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Authors Note: PLEASE READ THIS FIRST: Ok, I've been rattling around with this idea for a while now, but unfortunately I can't write the first scene. So.....here's my thought. I am going to briefly explain what has transpired in my mind and what I've written takes place after my summary. If anyone would like to read my summary and then write the first scene for me, based on my summary I'd love it. Let me know.
Summary: Alex and Bobby work really hard to get their partnership and friendship (not yet more than that, although we all know how they really feel about each other, so maybe later..) back to normal after all the horrible events of the past two years. For Alex, it's all about trust, and having Bobby understand he can't keep secrets from her. And it seems to be working well. But..one day Alex stops by Bobby's apartment unexpectedly and who answers the door? Donny and his mom. She asks how long they've been in town and Donny says two weeks. Alex is so stunned and hurt that Bobby didn't tell her, yet again. Alex decides, at this point, that Bobby has broken her heart too many times, as a partner and a friend, and no longer wants him in her life, as either. So this is where the story picks up.......
Letting Go and Starting Over
The wind was cold and the rain felt like little pebbles in his face. He stood there, in the rain, watching Alex walk quickly away from him. He didn't know what to say. He couldn't explain it himself. Why didn't he tell her? He thought about this and had no real answer. Did he think she would turn Donny in? No, that wasn't it, he knew her loyalty was to him after everything that transpired. Was he afraid she would be angry that he let Donny back into his life? Again, no, he knew she understood how much it meant for him to still have some family connection, out there, somewhere. In fact, she had gently suggested, more than one time, that they hire a private investigator to find him. She even offered to pay. So why then, did it come to this? Maybe he was just so set in his ways, so used to being let down, so used to not trusting, that he couldn't trust anyone. Not even her. Still, the look in her eyes, was...totally vacant. No emotion, no...nothing. It wasn't like when she found out he had been undercover. This time she didn't react, didn't shake her head, just looked from Donny to Bobby and turned her back and walked down his steps and away. He didn't know what to do...so he did..nothing. He knew that tomorrow he would have to face her anger and hurt and couldn't begin to imagine how to fix this. He got no sleep that night.
Alex kept walking, tears stinging her eyes. Somehow, she made it home in one piece. She looked in the mirror. What had she become? Let down again by a man, a friend, a partner, who despite everything she did for him still wouldn't trust her. She felt like a portion of the past eight years of her life were a waste. He was never going to change. He couldn't. And then, just like that, the tears stopped. She was done. She knew what she had to do. And Alex got one of the best nights sleep ever that night.