You know, I've always wondered about the conversation where Jake says, "Hey, Rach, wanna go kill your cousin and get killed?" So I decided to write it. SO there. Haha. : P
"You might not make it," he said
I stomped my foot. "Does it look like I give a damn?" I demanded.
Jake's war-torn eyes looked at me. But he smiled. "No," he said, "it doesn't. But you need to know. I'm not going to make you come if you don't want you. So now you know the risks. I just need to know if you'll do the job."
His eyes searched me. "It'll hurt. I won't pretend it doesn't. You will have to go and kill your cousin. Can you live with that? I don't care if you can't. You will be scarred. I can't help that. Rachel?" he said as I sat.
I hadn't realized it until he said it. I would have to kill my cousin- the boy I had loved, laughed with, flirted with his friends.
He would be dead. No freedom. Dead.
And I had to kill him.
"Jake," I said. I said it just to be said. He sat beside me.
But this could be the end.
It had to be the end.
"I don't want this to happen, either, Rachel. You know I don't. But… but if we want to end this, I think we'll have to do this. You know I don't want anyone to be hurt. Especially not… not you. Not Tom. But… but if this is what it takes, I have to ask you to do this. I'm not going to force you to do it. Just ask," he said.
If I did this, we had won. I might not come back, but we had won. No more Controllers. No more Yeerks invading.
But if I did it- Cassie would lose her best friend. Tobias the one person who really cared. Marco his Xena, and Jake his cousin.
We would win, but every one of the Animorphs lost.
"Rachel? If you want to say no-"
"Let's go," I said.
And we went.
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