advice, but it was different. Danny wasn't here and he really couldn't rely on Danny for this part. He was slightly annoyed still, but maybe there was some kind of hope.
~TBC~