to june-chan: Thank you and I hope you liked it, i do appreciate what you always suggest to me.
(I MISS DOING THIS) I DO NOT OWN TAKUMI-KUN NOR THE PAIR JUST THE STORY AND SOME ADDT'L CHARACTERS.
All right Kanemitsu-Shingyouji, time to change things up, last year is letting the senpai shine, but this year this is your turn.
These are the thoughts of the young man now in his 3rd year at Shidou high, trying to occupy himself because of missing Misu who is now starting his college in Tokyo decides to be more active in activities especially in the student council after he got elected as the president following Misu's footsteps.
As he walks around the school his thoughts were filled with him as he walked inside the executive office sitting in his usual chair when his lover was still there. This must have been the effect since their communication becomes minimal as the school starts again.
As he returned in his room he was greeted by his roommate Sayashi-Ryo, remarking him how great all his plans especially for the upcoming Tanabata festival.
"Shingyouji-kun I am so proud of you, I know you're working hard for the upcoming festival, but you seem sad these past few days."
"I am just really feeling tired."
"You know that you can confide me anything you miss Misu-senpai don't you?"
"Eh?"
"It's written all over your face." His roommate told him.
"Do you know why I decided to enter Shidou?"
"After I took my exams here and saw him I swear to myself that I will be here to see him, now that he is gone there are times I realized and feel like I shouldn't have been here in the first place. Being in the council, all these things feels like everything is wrong."
"When was the last time he called you?"
"First week of classes, he didn't even reply when I messaged him, when I called him in his phone it got directed on his voicemail, all of our plans meeting in the weekends it always got to rescheduled in the end we never had the chance to meet I don't know."
"I know these things will happen, I am getting tired if you ask me."
"Why not go out with us on weekends?"
"Huh?"
"There's a new shop open and I want you to go with me."
"Ok, I will."
"Yey!" his classmate jumping happily.
Shingyouji laughed seeing his delighted roommate, realizing he needs to take a break from work on weekends.
That day comes and Ryo was all ecstatic going out with Shingyouji, they strolled around the place and eat foods and bought something for themselves, when they reach the clothing store Shingyouji glanced at the shirts hanging on the rack remembering the time when Misu go out with him to buy him new clothes, seems like he comes to miss the older man more, his silence was cut off when he noticed his friend glancing at some familiar faces.
"Sayashi-san?"
"Too sad they got back together." His roommate continues looking at the two boys strolling around the same place.
"Oh is that Takahashi and Suzuki-san?" Shingyouji recognizing them. "I don't know after all the fights they usually have seems like Takahashi-san always go back to him.
"Shingyouji I don't know, I mean Suzuki had that bad attitude he seems so selfish but I don't know why Takahashi-san always accepts him.
"I know why." Says Shingyouji making his friend looks at him.
"You do anything for your first love no matter what he had done in the past you can't right away forget him in the end he is the only one that you'll love."
"Is that why you still hold on to Misu-senpai?"
"Come on try this." Shingyouji ignoring his roommate's question handing him a shirt he thinks suits his friend.
Ryo smiled and took the shirt from his friend's hand and directly went into the fitting room, outside Shingyouji took out his phone and stares at the wallpaper with had Misu's picture on it, he tried to dialed his number but still it was it got directed on his voicemail. Shingyouji decided to give up since every effort he had is going nowhere.
School days began again, Shingyouji seems to be busy with some papers given by the principal, and he decided to take some rest, looking around the council room his spacing was cut off when the new Head of Discipline Committee and 3rd Floor dorm head Kitahara-Sho snapped him out of his trance.
"Kitahara-san?"
"You don't even notice me going inside the office."
"Sorry about that is there any problem at all?"
"Nothing, here are the other papers you need to check out for the upcoming festival." Sho smiling at him while hading the files.
"Oh thank you." Shingyouji laying the rose beside his papers.
"Continue doing your job, I'll leave you for now." Sho waved his hand leaving Shingyouji buried himself with work. Suddenly his name was heard in the PA announcement he stands up into his seat and approached the front desk glancing at the rose Sho gave him that had at least made him smile.
On the front desk he take up the phone and was surprised to hear someone's voice he did not heard for almost a month.
"A—arata san?"
I'm sorry if I had just called today we had been so busy so I was not able to contact you, and especially the exams and projects we had been through.
"It's ok." Says Shingyouji not wanting his lover to worry. "I know college life is really that hard, how's Hayama-san and Gii-senpai?"
Hayama is busy with his studies and with the upcoming recital, same with Saki since he'll be the one taking his father's place in the future. So how's Shidou I know you're doing good as they're president.
"Everything seems to be fine and…"
Shingyouji I do want to hear more from you but I need to go now I just called to ease you're worry
"It's ok, I love…" Before he could finish what he want to say to Misu the line got cut off. Shingyouji walked out and decided to return to his work, suddenly Sho had spotted him.
"Nee Shingyouji."
"Hi."
"Want to go to the greenhouse?"
"But I still need to finish my works."
"It'll be quick." Sho grabbed his arm and run out of the school hall.
At the greenhouse Shingyouji is curiously looking at him wondering what his friend is up to. Suddenly he saw a bird in a cage and is fascinated by it.
"Is that?"
"A canary." Carrying the cage.
"I named him Aki."
"Aki?"
"Yup I always visit him here during my break time, he would chirp happily but seems like last month he is becoming lonely I don't know why. Maybe he thought I won't be coming here anymore.
"Maybe that's the reason." Says Shingyouji.
"Oh no! we have meeting with the dorm heads today." Sho looking at his watch.
"Oh my! How could I forgot let's hurry back to the school and to think I was the one who set that meeting up."
Shingyouji and Sho hurriedly run back and apologized being late and go ahead with the meeting which is about for some rule breakers in the school and about the upcoming Tanabata Festival in their school. He and Sho are attentively listening about some suggestions of his schoolmates as the meeting ends they went back to the council office since he forgot some of his papers so Sho go with him.
"So the festival will be coming up do you have any plans on that day?" asked Sho.
"Well I'll be meeting with Gii-senpai and Hayama-san since they promise to come here and visit the school and…"
"And?"
"Arata-san might visit as well."
"You mean Misu-Arata? "
"Yes."
"Seems like you're having a hard time because of your situation huh?"
"I just miss him that's all, I feel like 1 year seems so long I can't wait to graduate here and be with him."
"Hey! Are you going to cry?"
"No if I will cry it won't change anything right? I'm glad to have a friend like you."
"I guess so, but I wonder during our freshmen and second year we never talk to each other." Sho told Shingyouji.
"You always buried yourself in books and for a while I thought you were a robot."
"A robot?"
"You don't talk that much and you rarely joined in with us."
"I was trying to talk only if you're alone." Says Sho.
"Eh?"
"When I first met you in Shidou you're this eccentric guy, at first I was really annoyed I feel like even in my room I could hear your voice, when I saw you with Misu-senpai before all I could say that you were pathetic following him around and all, but then I was on my way to my class I saw you defending your friend, I had admired you after that time, I realized after all being your friend might not be bad maybe I could get close to you."
"I never thought someone would be annoyed at me, but it doesn't matter now right we had more months to be friends and maybe by college even if we don't go to the same University we could always meet so I better go now I feel like I need to rest." Shingyouji tapped his friend's shoulders and leave the executive office.
As Shingyouji is on his way to his room he saw his roommate talking to his crush but seems like he felt sympathy when he saw the lover of his friend's crush approach them and he was left all alone. As Ryo walks out he saw Shingyouji looking at him. They went together back in their room Ryo is still feeling hurt seeing the guy he likes with someone.
"You obviously like that guy, don't you?"
"Have you experienced something like you loved someone then, you feel hurt because he was with a different person and when you see it all you do is just cry?"
"I did."
"I just really feel hurt, one time he let me borrowed his jacket because my uniform got stained but when I returned it to Takahashi-san I saw Suzuki wearing it as well I feel like getting something that I don't originally own."
"Maybe he was not the one really meant for you."
"You think so?"
"That's only a comment from me it would still be up to you I better take a rest for now I really feel tired today." Shingyouji already changed clothes laid on his bed leaving his roommate who still sighing about the guy he liked a lot.
Tanabata Day had finally arrived and almost all the students are enjoying the school's celebration, Sho appeared and asked him out but Shingyouji declined since he had received a message that Misu, Gii and Hayama are on their way to Shidou.
"Are you sure you'll just stay here?"
"Yeah don't worry about me I'll be fine." Says Shingyouji.
After some hours a student went to the executive office telling him that he had visitors as he went outside he delightedly saw his former senpais and his lover on the lobby he run towards them and hugged them tightly, Misu approached him and Shingyouji almost bursts into tears and hold the older man and smiled at him.
"Seems like you were able to do a great success in your work as a council president."
"I just learn things from you and I always want you to be proud of me." says Shingyouji.
"Shingyouji-kun we're glad we make it here, Gii and I almost argue because we don't want to miss this day with you." Says Hayama.
"I am glad Hayama-san, Gii-senpai I hope you're all doing fine."
"College is a little tough but I think we were able to handle everything well."
As they we're talking in the café where they had went last year Misu suddenly get a phone call which made Shingyouji a little disturbed. He just decided to continue eating his food without looking at Misu.
"Shingyouji-kun are you ok?" Hayama asked him.
"I'm great just had rough week because of the celebrations and all."
"Aren't you disturbed seeing Misu busy with his phone calls instead of just enjoying this very rare time." Gii suddenly asked him.
"Eh?"
"I am not naïve I can read you very well Shingyouji."
"It doesn't matter for now at least he's here right?"
After their dinner, his roommate appeared he bowed first to his former senpais and talked to Shingyouji inviting him on a club that Takahashi will be going to.
"Left Behind Club?"
"Yeah I know the name is weird but I don't have someone to go with me maybe you can and you can invite our senpais if you want to."
Shingyouji looked at Misu and his friends were they all decide to just check what seems to be happening there.
At an empty room Suzuki is the one leading the club talking about end of the world, environment which already bored Gii and Misu, Ryo is busy staring at Takahashi who is attentively listening to his lover.
"Arata-san sorry you had to come to this place as well."
"It's ok, imagine things like this would occur during festival seems to be an interesting thing though I do not get the sense of this club." Says Misu.
"Okay so Iida-san." Suzuki calling one of the students attention. "Someone outside needs your help I hope you do your best to do it."
As the student went outside Suzuki smiled and tell them to leave some of their belongings and hide somewhere.
"Excuse me what in the world are you talking about?" Misu who knows what in the mind of the young student.
"With all due respect senpai just do what I say so you'll know what I mean."
Shingyouji , Hayama and Gii looked at each other but decide to do what Suzuki told them, as they were gone Iida returned back seeing everyone is not around began to panic.
"And that's what it looks like to be left! When you feel alone because all the people close to you will be gone one by one." Suzuki pointing at his schoolmate, Takahashi noticing his lover gone too far tried to tell him to stop it already, Ryo seeing the young student crying approached him and tried to calm him down.
Gii and Hayama decides to leave as well seeing that club made no sense at all and feel pity with the young guy looking disappointed at Suzuki as well. Shingyouji is just standing looking at Iida beng comforted by his roommate as he tried to get close to him Misu grabbed his hand.
"Can we just please go somewhere Shingyouji, this club is not good for you."
"I feel being left sucks." Says Shingyouji.
"All of this is just a stupid prank."
"You don't get it you left me behind and it hurts." Shingyouji starting now to burst his frustrations with his lover which make the older man speechless and the young man still staring at Iida he told Misu that's the exactly what he had felt.
Ryo who is still trying to make him calm down is approached by Takahashi.
"I don't know Suzuki-san will go this far." says Takahashi.
"I better go."
"Wait, don't please."
"I really don't like Suzuki I can't believe you do." Shingyouji's roommate left with the other students tagging Iida who is still breaking in tears and trying to catch his breath.
Gii and Hayama excused themselves decided to go to their former sensei to pay respect, leaving Misu and Shingyouji to talk things out as they walk around Shidou they suddenly stopped at the place where they had first met when Shingyouji had finished his exams.
"This is the place where I saw you and promised myself that I will enter the school to see you and know you. This school had so much memories this is where we had our first date, do you still remember everything?"
"Yes I did," answered Misu.
"I know I always freak you out, but this place it's like our 2nd home, all roads seem to lead us back here. I always think of you, I always tried to call you when you have a free time but I always get voicemails you don't even answered my texts I said it's fine maybe you're busy but you're now here and that's what matters but you still showed me how you are doing I became disturbed and for once I want to ask you is there something we need to talk?
"Shingyouji"
"Stop pretending there is nothing wrong between us, I noticed you had suddenly changed upon entering the University, I mean at least during your first week you keep on calling me but it lessened and worst you just communicate with me like at least once a week, we never met because you reschedule the plan, this is the only time we met again. "
"I am with someone." Says Misu
"Is that a woman?" Shingyouji's tears flowing in his eyes, Misu nodded at him.
"A t first it did not mean anything, she keeps on annoying me but I realized we share the same interest, and for once I want to feel what it's like to be a real man." Says Misu. "I know I haven't been a good lover to you, I purposely decided to lessen my communication with you. We can't pretend that the things are the way they were because they are not. And we both know this would no longer work." Misu telling Shingyouji who tries to control his tears.
"Shingyouji" Misu walking closer to the young man. "Lets's just do the mature thing here alright?" Shingyouji shakes his head not wanting to hear what Misu had to say. "Let's just be honest this type of relationship is hard to keep up, because both people don't really get what they need."
"That really sound like we're breaking up." Shingyouji trying to wipe his tears.
"You know this isn't working."
"You are the first person who had made me feel loved and visible, you had showed me how important my existence is, you are the first one who had made me special, Arata-san you are my first love and I want anything for you to be my last, but if that would make you feel happy or maybe would make you feel like a man I would respect your decision."
"I am so sorry."
"No, you shouldn't be." Shingyouji leans and gave Misu one last kiss on his lips, and walked out and return inside the school, Misu still looking at the young man decide to leave Shidou as well.
Celebration has ended Shingyouji is in the executive room when he received a note from Misu telling him that he did not intend to hurt his feeling and end that way, he threw the paper through the trash can suddenly his roommate appeared asking him out on lunch which he nicely declined.
After he was done with his works, he decides to go to the greenhouse to see the bird Sho once showed him. He noticed it became sad when it saw Shingyouji.
"Are you feeling lonely for me? Don't be I am used to feeling this kind of emotion, I know it was not that easy but I did not know this would be so hard, I really do love him but if he can't really accept me then I should really forget him".
Shingyouji left the greenhouse and walked around the school closing his eyes remembering the time when he had first met Misu, and the time they kissed in the dressing room last year, as he went back in his room he collect all the things that Misu had gave him putting them all in one box including the shirt the older man bought for him during Tanabata Day last year, as he finish clearing all his things he finally closed the box and put it in his cabinet.
I am really sorry for the bad start, I am not really a writer by nature so being out of writing makes me feel like I don;t know what I am doing, I just hope you enjoyed it and I will update as soon as I can, I was listening to The Scientist by Coldplay thats how I kind of started this story.