Choices
By Urooj
Hmm, my first attempt at a Mai Otome/Hime fanfic. Let me tell you and warn you all from now, the characters are totally Out of Character. So please bear that in mind. This fanfic is a basic Shiznat, yet not so Shiznat like, and a side MaiNatsuki.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but the plot.
Chapter 1
They say jealousy is a destructive force that can destroy a relationship. I wholeheartedly agree. Though you can't blame me, especially since I want attention from my crimson- eyed former pearl. Especially since we don't have so much time together.
Shizuru, the newest addition to the column, has always been sent out for business. From battling monsters to acting as a mediator in the affairs of countries. She comes when she can, and she leaves when she wants too. Her emotionless facade is always there, so it has always been hard for me to tell what exactly is going on with her. Or maybe it's because I'm so in love with her, that I can't tell what she's feeling because my emotions put me in a turmoil.
As of now, I am sitting here, waiting for her to return. She told me she would return back here in about two hours, yet it's been five hours since she has left, with no sign of return. I sighed. This always happens. It's so normal, that I just expect this. Waiting for her, like an obedient puppy. The only logical thing to do is go back to my room, and rest. Hopefully Mai would cheer me up.
"Natsuki" A gruff voice called out. I turned, just hoping it would be Shizuru, but of course not. My eyes meet violet eyes, and I know exactly who this is.
"Haruka-onee-sama." I nod towards her, and then finally take notice upon her companion.
"Chrysant-sama" I nod towards her, with acknowledgement. Both of them are under an umbrella, in this pouring cold weather. Haruka's gruff voice breaks free once more.
"Looks like Viola left her puppy heir..."
"Here Haruka, not heir" Haruka blinked. I could only try to suppress my laughter with learned training. Bad habits die hard.
Chrysant-sama then shakes her head and looks at me.
"Natsuki-chan should go inside, especially since it is raining so hard. You are already soaked and as I can tell, very close to catching a cold." I smile at her concern, feeling somewhat warmed in this cold weather. Yet my heart is cold.
"Thank you Chrysant-sama, but I will wait only a few more minutes before I head inside."
"C'mon Yukino. This dog won't budge until it sees its master." Haruka looks at me with indifference, but I can tell there is concern behind those eyes. Chrysant-sama smiles and nods.
"Good luck Natsuki-chan." So I watch both of them part away, and wait for a while longer.
It's been like this for as long as I can remember. Myself, waiting for Shizuru. Though it seemed in the beginning she was more eager to spend time with me, now it seems more like god's mercy if I can get a decent time to talk with her.
I look around my room, changing into something warm.
"Mai's not here..." I dully noted. A small pang of jealousy surfaces forMai, as I had noticed, her and Shizuru are actually getting closer, and seem to be able to spend more time together. It is mostly due to the fact that Mai was asked by the Gakuenchou to follow the third column around. Another reason the two were getting closer, was because of me.
Yes, Shizuru and I fight. Of course we have a difference of opinions and our own bickering. Especially considering that we are complete opposites of each other. She's more of a tea-drinking person, yet I am more of a biker girl. With nothing in common to bind us, I've wondered what exactly caused me to ask her to go out with me. And Mai seems to always be there to comfort...someone. No, she's not there to comfort me any more, although I can see her try to comfort myself. She comforts Shizuru, and tries to show me the error of my ways. For once though, I wish Mai would mind her own business. What happens between me and Shizuru should be talked between us. After all, if Shizuru can mediate affairs of countries, then why can't she handle arguments?
The door opens, and I peer at it curiously, hearing such familiar voices.
It can't be.
But it is. It's Mai, following behind her, is my one and only Shizuru.
One and only my ass.
"Natsuki! I'm so sorry, I took so long..." I zoned out. I couldn't stand it. My heart was at my feet so heavy, and there was this burning sensation in the pits of my stomach.
"Actually, it was my fault Natsuki; Shizuru here helped me out with..." I couldn't stand it. She made me wait for six hours in the soaking rain, only so she could help Mai? Just how important is Mai to you Shizuru that you couldn't even call?
My hands shook, tightened in a fist. What the fuck was going on?
I calmed my body before any of the two could notice. I smiled. Oddly, I'm becoming more of a Shizuru than I could have imagined. This was bad right?
"And so we came here."
"I see." I say, looking any where but at Shizuru. She knows, she would know.
"Since Shizuru-onee-sama is here, why don't we sit down and have tea?" I nod, and turn around to make tea. The two sit on the bed and start small talk. Swiftly I serve tea and sat down, watching them. I occasionally said something briefly in the conversation, but watched them afar. I had actually said something right? Even though it was brief I was acknowledged five minutes after those two were done with their current talk. The two of them seemed to get along so well. I hate it. I hate it so much. How can those two get along so well? Why can't Shizuru and I spend time like that so? I can tell my jealousy is getting to me. My thoughts are becoming irrational. I can hear their laughter, it's driving me crazy. Right now, I don't want any of them, Shizuru or Mai. Their both pissing me off.
"Well that was eventful, wasn't it Mai-chan?"
"Yes Shizuru-onee-sama! We've gotten so close, isn't that great Natsuki?"
We've gotten so close, isn't that great Natsuki?
We've gotten so close, isn't that great Natsuki?
We've gotten so close, isn't that great Natsuki?
That phrase just kept repeating and it wouldn't stop! No matter what I did, all that I kept in, burst. The lid popped.
"That's enough, both of you." I whispered harshly tightening my grip on my teacup. My body trembled. I was so mad.
The laughter stopped. All eyes on me.
"I've had enough of you two, getting so close." I glared at Shizuru.
"You've always kept me waiting. I've hated that. It seems so hard for you to spend time with me!" I yelled. My eyes stung. I wouldn't cry. Not in front of them.
"And you Mai! What kind of friend are you? You know my feelings for Shizuru. You watch us spend so less time together, yet you get to spend more time with her! How can you flaunt such a fact so carelessly! Saying such "We've gotten so close, isn't that great Natsuki", how the hell do you think I feel hearing that after standing in that fucking rain for 6 hours?"
They watched, dumbfounded at me. I hated this feeling. So close to crying. But they wouldn't see me. So I ran out, running towards to door. Before I could reach it, someone caught my hand.
"Natsuki..." Shizuru whispered. Her face, her eyes had so much concern. So much emotion. So expressive. But I couldn't take it any more. I jerked my hand out and ran out, ignoring all the calls from Mai, and a pleading look from Shizuru.