Title
Hiding
The Feeling
Contents
Ouran High School Host
Club
Pairings
Hikaru/Kaoru
Hikaru/Haruhi
POV
Hikaru
Beta
None
Summary
Hikaru
hides his love for Kaoru by dating Haruhi, as if to keep Kaoru
innocent as he can. Even if it risks the two falling
apart.
Disclaimer
I do not own Ouran High School Host
Club or any of the characters mentioned. Trust me if I did, they
wouldn't be hosting. They'd be dancing with fruit hats
naked
Warning
Twincest implied. Third wheel. YAOI. YAOI.
I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. You have been warned
Enjoy
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For weeks now I've tried to pull off this liking for Haruhi to sheild you from a disgusting world. It's sick actually, how I would think of you in these dirty ways of mine. At first, I think I slipped a bit, when I would have these fantasies of you I would substitute her name in place of yours. I mean it's obvious why I choose Haruhi to 'crush' on instead of one of our fangirls or even Renge. Because Haruhi has this apathy towards men, and all we have to offer. So, even if word got out that I 'liked' her, she would proably shrug it off and I would act in a world of sorrow for a few days. But then I'd have to pick a new girl to start 'crushing' on, just to keep the dirty secret from you. Honestly, how could I think of my own brother like that? My innocent younger brother. I think that's what appealed me the most about you, your innocents. It's delicious. With a sigh I thought about if you liked me too, just a thought.
"Kaoru? Do you think Haruhi loves me too?"
I know, I know, I'm being annoying with all the Haruhi talk, and stareing off into the distance is not helping it at all. Playing with my fork in the meal you prepared for me, I thank you on making this for the two of us. And you made my favorite, damn I love you. I want you to be with me forever.
"Kaoru?"
You seem a little distant tonight. Or maybe your annoyed.
"Kaoru.. Do you think Haruhi will run away with me?"
You still won't answer me. Maybe I'm being a little over worked with all this Haruhi talk. Although, I'm not actually talking about her. Maybe one day, on our death beds I'll sum up the courage to tell you. But until then I need time to think.
"Kaoru?"
"Hm? Yes Hikaru."
"Please excuse me. I'm going out for a while."
I can't believe I just got up and left like that. I walked right out the door like I have so many nights before this one. My hoodie over my eyes, my shoes clunking the ground in the rain. Lonely night tonight. Here's a fun fact for you, ever since I started thinking about you like this I've taken to smoking. I know it'll kill me someday, but the good die young. Does that mean if I die of old age, I'm bad? Heh. Hikaru made a funny. What a pity no one's around here to laugh at my stupidity. Damn, I'm SICK of these walks. These walks down the block, across the street, turn left, and walk straight for five blocks to Haruhi's house. Their DUMB. And long if I can put it. Well, I guess I can stop by her hosue again tonight. I mean, she is one for apathy, but that's before happy hour begins. Yes, I've taken to drinking. So what? It's FUN. Leave me alone, judge yourself before you judge me. And there she was, sitting on her porch, holding onto the bottle of wild turkey-wait, wild turkey? When did we start drinking that?
"Hikaru!"
Oh god, she's already drunk... I better start getting there or else I'm screwed over as the 'sober friend'. Sitting down on the porch, on step below her I swigged off the top of the bottle. It wasn't what I expected, but nothing I couldn't down.
Well it wasn't long before I came home. Upon open of my door, you were sitting on my bed. I had Haruhi around my neck, ready to give in. You kinda shocked me there, I really wasn't expecting you in here. What to say..
"Kaoru? ... Out."
Simple as that. In your t-shirt and boxers you might as well have a sign around your neck saying 'Hikaru PLEASE rape me!' But I won't drag you into that sick world. Watching you leave, kinda hurt. But either way, once you closed the door she had pinned me on my bed, and that's when it started.
I recall moaning her name, more or less to stop.
"Haruhi... Please..."
And that's when it happened. In her hand, layed my would-have-been future childeren. A mental sigh of relife and a smile crossed my face.
"Aw Hika-chan. I didn't mean to go to fast."
"It's fine. Really. I'll drive you home."
Yes I was sober enough now. She got up to get dressed as did I. But a pit stop to your room wouldn't have hurt. Walking over to your door I zipped my fly, and smiled down at you. Damn you Kaoru, you looked so... Tempting. I hate you! No, no i don't. But either way I had to say something convinceing myself i couldn't be with you.
"I beat you."
That's it Hikaru. Tell him how you got a girlfriend. Heh, see? I'm moving on! Ah what am I kidding? I'm stuck on you. Walking over I noticed you've been crying. Your not allowed to cry, your to pretty for it. Either way I wiped the tears from your eyes. That song I heard on the radio came on in my head, 'beautiful girls' by Sean Kingston. I smiled softly as the song begun it's chorus. You're way to beautiful girl, That's why it'll never work.
"Kaoru? Something wrong?"
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