Quick Disclaimer:
C0nstantine does not own Naruto. He does however, own this little story.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Pain
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
She smiles. Pain. It's stung like this before. It always did. I could probably compare it to a fire. Maybe a blaze would be more fitting. . .an inferno that raged inside of me. It wasn't made from anger, I rarely had that feeling. No. This is from sorrow. She talked to me, but that wasn't what started the fire. She would mess around with me, the hits and jokes never sparked this feeling. No. What started this was the cacophony of silence. The torment that followed. I hated when she stopped smiling. I despised it when we ran out of words to speak. I was alone when she cried. Sure, I'd try to make her happy. It never worked. This was my pain. I would work my days around her joy. My pain was her joy. I'd go off on missions to find the boy that was the cause of her tears. When I was there for her, we'd talk for hours about anything else. The silence was what we dreaded. If we had a break in thoughts, he'd be there.
Sure, he was my friend. We grew up together. Yeah, we always fought, but it was together. We were just trying to prove to the other that we were equal. We were the same. The day he left, I knew things would never be the same.
He didn't want to be the same.
He wanted to be something better.
Her life revolved around his. She did as I do now. It's ironic that I should spend my time trying to make her happy when the one thing that did left. I mean. . .I never had her to make me content.
I never had anything.
I still don't. But that's why I'm here, spending my days with a girl who hates me.
Wasting my time trying to save the unsaveable.
Using my time to it's most worthless.
Spending my life on something so useless.
My pain is such. . .
I cannot help that which I've put my life into. I will never get it back, and that's the pain. That all this effort, all this training, all my work will never payoff. All the moments I've spent trying to make a girl happy, all the months I've tried to get stronger so I could bring him back and finally see her smile. . .
Her beautiful smile. . .
That's what causes me the most pain.
I know it's fake when she does it around me. There's no meaning. Just duty. She smiles at me because she thinks that it'll push me harder. Maybe it's because she thinks he'll come back. Possibly. . .
Possibly it's because she knows I won't give up. There will always be a chance as long as I have a breath in me. He may desert her. He may come back one day, and he could still hate her.
But he'd be back.
And that's all she has. That's all her effort has gone into.
Him.
If he comes back, none of that time she's spent on him will be wasted. None of those hours spent trying to convince him to love her back would be useless.
I'm just a tool in that goal.
But I don't care.
If I can see that smile. . .and know it means something. . .I'll bring him back.
When he's back, this pain will fade.
The fire inside me will burn itself out when the fuel is gone.
I can watch her leave me, just as long as she does it with a smile. A real one.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
So, this was my first uploaded Fanfic, just to let you know if it sucks in anyway. I'm planning on making more, but at the current moment, I think I'll just classify this as a oneshot, because by the time I make my next chapter, it'll be like. . .next month. I got school coming up so I don't know when I'll be able to start chapter 2. Leave a Review if ya can, I wanna know what you think of this.
"All the black is really white
If you believe it." -Trent Reznor, Nine Inch Nails, In This Twilight
C0n.