"Jasper." His tongue thrust inside of my mouth as he pulled down my boxers. I bit his lip and sucked it into my mouth. "Man this is so wrong." Edward said breathlessly yanking away. I began to kiss up his neck, and gave him a hickey in a very noticeable area. I listened to him growl , and he pinned me to the make shift bed on the floor.
"What?" My voice trembled as I spoke.
"What the fuck? Are you trying to let every one know what we are doing in this tree house? No one can know that I'm bi. I have a girlfriend, what is she going to say about that?…No one can know that you are gay. It's just the way it is."
"I will stop, I promise. Just please continue.. Please." I didn't mean to whimper but my rock hard cock was unmercifully throbbing against his body. My hips jutted into him, giving me at least some friction. He hissed low and took off his shirt. My hands ran across his chiseled lean body. He was mine for the first time tonight.
"Are you ready? You've been with other guys right?" I helped him release himself from his boxers.
"Yes, one. Timothy Ross from-"
Jealousy crashed over him and he grabbed my jaw a little forcibly. "I didn't ask you who, I just asked you if you had. I don't want to hear about you whoring about with Tim. Not when you are about to get my virginity."
I loved when he was like this. I stroked him. We had gotten close to having sex many times but Edward was always a scaredy cat. He wasn't lying about being a virgin. He was unsure about his sexuality a long time and he didn't even make it with Bella. It was like he was waiting to be with me.
"I'm ready." I reiterated. He grabbed my hand and pulled it away from his massive member. I wasn't going to admit that I was slightly worried about this. Timothy was in no way even close to his size. I wasn't even sure if I could take him.
Edward held my legs open and up as I lay on my back. I felt him probing my entrance. Maybe we should try for some lube. Where was it? I reached around behind me and I grabbed it, wincing when his head slipped in.
"Lube.." I pleaded, handing it to him. He chuckled. I blushed and he smirked. Arrogant bastard. I watched him stroke himself a few moments and then he took his fingers and made sure it wouldn't hurt me as much as before. My legs shook when two of his fingers opened me up. It felt so very good. Oh my god.
I almost complained when they were gone, but it was a quick feeling that passed when he slipped inside of me. I almost screamed. It hurt like a son of a bitch. Edward clamped his hand on my mouth and gave me a serious look. My eyes told him to give me a break. He slowed and let me stretch a bit. I nodded.
He began thrusting inside of me and it was a wonderful feeling. Not just for me, I could tell he was enjoying it. A sheen of sweat beaded on his forehead as he watched me. I whispered his name against his hand. If he only knew what this was doing to me. I pinched his nipple.
The pace quickened to the point of near brutality. I couldn't stay quiet. I was thankful that his hand was forcing me to be sort of silent. I couldn't help myself when I came abruptly. My body shook with the force of the wave of extreme pleasure of my orgasm. My eyes hooded, watched him when I internally spasmed on him.
"Jasper, fucking hell." I felt him shoot inside of me. Finally.
His body crumpled on top of me and I held him to me. Then I realized, I loved Edward. I really did, but all he did was lust for me. Isn't that what he'd said in the past? He never once hinted or acted as if he felt more than that. I was his dirty little secret.
My dick was throbbing and I shifted. I was glad that I chose to wear jeans for dress down day. I hated those damn uniforms because they showed too much. I blushed when Edward looked at me in Algebra with a silly smirk on his face. It had been weeks since that happened and every day since he had taken me over and over again. We played out all of his fantasies.
I smiled at him but then frowned when Bella kissed him briefly. She had been all over him since last week. With a stunning realization I knew that look. It was how I probably stared at Edward when we were alone, when I didn't have to keep up my façade. He was definitely giving her the same thing he was giving me. He had made a woman out of her.
The bell rang and I angrily got my book bag and stormed out into the hallway towards my locker.
"Jasper, wait!" Edward ran to catch up with me. He grabbed me to slow me but I yanked his hand off of me and I made it to my locker all the way down the hall. I stuffed my books inside. It was lunch time anyways. I think I'll just go home the rest of the day. I felt him near me.
"Just go away, Edward. Go fuck your girlfriend." I spat out for only us to hear.
His face looked sullen. "I wanted to tell you…"
"But you didn't. How long have you been sticking it to her? I was your warm up so you can please her."
"A few days.. I wanted to know if it was different. If I would feel the same way, and no you were not."
"Did it? Do you?"
"No. You feel better, Jasper, but I'm confused. I have feelings for both of you. I think I..love..her." Tears welled up in my eyes when he turned me around to face him. Shock caused him to step back. "You're crying? What the fuck. It's not like you love me. We are just fucking each other's brains out."
"I do fucking love you. That's the problem. Just stay away from me since I am just a wayward fuck to you. Go beat yourself inside of Bella's ass. Then you won't have to see a difference."
Edward stared at me with a wow on his face. Obviously my balls have finally dropped this week.
I opened my phone and watched Edward's face pop up as it rang. Shaking my head I pushed ignore. Enough was enough. I closed my Literature book and sprawled myself over the bed. I didn't want to start crying but it felt so natural to do. This was the first day after school that he wasn't here. And it's not because I didn't want him to be.
I had pride too. Sure I let him control me, I liked when he was that way. What I didn't like was the fact that he seemed to be ashamed of me. I was handsome enough. I had a good body and a brilliant smile. I made sure to go to the dentist every six months to keep it that way. I was beyond intelligent. Edward liked perfection. I frowned, if that was the case, why was he with Bella Swan?
She was nothing like me. I was confident and I knew how to please him. In no damn way could she blow him like I did. Knowing her, she probably would throw up if she put him in her mouth. What did she have that I couldn't give him?
Normality.
Edward didn't want to be a queer as he put it. He was in so much denial about being gay that I think he convinced himself he was bi. I shrugged. Maybe he was. I would never know because I can't read his mind. He wasn't honest enough to tell me his true feelings. Well I take that back, he tried, I just didn't listen. I didn't want to know.
I sighed and wiped my face with my hand, sitting up. I couldn't run from this. I wasn't the one unsure of himself. I needed to talk to Edward face to face and make him choose. He wouldn't pick me, I was sure of it but he would miss what I gave him every morning before school, after school, every evening before bed and sometimes in the middle of the night.
He was a very horny guy. He had to be to take on two people who hungered for all of his attention. Was I really ready to let go of all of that? I had to. He couldn't always get what he wanted. He was a Cullen. They owned this town, and felt they owned everything in it. More like everyone in it. Especially my Edward. He never had to want for anything.
I got up grabbing my keys. Two could play this game, can't they? No more nice Jasper Hale. It was time to even the playing field a bit. Even if I cheated.
"Why Hello Jasper. Edward is upstairs." Alice Cullen smiled sweetly at me. I nodded. She had a great taste in fashion. If I were openly gay I would ask her to wear her scarf. It would compliment my skin tone perfectly. Right then, I got the idea.
"I didn't come to see your brother. Uh, may I come in?" Her face lit up and she waved me inside. I knew this house like the back of my hand. I heard a sound from upstairs and instinctively I looked up. I then returned my eyes back to hers and smiled.
"Oh, yea, Edward's sort of..busy with his girl toy." She looked disgusted, yet sorry.
I forced myself to keep the smile on my face. "You mean Bella Swan."
She shook her head. "No, your sister Rosalie." My mouth fell open. My sister..
"You mean my sister is up there getting it on with my..my best friend of all people? He would've told me. But your brother and her..I mean other brother, Emmett…they…what the hell is going on?"
"He thought you would've been upset…And his girlfriend would be too. I tend to stay out of things like this."
"Do I fucking know him at all?" I punched the wall, then apologized. "I didn't mean to cuss in front of you Alice. I actually came to ask you something."
"Well, if you pay to fix that wall you put your hand through, ask away."
I agreed. "Well, as awkward as this is, I wanted to ask you if you wanted to hang out more. I mean, be my girlfriend." I said it with a whoosh. What the hell was I doing?
She hopped and ran and gave me a huge hug. I forced myself not to yank away from her kiss. "I thought you would never ask me!" She giggled and bounced away, on an insane high. So she did like me like Edward said. I sort of thought he was just teasing me.
"You're answer is?"
"Yes! I would love to!"
"Good." I smiled at her. The same smile I used to get her brother. Just then there was a noise behind us.
"Jasper.." It was just above a whisper. I couldn't help but to squint my eyes in pissed mode.
"Yes, Edward?" My question dripped with sarcasm.
"We need to talk.. now." He looked around. "Alone."
I picked up Alice's hand and kissed it. "I will see you later."
I dismissed myself and I gave my sister a we will talk later glance. She crossed her arms and stared at me with vengeance in her eyes. She might scare every one else but she did not worry me. I knew how to handle her. I pushed out the front door and I began walking to my car.
"Wait, damn it, we need to talk!" Edward yelled at me. I didn't answer him, instead I slipped into my car seat. To my surprise Edward hopped in on the passenger side.
"Get out." I couldn't handle him being so near in a closed proximity. His scent was overpowering and it made me hard despite myself.
"Just drive." I wanted to tell him to burn in hell but I reversed the car and squealed out of the drive way. After a few minutes I cleared my throat.
"Where do you want to go?" I was falling back into this role again. Fuck!
"The woods.." Remember the woods? I wanted to say but I stopped myself. Even in this he was the dominator. He dominated everything! I pulled over to the side of the road and stormed out of my car into the shade of trees. I didn't stop until we were 20 feet from the road. "Go ahead."
"At least turn around and look at me..I wanted to tell you.."
"I wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you. Ha! Your penis holds so many secrets, I just hope it doesn't hold a STD." I turned to face him then, venom exploding in my voice. "I let you touch me with out protection. How long have you been sleeping around with chicks? God, tell me you use a condom with Bella."
He stood in silence and it just angered me. Before I could catch myself I hauled off and cracked him in the jaw with my fist. My eyes widened when I realized what I had done. Edward had fallen onto his knees and blood ran down his chin. Oh hell. I dropped down next to him and he wiped the blood on his sleeve.
"Edward..I.."
"Don't apologize. You know I deserved it."
My eyes stung again with unshed tears and I hugged him to me. His arms wrapped around me and I was losing the fight to be mad. I wasn't this person. I couldn't stop myself from loving him and I couldn't stop Edward from liking women.
"Why are you doing this? You know I will take it. Why do you keep screwing me over?" I begged him as I cried. "I would do anything for you."
"Because I don't want to be gay. I can't be this way Jasper! It's wrong. It's disgusting." I was taken aback.
"Your gay…like me?" I pushed him back a bit to stare in his eyes. He was joking. This didn't make sense.
"I knew I was gay the moment I saw you three years ago in ninth grade. You were the most beautiful being I had ever seen in my life. So when we experimented with alcohol from my parents pantry that night at the sleep over and we kissed in the tree house, I played it off like I didn't want you to. Do you remember?"
"Yes." I drawled slowly.
"And that night when we slept together in the sleeping bag and you snuggled up to me and I kissed you, I told you I was bi, remember?"
"Of course I remember, where are you going with this?"
"That night when you slept next to me, I told you I loved you. I told you everything. I didn't want to be an abomination. My parents wanted good children. I'm defected. There's something wrong with us." He looked on the verge of a mental breakdown.
"Why are you telling me this now? You should've told me when I was not passed out in a drunken stupor when we were 15 years old. That would've meant so much to me to know that I wasn't alone. You're using these girls as a cover. You're ruining their lives, Edward. But I guess that's what Cullen's do."
"Like you? What do you think you're doing with my sister Alice? She has loved you since she was eight!"
"I guess we can call it even then?"
His eyes glazed over with a desperation I had only seen once when Esme died. He had needed me that night and he had given me one of the best blow jobs I had ever had and I had blown him for hours until he passed out from fatigue. It was a look that sort of made me uncomfortable.
"Jasper, just don't sleep with her, Okay?" He was incredible. Always about him!
"Fuck off, Edward. I am going to sleep with her even if I have to think about naked men dancing a jig around me."
"But you're not like me, Jasper." He stood up and began pacing. "You don't use people."
"Well, people change."
"But WHY?" His hands fisted in his hair. He was losing it for sure.
"Because I have to beat you at your own game."
"I'll tell her your gay!"
"Fine. I will tell her how much you like giving it to me up the ass. I'll show her all of your naughty little emails you sent me, and texts, and letters. I will tell her that her handsome, straight, ladies man brother is really a sex obsessed gay man who likes to cum on my face. Oh, I won't stop there though." The muscle near his jaw ticked and looked at me with hate. "I will print them out and staple them all over town. I will go through the school email and send it around to students and teachers alike."
"I'll sue." He stepped toward me.
"Go ahead. Damage will be done." I shrugged.
"You win." He choked out and crumpled to the ground again, head in his hands as he cried. My stance softened a bit and I sat next to him.
"I don't want to fight with you." Don't let him gain control again. I gave him a huge hug and he cried on my shoulder. Usually I was the one crying to him, so the role reversal was a bit unsettling. What was more unsettling was when he decided to start kissing my neck. It was unexpected and I couldn't stop myself from enjoying it. What the hell was he up to?