This was written a while ago but I never got around to posting it. Written before the last episode of series two but I think it is appropriate given Gwen's last comment. I hope you like it as it's a bit different from my other stuff and I've never done a song-fic before.

I don't own the song - it's Rihanna's 'Unfaithful.'

Unfaithful

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

She was sick of it, having to juggle work and 'normal life' all the time. What if she didn't want a 'normal life'? What if she wanted to spend the weekends in 'the office'? But she was sick of the lies, the stories. She supposed she should really feel grateful that he finally knew the truth. Now, the lies could come to an end and they could finally be semi-normal. A happy couple. But there was still something missing. Rhys was just so… boring. After the excitement of chasing aliens all day.. to go back to something so normal.. so perfect… it was so hard, so pointless.

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And then there was Jack. She supposed she'd always been attracted to her boss on some level. I mean, come on! She'd kissed him within the first few days of starting her job there! But, was it just attraction? Or something deeper? She knew he and Ianto were fooling around, had been for some time, but the looks he gave her sometimes… the looks she gave him sometimes… they seemed so intense… as if something could happean… something wonderful…

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

She knew she should be grateful that Rhys finally knew the truth about her job but somehow she couldn't muster up the happiness… Now that he did know, he expected her to talk to him, to tell him everything but he didn't understand that she didn't want to tell him… that a lot of what she saw would probably give him nighmares.. keep him awake… lying there staring at the ceiling for hours before finally giving up on sleep and getting up and going to work because he just couldn't stand the images running around in his head anymore…

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

She could still feel his blood on his hands. That's what scared her the most… that he would die because of her… because of something she had done… because of he job. His face after Bilis Manger had stabbed him… that was what kept her awake the most… his pale, lifeless face… the blood stained shirt.. and the empty, soulless eyes so usually full of life and laughter.

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

She didn't know why it felt like she was cheating on him by going into work when she should really be at home but it did. Maybe it was because she actually preferred it there… surrounded by people that had the same experiences as her… probably shared the same nightmares… shared the terror of holding a gun to someones head and threatening to shoot…

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

The scary thing was that she had seen him die, and did on a regular basis… nearly every night in her dreams… if she slept at all that is…

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

She couldn't do this. Couldn't look into his eyes and say 'I need to go to work.' He already knew on some level she supposed. She could almost see him flinch everytime her phone rang. Anticipating the message that read 'Torchwood' and her lousy excuses before running out the door.

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

No she couldn't do it anymore, she wanted the 'normal life' back, no matter how boring it would be.

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

'Jack, can I talk to you a minute?'

Jack led her into his office.

A few minutes and many raised voices later, Gwen Copper left Captain Jack Harkness's office, collected her bags and left the Hub through the heavy cog door.

In her hand were two small white pills.

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah

So there we go, please review and I'm off to go and cry some more about the last episode.. bye!!