Okay, yes another story by me already. It's not yaoi or shounen ai, but it is a sweet love story about Namine and Roxas. I know some people may not like this pairing, but I simply adore it. Sure Axel x Roxas or Seifer x Roxas is cuter, but I was replaying KHII and in the beginning I always cry because they don't really ever get to be with each other. So I decided to gove them thehappy ending they deserve, like I gave to Riku and Sora. This story is more fluff than anything else so please enjoy!
Disclaimer: I still don't own the characters sadly enough. This time the music belongs to Kaoru Wada and Yoko Shimomura.
-Kirux

- Desire for All That is Lost -
- Chapter One: Missing You -

In that brief second, when Kairi and Sora had held hands, I could feel you again. I knew you were there, smiling at me, and I smiled back. I wanted to reach out to you, and hold you, and talk to you about all the things you had promised we would. I just didn't know how.

How do I separate myself from Sora? He needs me just as I need him. I wish there were some way for me to just release myself from him, yet still be the same. Maybe, maybe if I waited long enough, and wished hard enough, it would happen. Someday…somehow…I would reach you Namine…I promise.

I've been having these weird dreams lately, dreams that had to do with Pence, Olette, and Hayner, from Twighlight Town. I was there, but I wasn't me. Yet I wasn't someone completely different, and the person I was was so sad and angry all the time, but he still managed to have fun. I felt as though I had already done all the things from the dreams myself, and that is what was so odd. I knew I hadn't, yet I still knew exactly what was happening in the dreams. Sometimes they wouldn't be dreams at all; they would be flashbacks. I'm not sure that is the right word for it, but it will have to do for now.

Also, I've been having this strange attraction to Kairi, and that was really hard to explain to Riku. He got pissy whenever I told him I was going to go hang out with her. He had always been the jealous type, but that's part of the reason why I love him. But anyways, my attraction towards Kairi, I didn't understand it at all. She had never really liked me in that way either, but she seemed to be acting differently towards me lately. Real lovey dovey like, and it kind of creeped me out. In fact I was planning on hanging out with her today anyways…

Maybe, maybe if I make my emotions for her so strong, and I concentrate on them, they will be so different from Sora's that they'd have to separate from him…

I know, that's completely a stupid idea. I also know that I has chosen to return to him, but I couldn't stand it anymore. I was so alone. I didn't have any of the people I had loved with me anymore. It also doesn't help that none of them knew who I was. Pence, Olette, Hayner, Seifer, Axel…

If I had been able too, I would have cried thinking about that. Imagine having to watch your best friend die, right in front you, sacrificing himself to save you even though it wasn't really you, and not being able to call out to him. To touch him, to even let him know you still thought of him, or to finally thank him for all his help…

"Sora, why are you crying?" Kairi looked at me worriedly as we sat there on the beach.

"I'm not entirely sure, just all of a sudden, I felt so sad and lost. I got this sudden twinge in my heart, like I had lost a very close friend," I tried to wipe away the tears and stop crying but I couldn't, "it's like it has all been building up for so long."

She hugged me close and I felt awful. I didn't like her hugging me; in fact I almost pushed her away. I just couldn't help it though. It felt right to be crying on her shoulder, like she understood perfectly what I had been going through. That was another problem, what had I been going through?

I could feel her again, and she was really close this time. Oh what I would give to touch her, or even to see her, maybe even hear her voice!

All of this was driving my absolutely crazy. I was stuck here, locked away in the dark. All I could see were glimpses of memories, some of them weren't even real. DiZ had just programmed some of them into my mind, like all the ones from the usual spot. I envied Sora for that, too, being able to have met the feel gang, not just computer generated replicas. I want real friends. I want real memories.

Most of all however, I want to know the real you…

"Sora, it's going to be okay. I don't know why we are both going through this, and I know it's really awkward for both of us. Lately, I've only wanted to be with you. I can't explain it, so I'm not even going to try. It's like there's another person deep inside me trying to get out," She hugged me closer and she too started to cry, "A person trying to get out a be with somebody they really care for."

Than I heard her…

"Roxas, don't be so sad. I'm always with you, no matter how far apart we are. And someday, I know we will be able to see each other. It may not be as soon as we both would like, but we still have too keep waiting patiently. That's all we really can do."

"Kairi…" I blinked and my tears started to stop. I felt funny, like I was fading from existence…

"Namine…" I blinked and suddenly tears began to fall from my eyes. I felt strange, like I actually existed…

Okay, so, the first chapter! I like how it turned out. I typed this really late, and on a whim, so if it's hard to follow I'm really sorry. Please enjoy and review! Loves and such!
- Kirux