Disclaimer: I do not own any of the League Of Legends characters or the song lyrics. They merely set the mood.
Rewritten 7/21/2016
~Yes I do, I believe
That one day I will be, where I was
Right there, right next to you
And it's hard, the days just seem so dark
The moon, and the stars, are nothing without you
Your touch, your skin, where do I begin?
No words can explain, the way I'm missing you
The night, this emptiness, this hole that I'm inside
These tears, they tell their own story
You told me not to cry when you were gone
But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong
Can I lay by your side, next to you
And make sure you're alright
I'll take care of you
And I don't want to be here if I can't be with you tonight~
I breathe in the fresh air of the morning and stretch my arms above me. Little pockets of air pop in my muscles and I sigh contently. I'm resting in my favorite spot among the tall trees that smell of sweet cherry blossoms and honey. The flowers are in full bloom with the coming of spring and the ground is littered with petals. The air is still and cool wafting by the scents of floral natural vegetation. Nothing could tear me away from my state of bliss, my escape into solace.
A butterfly lands on the tip of my nose and I try to ignore it. I wrinkle my nose a bit in an attempt to shake it off instead it bats its wings and I sneeze.
"I found you, Daddy!" A voice cries in excitement near me.
I lean over the thicket of branches and spot my son fuming with mixed emotions of fear and joy, his small fangs poking out from his mouth in a toothy grin. His baby blue fur bristles and I smile. I wave for him to come up here. He may have found me but I'm not it until he tags me.
His pale green eyes gleam with determination and my smile widens. Gabriel has been looking for me for over an hour now. I promised to play today and technically I am. I watch in delight as he climbs quickly, the muscles in his small frame contorting and flexing as he pushes himself up.
Gabriel is going to make a fine warrior when he gets older though maybe not in the Spirit Core because he lacks a spirit. Sadly, we're not bound by flesh and blood but instead love and family. Gabriel's actual parents died in the war against the Spirits when he was first born so Leone and I adopted him. If we had left him, I doubt anyone else would have adopted hm. Our tribe believes females are sacred and born leaders. Boys like Gabe…are expendable.
He grunts in frustration. He's close as he continues pushing himself, digging his claws into the rough bark, and using his legs to swing between branches. A father could only be proud of their son growing into something more, something worth every moment of love and support. Where would Gabe be now if I hadn't made the decision to keep him all those years ago? I hope Kana and Don are watching him, too…
Gabriel makes a wrong step but I catch before he falls. I sit him down on my chest and he pouts.
"We're supposed to be playing Daddy!" He crosses his arm petulantly.
I laugh. "We are. You found me!" I flail my arms playfully and he cracks a smile. "Are you hungry? It's been a while since breakfast."
He ponders the thought and eventually nods. I pick him up and help him onto my shoulders and carry him down safely. He pokes my ears making them twitch. The flowers scatter about as my boots meet with the lush ground.
"Hey Daddy. Why are you and Papi so big and scary?" Gabriel asks and I laugh at his innocence.
"You think we're scary?"
"I mean I'm not scared of you guys but my friends are!" He exclaims and taps my head.
"I don't know honey. What do you think?"
"I don't know but I want to be big and scary like you and Papi!"
I laugh again and scratch his ears. He giggles at my touch which sends butterflies into my heart. His pure soul soothing the fire I desperately fight against daily.
"Keep your heart and mind strong always and you will." I tell him.
"Hey Daddy?"
"Hm?"
"I've always wanted to ask you want this is," he says and points to the large metal band around my bicep. "You never take it off. What is it?"
"Oh this? It's a weapon. You know that Ifrit inhabits me right?"
He nods in response.
"I can harness his power through this when his flames are absorbed. The metal will expand and encase my arm. Hopefully you'll never have to see it though." I say
"How come?"
I smile and look up at him. "I'll tell you when you're older."
He puffs his cheeks and then sighs. "Okay."
I hope to the Spirits that Gabriel will never have to see me like that. My rage has consumed me before but it was before he was born. He'd never have to see the bloodthirsty side of me, the hell-fire which has burned thousands, that shows no mercy even to the innocent. I wouldn't wish this life on my worst enemy but at least some good has come out of it. I met a light that shows me the way—Gabriel.
I feel his tiny hands mat my head.
"What're you doing?" I arch a brow.
He leans down so we're face to face and shows me a headband made from the scattered petals. "I made one for Papi too!" He exclaims.
I smile as he loops it around both my ears, his soft touch ticklish a bit.
"Don't ever change Gabe," I tell him. "Promise me?"
"I promise!"
The village comes in view and I make an effort not to show Gabriel my displeasure. Ifrit is the spirit which took Gabriel's parents. One day I'll tell him and pray he won't resent me. Today is the council meeting regarding the lack of female offspring and as captain of the Spirit Core I have to make an appearance. I growl lowly as we pass others that would be in the meeting. They avoid my glares and don't say a word to me or Gabe. In truth, I've already killed a member of the council for suggesting I kill Gabriel because he's male and without his real parents.
Our house is away from the other homes near the mountain range which oversees the ocean. All of us who inhabit spirits live out there away from civilian life. Sometimes the spirits are able to control us and cause us to go on a rampage. The council did this, of course, as a precaution, and not because I killed one of them—I smile inwardly. The Spirit Ifrit inhabits my body and it is said that he has the worst temper of all the others. It takes considerable concentration to subdue him and the fact that Leone' was able to discover Ifrit's weakness.
I blush a bit remembering the first time Leone' had to…subdue me.
"Ares?" A familiar voice calls out me. A voice I very much hate.
Rehgar approaches me with his twin sons, Aiden and Ethan. Roy jumps from my shoulders and runs to them. The three smile for ear to ear in their childish enthusiasm. They're usually inseparable.
"What's that on your head Ares?" Aiden asks.
"Gabe made it for me. Looks good right?" I smile and crouch down to them.
"Yeah!" He then turns to Gabriel. "Can you make us one?"
"Of course!" Gabe's tail dances with excitement.
"Can we go play Dad?" Ethan asks, his blue eyes alive with joy and not a care in the world. Rehgar smiles and nods. A fake smile that I know all too well but it was enough to trick the children.
"I need to talk to Gabriel's father anyway. Have fun and don't stray too far. There are monsters around." He warns them and they nod.
Once the boys are out of view I lunge for Rehgar's throat and snarl pinning him against a nearby building. Guards nearby us react and surround me but Rehgar holds his hands up stopping their advance. His green gaze meets mine but I don't release his throat.
"I know why you're angry Ares but please understand I had no part in their decision," he says. "We did a vote and I'm against it and since all council members have to agree the motion will not pass."
I narrow my eyes but release him. The council is planning to kill all male children below a certain age and anymore born that are not female. He adjusts himself and rubs his neck. I'm not going to apologize and he doesn't gesture me to.
"I'm on your side. I love my sons and I won't let anyone take them from me. I need your help though."
I cross my arms. "What do you want me to do?"
"Slaughter the other council members," he grins. "If you do this I can assure nothing happens to anymore of our sons."
So that's his game. Kill the other political leaders assuring him leader over all of us. With my track record I could get away with it because I've gone rampant quite a few times. It would save Gabe—no it doesn't matter. I will never let anyone harm him.
A sudden surge of bloodlust begins to wash over me and I grit my teeth to hold back a rage induced growl. A fire awakes in me…Ifrit is listening to us. He wants me to kill Rehgar. He wants me to kill the guards—anything with a beating heart. Certain phrases or words trigger Ifrit's bloodlust—Slaughter.
I look to Rehgar, a smug look on his face. He did this on purpose!
He smirks as I resist the urge to rip his throat out. If I don't act now I'll hurt the others. Ifrit doesn't know what mercy is and I almost want to show them that.
Rehgar reaches out to me and I smack his hand away from me and sprint past him. The wind whistles in my ears as I practically fly off the ground, the village almost a blur behind me. I feel like I'm being burned alive. The ground below me begins to burns slightly as my feet graze against the dry surface. Ifrit's power is beginning to wake. I need Leone'.
I practically knock the door off the hinges as I burst in through the door. Leone' pokes his head from the kitchen, his brow arched in confusion.
"Everything alright honey?" He asks.
I rush and pin him against the wall. I bare my fangs and I have a strong urge to sink my teeth in his pulsing throat. Groaning harshly I press our bodies together, inhaling his delicious scent in hopes that it calms Ifrit. I dig my claws into the wall keeping myself from hurting him.
"Help me!" I beg feeling myself reaching the point of no return. Ifrit's echoes in my conscious daring and borderline.
Leone' looks at me understandingly. He reaches under me and rubs my inner thigh. The mark of Ifrit is there and it's the only way to control him and I can't do it myself. I pant lewdly and bite my lip as his fingers graze and rub the marking. Ifrits power over me begins to wane as my heightened arousal begins to rise. Pleasure controls Ifrit and although I don't like that it's the only way, however, I do like how intimate it makes Leone' and me. I moan breathily in his ear as he reaches for my belt and undoes the latch. I kick my pants away and bury my muzzle in his neck nipping and licking at this exposed throat.
He moans in response as I pick him up and he immediately wraps legs around my waist.
"Someone is frisky today," he jokes sliding his hand through my dark red fur. "What triggered Ifrit this time? It's been a few years since your last time."
"Not now! I want to fuck." I drag the words and he smiles.
I yank off his shirt and allow my hands to roam his taut body and then his firm ass. He leans down and kisses me passionately. Heat rises to my face as he clasps our hands together. The tense and shakiness in my hands slows to a stop and our eyes meet and I'm transfixed in his brilliant moonlit gaze. He has a dazed look on his face as I break the kiss, a thin sliver of saliva locked between us.
"Fuck me, Ares," he begs and I growl feverishly.
Leone' knows exactly what buttons to press and I love it. I'm hungry for him and he doesn't deny my appetite.
Resting him on the couch I yank my shirt over my head and rip off my briefs freeing my erect member. It almost hurt keeping it contained. Leone' licks his lips and presses his thumb against the crown of my member collecting the pre-cum and bringing it to his lips to sample.
"Always so tasty," he says and rubs his ass against my crotch.
I lick my lips at his teasing. If I don't bury myself in his delicious ass I'm going to go crazy. I help him out his pants and he turns over on his stomach while moving the pillows out his way. He wiggles his ass and bites his lip looking back at me with a sultry look.
"I love you so much." I tell him as I bury my muzzle in his ass and inhale his warm, sweet scent. I start slow dragging my tongue up his pucker and down to his sac. Hugging his mid-rift I squeeze and wiggle his ass as he grinds himself against my tongue. I can tell he's getting into with his constant mewling to keep going and the chanting of my name. I want to drown him in my love and something else…
I can see his claws sinking into the fabric of the pillow as he enjoys every moment, every electron firing up. I reach under him and slide my fingers in his moist greedy mouth. I push my tongue deeper into his wanting pucker and he bites down on my fingers. He bucks back against me murmuring curse words and shivering in ecstasy. I grin at him as I insert a finger to test the tightness.
"Who's a good boy?" I joke.
"Me! I'm a good boy!" He mewls.
"Are you? A good boy would've serviced me by now." I lick my lips hungrily.
He sits up and pushes me down on my back. "All you had to do was ask." He smiles.
"Do I really need to ask anymore?" I stroke his face tenderly.
I grip the base of the shaft and probe his lips with it. "Come on. Gabe should be home soon. And I'm sure you don't want him to see us like this."
"Good idea."
He doesn't show any restraint as he hungrily takes all of me in instantly. I hiss and rub the back of his head. His tongue lavishes the underside of my flesh as he sucks practically trying to drain me of all my essence. I feel his hand slither up my inner thigh and before I can stop him, he begins stroking Ifrit's mark vigorously. A powerful boisterous feeling of pleasure overwhelms me and I cum deep in his throat.
"FUCK!" I curse and push his head roughly into my crotch. I eventually release him panting, droll spills from the corners of my mouth, and I feel weightless. Touching the mark while having sex intensifies the pleasure I get. I wipe my mouth. "You know I don't like it when you do that."
"Oh really? You came pretty hard." He opens his mouth showing me how well he did before swallowing.
I groan as the effects make me shiver. He leans down over me trailing kisses down my chest and abdomen. His firm ass teases my hardening member and I growl lowly.
"I won't show you mercy if you keep that up." I warn.
He nips at my ear and I hiss in response. "When I have I ever asked you to be gentle?" He asks huskily. He slowly descends down on my erection taking it all inside him. He moans in satisfaction as he straddles my waist and rocks his hips forward.
Leone' is hot, delicious, and tight as he rides me with perfect tempo. I reward him with a quick swat and then I dig my claws into his ass. He cries out in pleasure, mouth agape, and a deep blush on his face. He fucks himself faster and harder, lewd sounds of flesh slapping fill the silent air. His saliva creates a small pool on my chest which rivulets down to my crotch soaking the both of us. His own erection constantly leaks pre-cum and mixes with the saliva.
Leone' is beautiful, so primal, and alive. His fur is almond and glistens over with sweat, his mane is a darker shade, and his strong body has various tribal markings. It's hard to believe that a lion of his stature loves to bottom for me.
I clasp our hands together as he braces himself never slowing down to ride me. His eyes are dazed over in complete, undeniable lust.
"Ares!" He cries. "I'm so close. Give it to me, please!" His tail coils around my arm.
I grin. "You're doing it all yourself. Keep going until you release."
Moments later he cums thick ropes which cover my chin and near my mouth. I lick my lips gathering his sweet essence. He slumps over me panting hard and whimpering. I grin mischievously and lick his inner ear.
Leone' whimpers again.
"I didn't cum yet." I tell him. I pick up him and lie him down on his back. "And we won't stop till I do." I hit home rough and fast.
He throws his head back, his voice caught in his throat. I love being rough with Leone'. His facial expressions always arouse me. He enjoyed himself and now it's my turn. I don't give him time to adjust as I continue ramming in fast and deep hitting his sweet spot repeatedly.
"Ares!" He wraps his arms around my neck and pulls me down to lock lips with me.
He moans in my mouth as I bite harshly on his bottom lip. I then toss his legs over my shoulder and really delve into him. He cums again but I don't and I don't stop fucking him either.
"Who do you belong to?" I ask him.
"Y-you! I belong to you!" He stammers unable to keep up with me.
"And?"
"Ahhhh! Nnngh…!"
"And?" I emphasis picking up my pace.
"Oh shit! Ares, please!"
"Then answer the question or I'll break you."
"I belong to you! Everything! My ass, my body, my heart and soul!" He cries out orgasming for the third time.
I snarl harshly at his words finally feeling my own orgasm close.
"Good boy! I just love reminding you." I tell him and then immediately cum deep inside him. We both cry out in unison as we ride on the shared pleasured.
I bring him close to my body and playfully lick under his chin. "Did I hurt you?"
He touches his nose against mine. "N-no. I loved every minute of it. You really know how to make a guy feel loved. I'd love to lie here with you but we should clean up. You said Gabriel would be home soon."
We make our way to the bathroom…eventually as we kiss and bite each other. I barely notice the water against my fur. I haven't taken my eyes off Leone'. He giggles and holds my face in his hands.
"Why do you look at me like that?" He asks.
"Like what?"
"I don't know how to explain it. You look like a lost puppy." He laughs.
I roll my eyes. "You're my world, Leone'. You and Gabe. I would be lost without either of you."
"You'd be alright."
I growl angrily. "How can you say that?! My heart bleeds when I'm away from you for too long!" I grip his wrists and push him against the wall. The water begins to make the bathroom steamy.
"Because we're in your heart, love. You know I want to be with you forever but there's no telling what could happen at any moment. Ifrit isn't the only problem. Rehgar's boys have spirits as do a few others. Believe me when I say I want nothing more than to be in your arms."
I sigh, release him, and burrow my head in his chest. Leone' wraps his arms around me and we stay like this as the water rinses us off. He's right. As captain of the Spirit Core I know this—I should know this. Any of us can die at any moment if any of the spirits go on rampage.
Leone' turns off the water and I grab us towels from the closet. We dry off and then I hug his stomach from behind. He draws a heart big enough in the condensation on the mirror to fit both of us and we smile.
"I love you."
"I love you, too."
"We should go look for Gabe. It's lunchtime." He says and I nod.
Getting dressed we both walk out the door and Leone' take my hand in his. It's warm and fits perfectly in my grasp. I stick close to him and peck his cheek.
"He was with the twins before I had to hurry home."
A commotion catches our attention. A group of people are piling up near the council hall chanting kill them! We waste no time closing the distance. The group of people disperse quickly after noticing me. Inside I see Alisae using her body to shield her sons against Rehgar and the other council men. Gabriel is behind her as well, his eyes filled with tears and confusion.
"What the hell do you think you're doing!?" I snap
"Doing what is right! With them gone the spirit might go to a female and not be trapped in this worthless vermin!"
"Gabriel doesn't have a spirit!" Leone' protest.
"He may develop one. You remember who his father was right? Don possessed both Luna and Aska and both spirit are nowhere to be found. The boy must have them!"
"Daddy! Papi!" Gabriel cries out. He wants to come to us but if he moves from behind Alisae, he'll die. Two of the council men have spirits and if I charge in now with blind rage they'll surely kill the others.
"Move Alisae! Don't make me say it again!"
"How could you!? You said you would leave them alone!"
"I do what is best for our tribe! I must make sacrifices for when the spirits not captured cause another war!"
One of the twins snarls—it's Aiden. He walks from behind his mother, his teeth bared, and fist clenched in anger.
"You would fight me, boy?"
"I won't let you hurt them!"
I soon begin to sense a spirit waking and its coming from Aiden. A darker spirit that hasn't been awake for centuries, ominous, destructive. Tenebrae manifests around Aiden and howls. I suddenly feel sick and fall to my knees. The effect seems to be worse for everyone spiritless as I watch Leone' cry out and writhe on the floor.
"Leone'!" I call to him but his eyes remained closed tightly. He doesn't look at me as he groans in agony.
Suddenly the darkness scatters from Tenebrae taking away my sight. I call out for Gabriel and Leone' in the darkness but no response.
"You will die here," an unfamiliar ethereal voice says. "You all will die here." Tenebrae howls again attacking me with another wave of a crippling feeling. The cold creeps further up my motionless body and I feel weaker. I can't move and there are no longer any voices or howling. There is nothing but complete darkness. My heart beat slows and my lunges feel heavy. I can't breathe…I can't…I
I awake abruptly. My body is numb but I know I'm moving. My vision hasn't returned as I groan and feel around. What happened?
"Tenebrae lashed out." Ifrit says.
"Where is everyone?"
"I do not know. They have probably all died from the passage of his curse."
The suddenly realization hits me. Gabriel and Leone' are no more. I failed. I couldn't protect Gabriel. I couldn't protect Leone'. My heart aches and crumbles as I sob into the gravel. My vision returns only to be distorted by tears. I punch the ground repeatedly until my knuckles bleed.
"Gabriel! Leone'!" I call out hopping they would appear with all my heart.
"You should have let me kill them a long time ago. All of them."
I nod in response. "I should've."
"Do you hear the voices?" Ifrit asks me. His voice becoming husky as if speaking directly in my ear.
"I do." I sob.
He chuckles. "All those voices who do not know true pain like we do. Let us show them all. Let us bathe this world in blood."
I don't resist Ifrit's influence. The metal band around my bicep begins to shine brightly as Ifrit's flames course through my body. The metal expands creating a gauntlet around my arm. Ifrit's weapon, a large red, three-pronged scythe materializes in my hand and I grip it firmly.
I wipe my face and feel Ifrit's warmth spreading throughout my body.
"Do not worry Ares. I will make sure you never remember these feelings again. Lose yourself in my hellfire."
I don't answer him but I agree. I'm going to burn everything…for my babies—for Gabriel and Leone'.
~In the clouds where the angels sing
In your eyes, where I wanna be
And his smile is all I see
He knows I need his loving
He knows I need his touching
He plays with my heart and emotion
I give him my love and devotion
He gave me his thought and a notion
I need his body
It needs me too
I need somebody to
Love me blue~