Hey all!

This is just a short song fic I really felt like writing ever since I learned to play this song on piano a few months ago. Now, whenever I play it, I always think of Sirius. Sigh. Actually, I think about Sirius a lot, but not in the same way ;-)

This song, Tears In Heaven, is best known as the version by Eric Clapton. It's a great song, I suggest you all take a little time to listen to it.

Dislaimer: I don't own Sirius Black or Harry Potter, but, hey- a girl can dream! The song is Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton. I'm the farthest thing from a musical genius, trust me.

Tears In Heaven

(Harry's POV)

I started walking down the deserted hall of Hogwarts toward my dorm. I had never been one to skip class, but then again, I had taken up a lot of unusual habits since… that day. The pearly white scars on my arm were proof of that. I didn't know why I cut, I guess it just made me feel better. I suppose you could say crying was another habit, but I didn't do that very often anymore. By far, skipping class was my most frequent hobby.

Sir Nicholas passed me by, this time not even attempting to persuade me to go back to Transfiguration. The ghosts had given up on me by now. He just shook his opaque head and drifted off.

Would you know my name?

Oh, Sirius. Do you remember me, friend? I remember you. There was nothing I could do when you fell through that curtain. Yet, as much as I try to convince myself that it wasn't my fault, I know deep down that it is.

If I saw you in heaven.

I went back to the curtain. I imagined you falling, ever so gracefully, down through the barrier between life and death. I was frantic, I tried to stretch out my hand to you, but then I realized you had already gone.

Would it be the same?

Will we laugh in heaven, Sirius? Will I see your face again? Will I hear your voice again? Will it be the same, Sirius? I see your face all the time, your shocked, frightened expression as you slipped through the curtain. I hear your voice again; the agonized scream that plagues my dreams. Oh, I wish I had known. How I wish I had known.

If I saw you in heaven.

I miss you, Sirius. I want to be up there with you, not stuck in this terrible world filled with only prejudice and treachery. I want all this to end, this meaningless, hurtful life I am cursed with.

I must be strong...

Sirius, I need your guidance. They have laid such a task upon me, friend. Why me? Why do I have to be different? This is the hardest thing I will ever have to do. I can't possibly take on this job alone.

I don't belong…

Not yet, I know, but someday I will be there with you. I will feel your hand again, hear your bark-like laugh again, know that you are with me forever. I can't wait to see you again, Sirius. I know I will see you again, I can feel it.

Here in heaven.

Sirius wouldn't want me to be here. I have to prepare for my battle, I have to make him proud so when I do see him again, he will look at me with warm welcome. I turned around and walked back to class.