Somehow, somewhere you do exist
I should have trusted my gut from the get go.
You're the perfect girl but you belong with someone else.
I'm tired of walking around with your secret, but when I said to the grave I meant it.
So, now here I am feeling terrible for being nice to some one so amazing.
I won't hide who I am.
It's not in me and I can't fall for you again.
The sounds we shared were enough for me.
You really are a siren and you stole my heart from the beginning.
Now all I have is your voice in my memory, and your shadow to keep me company
when I can't sleep at night.
What am I supposed to do write you like crazy and go on about my day ?
Debating to wait for a reply that won't be returned for weeks or moths at a time.
I'm a patient girl but there is only so much I can do to keep busy,
as my hands shake with exhaustion.
For awhile I'm saying see you around not goodbye.
My voice keeping me sane as I sing to myself in a lonely bed.
But there are better friends and they understand me even through the pain,
I'm a girl I'm not some stupid kid I know how this works !
She did it to me before and she was a liar.
At least with you I can see your secrets,
right there for the rest of the world to read everyday.
So here I am not screaming for once and knowing who I really am.
And that girl in me is good and dandy,
not scared of being turned away anymore.
My hearts in the right place and so is my love for the sunshine in front of me,
I shouldn't have let this go on
but here we are pretending to be friends
but keeping you and your secret close.
Someday that being is going to come along
or maybe they already have ?
I just have to keep searching.
Cause sooner than later I'm going to figure out her name
and all will be right in the world.
Well at least in mine anyway…