Crimson Lavenders

Gaahina fanfic

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto! Or any characters in Naruto. But the story belongs to me. And I own Kykio and Stace.

BTW this is the first fan fiction I've ever written before!! So pleasepleaseplease review!! Constructive criticism is encouraged and please let me know if I spelt any of the names wrong or just have any mistakes in general!! If I get 26 reviews I will continue if not I will just try something else out and maybe with a different pairing!! Enjoy!! J

Prologue

Hinata sat there with her porcelain legs stretched out on the bed reading her favourite novel. She had just finished eating supper, without her father…again. This was becoming the new routine. She would sit there at the dinner table waiting for her father to come join her. But it was always in vain.

Ever since her cousin, Neji, had arrived she had been pushed to side. This always happened to her! Her father would find a shiny new toy, in this case Neji, and dispose of his old one, Hinata. Her father did love her, he just was incapable of showing it.

Because of her father's failure to acknowledge Hinata, she decided to take up a hobby. Reading. Hinata had always loved reading, it was her escape from reality.

When she was a girl she would read just about anything! Poetry, recipes, short stories, plays, novels, articles, and many other things as well. When ever she read something she didn't see words, she saw the characters right there in front of her as if she, herself was one of the characters as well. Most of the time she was. She could always make it so she was the main character, if the character was embarrassed she would blush, if he/she was upset , she could feel the anger boiling up inside of her.

But for some reason she was unable to that tonight, she saw nothing but words. For she couldn't shake the feeling that something horrible was going to happen. Something that would change her life forever.

A few light taps on her door stole her from her thoughts. Hinata sighed and slowly stepped off of her crimson king-sized bed and onto the cold stone floor. She slowly walked over to her bedroom door and opened it to find one of her many maids.

The girl was wearing the same outfit as all of the other maids. A simple beige dress that reached the floor, fitted from the waste up, with short sleeves and a white apron. The girl looked about 13 years old with very a soft childlike face and had straight auburn hair that reached just past her shoulders.

"I'm very sorry to disturb you my Lady, but your father wishes to speak with you immediately." the young maid said in a surprisingly matured voice.

"Are you sure he wishes to speak with me and not my cousin?" Hinata asked as politely as possible.

"Your father has sent Yuri to fetch your cousin and little sister, my Lady. He wishes to see all three of you." All three of us? He has never wished to see all three of us at once before! This must be huge!

"Shall I wait for you to quickly change or are you going to see him as you are?" The girl rudely added. Was that an insult? Oh well, even if it was I really don't want to waste time giving her a lecture on how to treat your master, I just want to find out what's so important!

"No, I'm going to go dressed like this, now please lead the way…uh" The maid cut in,

"Yui, my name is Yui." Yui said in an annoyed tone. Yui, huh. Well she's a little on the rude side but I'm sure she means well.

"Alright Yui lead the way!" Hinata said with a sweet smile on her face.

Yui lead Hinata through multiple hallways, through many doors, and down two fights of stairs. Wow she knows exactly where she's going! I still get lost and I've lived here all of my life! The Hyuga residence wasn't a typical house but a castle! Hiashi Hyuga is the governor of Konohona and one of the most respected men in all of the Fire Country. Meaning the Hyugas are loaded.

Neji and Hanabi, Hinata's little sister, were standing outside Hiashi's door waiting when Hinata arrived. They were both in their pyjamas and slippers with a maid behind both of them. Hanabi eagerly knocked on the door to the office and in return got a curt "Come in" from Hiashi. The three cousins walked into the office and stood in line, from oldest to youngest, in front of the Governor's desk.

Hinata examined the room with her pale eyes, for she had never been in her father's work office before (only his family business office ). It was a fairly large room with four rather large oak bookcases that covered the back wall. In front was Hiashi's desk that was also oak with many stacks of parchments to be signed and filed. To the left were three chairs with a portrait of the whole Hyuuga family, including Neji's parents, Neji, and Hinata's Grandparents, hanging above the chairs. The right side of the room was completely empty except for another portrait of Hiashi and his wife.

Lastly, Hinata studied Hiashi. He was a fairly tall man when standing up, with long black hair that reached the middle of his back, he was always dressed in the finest clothes and his pale narrow face always wore the same emotionless expression that matched his cold heart.

"As you all know my wife, your mother," he said in an exhausted tone looking at Hanabi and Hinata, "has been very ill for the past three and a half months and on the verge of dying. Now, this is a difficult matter for me to discuss considering she was my wife but unfortunately she has passed away."

How can he say it so calmly? Oh right, because he's a heartless bastard who never actually cared for my mother! And look at Hanabi! She's smiling! W-w-why is she smiling? Am I the only one who loves….loved my mother! Ok Hinata stay calm, don't cry! DON'T CRY GOD DAMN IT!! SHIT!! Stay strong! Hinata's eyes started to water up, but she refused to let the tears go any further.

"Now the Hokage asked me two months ago if our family would consider travelling to new land to start a colony and eventually turn that colony into a village. Naturally I would govern the colony. Also, we would still be attached to Konohagakure, and would trade the resources or goods that we find on the new land, with Konohagakure. Of course we will bring many peasants with us and there is a chance of there being savages or "natives" on the land, so each of you will be required to have at least six guards with you at all times for the first year there. Of course I'm am taking up on this offer. Because of the preparation needed for this voyage we will be leaving in two years, travelling for six months and hopefully be starting to properly form our colony as soon as we find suitable land. We will be settled in and making our new colony in approximately three years from now. At the time of the offer I was uncertain of us being able to go at all, because of my wife's condition, but now that the opportunity has opened up thankfully we will be able to go."

" 'But now that the opportunity has opened up thankfully we will be able to go'!" Hinata screamed as anger boiled through her body and she shook uncontrollably.

"Your glad she's dead! Aren't you? It's always about business with you! And, and, what will make our family name look better! I-I-I bet you wouldn't care if I dropped dead here and now! Would that open up an opportu-"

*SMACK*

Hinata stumbled at the force of her father's hand, and bit back her tears. She looked up through her watery eyes to find Hanabi smirking at her, Neji just staring at the scene before him and Hiashi glaring at her with such fierce eyes that she almost wanted to crawl under her bed and cry, like she did so often when she was a little girl. She knew she was going to be severely punished for her actions.

"Neji, Hanabi leave this instance." Hiashi said in such a stern voice that everyone in the room got shivers running up and down their spine. After the two cousins had left an ominous silence filled up the room.

After about two minutes Hiashi broke the silence, "I am proud of you Hinata, you are finally growing a back bone," he grabbed her wrist and held it so tightly that Hinata almost screamed, "but, I will not let your little outburst ever happen again! Do you understand?" Hinata nodded weakly. "Good, maybe you won't turn out as to much of a disappointment after all. You are dismissed." Hinata tried to hold to head high as she walked towards the door but failed miserably, giving her father some amusement.

"Oh, and Hinata," the Governor said with a stern face.

"Hai, father?" She replied while turning to look at him.

"Whether I loved your mother or not is none of your concern."

"Hai, father." And with that she left his study.

Hinata didn't wait for a maid to accompany her back to her room, she ran all the way back to her room, occasionally stumbling on her long dress as she went, non stop. When she arrived at her door, she wasted no time getting into her room and locking the door. Then the tears started to come. They flowed down her cheeks and dripped onto the stone floor with a *splat*. She sunk down to the floor into fetal position and cried herself to sleep.

"Gaara, Kankuro, wake up!" Temari practically screamed.

"I'm not sleeping, I'm meditating, dobe." Gaara in a monotone voice.

"Sorry Gaara, I forgot! Kankuro get your lazy ass out of bed! Dinners ready" Temari said getting impatient.

"Well excuuuuuuuuse me!"

"Did you just pull sass with me?"

"'Did you just pull sass with me?'"

"Kankuro!"

" 'Kankuro!' "

"Kank-"

"Stop. Now. Food." Gaara interrupted in a demanding voice. And his two older siblings silently walked out of the tent They sat on available tree stumps around the main fire with the rest of their tribe and they began their big feast.

The tribe was celebrating Gaara and his fellow 15 year old male tribe mates' crossing into manhood. All of the boys had already received their Tailomak1 markings and were showing them off to impress the girls of their tribe.

However, Gaara stayed seated, he found no point in wooing the opposite sex. All Gaara was interested in was training to become a great warrior and surpassing his father to prove himself worthy of life. So Gaara just sat there, receiving disapproving glares from the Kazekage, thinking of the different ways to murder (or rather slaughter) any savages that try to take over Sunakure again.

"Ugh. What a freak! Eh, Ky?" Said a girl blocking Gaara's view of the fire.

"Ha, you got that right Mai! And look at his hair we could be the Devil's child!" Replied the second girl.

Gaara looked to up see two fake beauties, Kykio and Mai. The most attractive girls in the tribe to everyone except Gaara. He could see that they were just two girls hiding their hideous faces behind loads and loads of face paint with bitchy attitudes.

Child of the Devil, huh? Maybe that's better than this life? Is this life? Is this it? How can I be sick without really being sick? How can I be empty without really being empty? How can I be alone without really being alone? How can I be alive without really being alive? Am I really a man just because I passed some idiotic test? Is love really going to guide me? What is love? What is an emotion? Is this life?

Gaara stood up still ravelled up in his thoughts and slowly walked toward his favourite spot looking over the ocean when he hit something. Gaara looked up into the cold hard eyes of his father.

"Kazekage." Gaara said as monotone as possible.

"Just because you passed the test of manhood that doesn't mean that you are any closer to being my son," the Kazekage said in a dangerous voice, "My second son died the day my wife did. Your dead to me Gaara and you always will be. Your Tailomak does not mean that others will love you and support you Gaara. It means that no one will ever love you and you will never love anyone. You will fight for yourself and only yourself. You are a freak. You are a monster, Gaara." And with that he left.

Gaara walked to his favourite spot and sat down with his feet dangling over the cliff. As he looked out to the ocean replayed his father's word over and over in his head.

I am a Freak.

I am a Monster.