"Niomi... Niomi! Wake up!" a familiar voice strung through my ears as if a violin was playing in my head. I rolled over from my bed to look up and see my boss staring down at me telling me to wake up. He's holding a paper with my name on it with errands.

"I need you to some things for me today, alright?" his deep voice irritates me a little since I am still not fully awake, I nod my head and grab the paper from his hand. I look at the parchment and read my duties for today. Get carrots, cabbage and bread. Take Shadowmere for a bath. Lastly visit the inn that is only 6 miles away from our sanctuary to find out any clues about our missing Speaker. Great more errands for me to do today that has nothing to do with killing people. It's funny how I am part of this cult that assassinates innocent people but I do things that normal people would do such as cleaning, shopping and detecting.

"Thank Niomi. Be back before dusk, you got it?" I nod again in agreement to his requests.

Well I should introduce myself.

Hello my name Niomi Basken, I am 19 years old and I am an assassin. Yes I am part of the Dark Brotherhood. You see I am not here by will either... I was found by my boss when I was only 11 years old ... I was beaten to a bloody pulp, I was found curled up by a tree. I am grateful he saved my life but he has trained me to kill... the innocent. When I turned 15, I figured it was wrong to kill people for no apparent reason... I felt so disgusted with myself afterwards, I'd usually come back to my dorm crying my eyes out wanting to kill myself for all the terrible things I have done... I've been wanting to make a break for it for a very long time but the people here have treated me like I am their own so I cannot just abandon them. My boss will hunt me down and kill me himself if he knew I'd leave to live a normal live style.

My boss is Jay Macke... He's only 4 years older than I am.. his father used to own the sanctuary.. Until he passed away just before Jay found me. His father entitled Jay's name into the dark underground dorms we live in. Jay's mother lives a normal life from what I hear... She lives up in Solitude with her new husband and three kids. When she found out Jay's father was killing and slaying the innocent, she froze and couldn't take the cold truth, so she left and became so depressed she wouldn't leave the house until her new husband came along, the captain for the Solitude guards.

I grabbed my brown, worn out leather jacket and flung it around me and slid my arms into it. I walked out into the blinding sun and saw Shadowmere lurking in the trees staring at me as if no one has fed her today. I walked up to her and caressed her head. "Goodmorning gorgeous." I mumbled out giving her a light kiss on her head. I took out a green apple and fed it to her. She gobbled it up and begged for more. So I gave her my corn I was going to eat later on. I hopped onto her back and we made it across the bridge. The bridge gate closed behind us.

As we rode out to the lake we do our normal bathing for Shadowmere, I kept thinking about ways to tell Jay I want to experience life in a normal way. I love the people there who raised me from when I was 11 to now. But I am 19 years old now, I have extremely talented sneaking skills. It's amazing how fast I hide and kill a person by slitting their throat. I want to put those awful memories behind me and move on with life. I want to be able to one day get married and have children... have family meals everynight, laughing and telling stories about embarrassing moments. But there's a part of me that's corrupted.. there's a part of me that's done so much wrong my soul needs to cleansed... I need to see the light and stop all the killing. One day.

I got off Shadowmere and walked over to the lake to feel the water. It was a bit chilly but enough to not freak out this black beauty. "Come here girl."

I wet her dark coat and get out the organic soap and scrub her clean. I make sure to get every spot super clean since she does dig and get into bloody messes.

After cleaning she lays down, and I lean up against her. I take out some oats and hand them over to her snout as she was being a good girl and letting me clean her. I lean my head back and inhale the fresh air that I never get to breathe since I live underground. I might as well be called a falmer... even though I am a Nord.

"Hello Niomi." I turned my head to see who called my name. It was Jay. His sea-green eyes that always caught my attention.

"Hello." I answered back putting down my bow. "No need to be alarmed. I saw you resting over here, didn't want you feeling lonely." He kneeled beside me.

"I'm fine." I assured him.

There was a silence between the both of us, he scanned my face before he opened his mouth again.

"There's something on your mind... isn't there Niomi?" Jay settled his hand on top of mine.

"Well. I don't know." I shoved his hand away from me and flinched a little bit.

"Why are you acting so cold around me? I've given you a home to live in and things to live off of. And you act so distant and cold around me? Did I do something wrong?" His voice rose a little bit, startling me.

"No you did not." I simply answered him. He kneeled back down to me and took my hand and squeezed it hard. "Be honest my dear." He smirked, showing his pearl white teeth.

"I am sure. I wouldn't lie to you Jay. I'm sorry if I've been acting differently." I said sound apologetic.

His face grew closer to mine, his hand ran from my hands to my shoulders.

"There something I must share with you Niomi..."