James & Lilli - Black Heart
Author: Prinaly (I used to call myself Black Princess. Changed it after time, but I think I've started writing Black Heart under that name a long time ago).
Language: English
content: Black Heart deals with James' and Lilli's seventh year at Hogwarts, like most of the Lily & James stories in the ffworld, I guess. The only difference might be that in my story: James suffers a lot, but that's necessary, to show his strength, his character, his loyalty and the tight bond of his friends with him. And he and Voldemort do meet several times. I don't know why, but I love the Voldemort wants James on his side parts XD. Oh, yes, and something else. I do write with a certain humour, that might not be for everyone. I love to laugh and I write every story of mine with that humour. I was happy to see, that a lot of my German readers liked that too, but that doesn't mean that others like them as well. I remember one day particularly, when I was with some friends, and again laughed so hard and... yeah... find myself laughing alone =/ (Not, that it stopped me from laughing furthermore XD ) And I didn't like to write to much about things people wear or how a room or whatever look like. I'll write a bit, but not much. I focus more on describing the feelings and what they are saying or thinking. This might be, because I didn't like to read to much describing myself, but rather read about feelings, thoughts and the actions.
Something you should know: Black Heart (BH) was written as part one of a Trilogy. The second part is Chains of Xerchia (CoX), dealing with James' and Lilli's time after Hogwarts till their death. The third part is supposed to be Harry Potter and the last Black Heart, a Harry Potter fan fiction. I'm still writing Chains of Xerchia and it could be, that the HP story will never be released, but it won't have an effect on Black Heart and Chains of Xerchia, because every story has an end without needing to read the next story. The reason, why the HP Story might not be written is because of the following:
I started writing stories for Harry Potter almost 9 years ago. At the very beginning my first story called Between the frontier (Btf) only took 6 month to be written down. I loved every chapter of that story and 150 Chapter was really much for me, since I never thought of writing such a long story. Black Heart was started before I finished Btf, has only 75 chapters and needed, I suppose, more than a year to be written, if not even longer. Chains of Xerchia was started 2008 and yeah... what should I say? We now have 2013 and it only has 17 Chapters and is just dive into the middle part. You understand, why I now have doubts, that I will write the HP story? Even so I do have a lot of ideas. Well I still plan to write it though.
So, why now translate Black Heart instead of just keep on writing Chains of Xerchia? I'm a student of an university in Germany and surprisingly some of my courses are now in English. (I don't study language Öö which is why the courses are in English surprised me this semester) I'm afraid I need to practise it before it get rusty. And isn't it perfect to translate Black Heart into English and therefore re-read my first story again for Chains of Xerchia? XD Because CoX is a sequel to Black Heart and a lot of things in Black Heart, that happened, will still be continued in CoX. Well, enough said, you might already be bored, if you didn't already stop reading...
Disclaimer: All rights of the people belong to JK Rowling!
Persons:
James Potter:
I've noticed, that my James seems to differ from the usual James Potter, most of you read in fan fictions. At least, that's what some of my German readers have told me so far. In my fan fiction, he is a very caring character. He would do anything for his friends and trust them indefinitely. His life was not easy, is not easy and is never going to be easy. Because he cares so much about his friends, he didn't tell them anything bad, that's going on in his life and hardly shares painful feelings with them. Besides of that, he is the very heart of the group. Well, he has to be, because he's my favourite character besides Harry in the Books. So, I maybe have exaggerated in his personality making him better than Rowling really thought of him... But in my mind, someone, who took someone like Peter Pettigrew as a friend, helping and trust a werewolf like Remus Lupin was to such an extend (Rowling said in an interview, that James kept on supporting Remus with his money after he couldn't find a job after Hogwarts) and still love and married a muggleborn witch like Lilli Evans, even so he was a pureblood for generations, can't be that much arrogant. In my mind, I still have that image of this James Potter, I have wrote in my story.
Lilli Evans:
Yeah, one of my mistakes is, that I do write Lilli instead of Lily. I started writing fan fictions almost 9 years ago and I somehow always wrote Lilli and after some time I got used to it. Can't really change that, since I wrote it already too many times. I hope, you don't bite my head off because of this. ^^
In Black Heart, Lilli is not yet popular. She was that already in another of my fan fictions and I wanted to do something new in Black Heart. Because of being a muggelborn witch and a very good and smart student (a lot like Hermione), she has an enemy. Melissa Kingcade, who is James girlfriend in their seventh year at Hogwarts. Melissa Kingcade knows about James hitting on Lilli for a very long time, but was always shot down by her. That's why her jealousy towards her constituted into making Lilli's life worse in school.
But don't worry ^^ It's just at the start and Lilli's life will change very hard (in a good way) in this year after she managed to be friends with James, Sirius and Anna (follows).
Even so, she's been bullied by Melissa, Lilli do fight back (She was Prefect and will be Head Girl) and is not completely alone. She has a good friend in Rawenclaw Diana Ayenterro (follows too) and still have a good friendship with Remus Lupin (even so, they used to be a couple) and is also befriend with Frank Longbottem and Alice Stattler (of course the later Alice Longbottem), who both are (in my fan fictions) also students at Hogwarts at the same time with the Marauders.
Sirius Black:
I don't think my Sirius differs from other stories. At least, nobody ever told me that... So there is not much to say. Just that, besides Lilli and James, I also write a lot about Sirius, since I do love him a lot, too. Black Heart is a James and Lilli centred story, but Sirius and Anna became very popular through my other fan fiction that I somehow grow to love this paring as well ^^ . To his relationship with Anna, you might should know, that they have more a: tease the other into craziness – thing going on, which I adapted from my other story. Was just to funny to don't keep that here.
Remus Lupin, Albus Dumbledore, Voldemort:
All three should be like in the books, I suppose. At least, I tried that. Of course, without the British accent. I grew up in Germany ^^
Oh no! Wait! You might need to know, that I've started the story before Book 6 was released. So, I remember an interview, Rowling said that she always thought of Dumbledore as being gay. Well he was not in my fan fiction, because Anna is his great-granddaughter. ^^
Alice Stattler and Frank Longbottem:
They are pretty much everybody's Sweethearts. Both very popular, both very nice and already a couple in this fan fiction. Alice is in Gryffindor, Frank in Hufflepuff and they are both in good terms with the Marauder, Anna and Lilli.
Severus Snape:
I have to admit that I'm just not a Snape-Fan, so I didn't really like to write about him and therefore he won't really be written a lot in this ff. If you are a Snape-Fan, this story definitely is nothing for you, because he also didn't really have fun in this story. I didn't go along with the revealing in book 7 about the Snape-Lilli relationship. In my book 7 version: I tried another reason for Snape to join the order and gained Dumbledore's trust.
So, now the new ones in this fan fiction but not in the books:
Anna White:
She has dark hair and also dark eyes. She is the daughter of two well-known deatheaters, but also the great-granddaughter of Albus Dumbledore, the most white-magical wizard at all and was sorted into Gryffindor house as well. This fan fiction will also cover a little bit of their relationship towards each other. Anna is also, besides Sirius, Remus and Peter, James best friend. The Potters love her like a daughter and cares about her like a daughter like James cares about her like a sister. James and Anna share a secret, because of James past and Anna's gifts, which the others didn't know about. She is a very talented witch, not only in normal magic, but also in the dark Arts.
She was Sirius girlfriend for about 2 month last summer but broke up when school started again. Their relationship will also be covered to some point. Anna is in good terms with all of the Marauders and she knows of Remus being a werewolf and the other three being animagi as well. She won't be Lilli's friend at the very beginning, but their friendship will develop through out the story, becoming very important as well. I have to admit, that it was not planned when I started writing Black Heart, but after I read book 6, her character development changed, which you are probably going to notice at the end of the story or then in Chains of Xerchia.
Diana Ayenterro:
She is a really very shy student of the Rawenclaw house. The Marauders hardly notice her and only did after they befriend with Lilli. Remus is the one, who falls in love with her, but their relationship is rocky, because Diana is not only a shy student. She is more. (revealed near the end.)
Diana was invented as a companion for Remus, because he didn't had a good romantic relationship in my other story and I thought he deserved one in this. Unfortunately, Rowling revealed Tonks in Book 6 =/ So, I had to made some changes. Yeah, that was the mistake, writing a story, when the books could still revealed something knew. I'm still unsure how to deal with her in Chains of Xerchia appropriately.
The Potter family:
Harold Potter: James Grandfather. He is the Minister of Magic. He loves his Grandson. He is very hard with everybody else, no matter how old, but treats his son with great love. Because of that, he also treats James friends with the same softness. He is also a very tight and good friend of Dumbledore.
Michael Potter: James father and one of the best Auror of the Ministry of Magic. They used to have a very tight and good relationship, but at the beginning of this fan fiction, they apparently haven't any more, because of something that happened 5 years ago. James acts very indifferent towards his father, because he thinks, that his father didn't care about his family anymore and just put up a face for other people so they think his family is still intact. Michael Potter has not a very good relationship towards his daughter Patricia, since she thinks the same like James, but have a very tight relationship towards Anna White. He cares about her and tries everything to protect her from harm.
Maria Potter: James mother. She is a very caring, loving, but also strong person and also Auror. Because she and her husband are both Aurors, they had a hard time to keep their children safe, since Voldemort was always around them. She still has a very good relationship towards her children, as well as Anna, whom she considered a daughter, but still feels hurt, because of the broken bond between her husband with the family.
Patricia Potter: She is James older Sister and also an Auror. Even so, her parents love Anna like a daughter, Patricia has a very good relationship towards her as well, consider her as a little sister, like Anna consider her a big sister. Patricia and James used to be very tight, but after the events 5 years earlier, even their relationship broke apart, because James separated himself from his family.
Marcel Stone and Swetlana Jaivenko:
Yeah, I admit that. These two names are really strange and I altered the names of two friends to use them in my story. But, like the character of Anna White, I grew to really like them as well.
They are (who would have guessed XD ) German Aurors and live in Germany. They are also very tight friends of Michael and Maria Potter and therefore also James godparents. They are not really that important for the story, more just to support the ongoing details.
Cord Malfoy:
I made the mistake to have Lucius Malfoy in my first ff in the same year like James and the others. So, in this ff, to have a Malfoy, I invented Cord Malfoy. Lucius younger brother. A Slytherin, also cruel and evil.
Melissa Kingcade:
She's a blond, very beautiful Gryffindor. She's not only James girlfriend, but also a good friend for all Marauders as well as Anna. The bully part was already written. She can do that, because she's also in very good terms with all Slytherins, in particular Bellatrix and Cord. Melissa was also an invention from my first ff as a competitor for Lilli. Like I said, I liked James very much and in my head, he just isn't the just arrogant, bully guy, without respect for others and his relationship with Melissa gave me a lot of playground in Black Heart and Chains of Xerchia as well as it did in Between the frontier. I admit, that she was a very shallow character in my first story, but got a greater part in the other two stories, because her character development had a lot to do with James.
So, that's all of the persons I think... Then, lets start, shall we? XD
Ps. I'm very sorry, if my English sucks!
Chapter 1: A long way beyond us
The cave was dark, cold and only lit by a few lights coming from the torches. The walls were old and dirty. Water was dripping down along the walls into the filthy mud. A couple, probably around 30 years old, stood in the corner of the cave with a very young 12 year old Teenage-boy, who clinched on tight to them. The couple were wincing out of fear and looked at each other, expecting the worst.
The woman hold on tight to the boy, who hid his face behind her body, so he didn't have to see the men in black robes around them. Their wands were pointing at the three people, obviously to kill them in an instant if they dared to do something wrong. They heard steps coming near them and then the men around them stepped back to let another man in. That man was a wizard, whose appearance brought an awful coldness towards them, even so it did show something royal and elegant. His expression though was dark and evil, when he then took out his wand, pointing it towards the man, standing with the woman and the child.
"Avada Kedavra," he said almost gently.
A green flash of light shot from the top of the wand into the man's chest, killing him in an instant. He screamed painfully loud, when it hit him and fell to the ground. When the woman saw her husband dying, she closed her arms even more around the kid. Voldemort didn't show any mercy towards her, when he pointed the wand at her and said the same curse in the same gentle, evil voice.
She screamed as loud as her husband did and also fell to the ground. The boy didn't hesitate and bent down to both corps laying on the ground. Tears were falling down along his cheeks, probably because of the dead ones in front of him or maybe because he knew that he was going to be the next one. And indeed the wizard pointed his wand without hesitation at him.
"Avada Ke-"
But he suddenly stopped, starring into the hazelnut eyes of the boy, which didn't seem to show fear, but rather hate and disgust. His eyes were staring firmly back at him. The dark hair of the boy were unruly and he could see something in his eyes, he never expected to see, but he was fascinated.
His blood red Eyes starred interested at the kid.
"Cansington?"
"Yes, My lord?"
One of the men stepped out of the circle and knelt down before him.
"Who is that boy?"
"I don't know. He was with the Muggles."
The wizard looked again at the kid, who managed to wipe his tears away and instead just looked brave back. He didn't show fear or weakness. His parents had taught him to be strong, no matter what happened. They told him, that the world could be cruel and the only way to make it out of such a situation was, to remain brave and true to his own heart.
"You look a lot like your father," the dark wizard continued. "He will be worried about you, don't you think?"
The kid didn't answered, because if he did, the wizard would have heard the fear in his voice. The kid swore himself, that he would never show weakness towards bad guys.
"Cansington?" the wizard said again.
"Yes, My Lord?" his servant asked obediently.
"You know, who you brought me here?"
"No, My Lord."
"Look at him, his eyes, his whole appearance. He looks exactly like his father."
"My Lord?"
"Potter, right?" The wizard turned his attention again to the kid. "You are Michael Potters' son."
Still now answer.
"You didn't want to answer me? Do you really want me to force you? What would your father say, if I really did that? He doesn't want his dearest child to go through something like that, does he?... Cansington." He didn't turn away from the kid, even while speaking to his servant.
"Yes, My Lord?"
"Bring him back to his parents. But before you do that... my dear boy... YOU ARE GOING TO ANSWER ME!"
James woke up with a start in his bed. Sweat dripping down from his forehead. Everything was blurry, his heart rushed, his whole body was burning and his hands were trembling. With his right hand he grabbed his glasses on the table to put them on. Now, he could clearly see his own room, where he was safe and sound. The windows were closed, everything in his room were where it was supposed to be. He sank his head into his hands. Just a nightmare. No, not just a nightmare, but the truth, he's been trying to block out, but forced themselves to come back the past days.
"James!"
He heard his mother's voice, but didn't look up yet. He heard the door opened and then a gentle hand was placed on his shoulder.
"Nightmares again?"
He looked up now to see his mother looking worried at him. He shook his head, while she sat down on his side. His mother was a very friendly and good-natured woman. The best mother you could have. At least, that's what he used to believe.
"I thought they already stopped."
"They did," he answered quietly. His voice was shivering and somehow no complete sentence wanted to come out of his mouth. "I don't know why... but they did... somehow... just started again."
"School is going to start. It'll be your last year at Hogwarts. James, you're safe. He won't be able to lay his hands on you again. We're here and in Hogwarts you have Dumbledore."
James hardly nodded. He didn't believe her, but didn't know what else to do. His mother smiled slightly and gave her son a loving hug.
"James, if I could turn back time and prevent it from happening, I would. I'm so sorry that you had to go through that."
"It's not your fault," he said honestly and really meant that. He never blamed them for what happened to him 5 years ago. He knew that they couldn't have foreseen the events of that day.
She looked worried at him, but still managed a truthfully smile.
"Get ready, honey. You're going back to Hogwarts. I'm sure Sirius is impatiently waiting for you. Your father and I are really proud of you, that you became Head Boy. Dumbledore already mentioned that to us earlier."
James nodded again indifferently, so his mother just smiled again and then left the room to give her son time to get up.
James barely arrived downstairs, when he heard the voices of his parents from inside the kitchen. They were arguing again like so many times before since the event 5 years ago. This happened so many times these days that he blamed himself for the broken relationship between his parents. He didn't dare to join them, so he sat down on the stairs and looked into a small gap at them.
"He has those nightmares again, Michael," came the anxious voice of his mother.
"Yeah, Dumbledore said that something like this might going to start again. I'll tell him so he can take appropriate measures."
"And what good is this going to do?"
"He will take care of James. You know how much he cares about the boy."
"So what? We love him too with all our heart and he's still hurt. Merlin, Michael! He wakes up and his eyes are filled with fear. It's like Voldemort just hurt him seconds ago and what about us? We let that monster did that to him!"
"Maria, sweetheart. Please, calm down."
"I don't want to calm down!" she yelled at him and stepped away from her husband. "It is our fault! We should have never left him with those Muggles."
"We thought he was safe there. No one could have foreseen that they of all people got caught by Voldemort."
"He used to be so cheerful and had fun in everything. He used to laugh so much. Look at him now! His condition gets worse, day after day. But he hides it. He hides it so good that nobody of his friends suspects anything. Neither Sirius or Anna or his girlfriend Melissa. Dumbledore said that James is different in Hogwarts than at Home."
"Maria. He will return to Hogwarts, today. The director will look after him there. We can't do anything, no matter how much we want to."
James could see his mother crying and how his father turned away from her rather than comforting her. Yeah, their marriage broke apart after that day 5 years ago. He was to blame that his parents couldn't be happy again. And James started to hate himself for causing his parents that much pain.
London/ Kings Cross station/ platform 9 ¾.
Maria and Michael Potter walked their son to the station and hugged him heartily goodbye. They still played the happy family. Nobody knew that the marriage of the Potters were already broken. Something James and his sister got use to live with on their own. James couldn't talked to anyone about it. They would never understand it. Nobody would. Not even his friends, not even Sirius. Even though he spent the whole Summer after fifth grade at his home. They helped him to find his own place, but even he didn't notice that his parents were just acting. He thought that the Potters were the perfect family as well.
James boarded the train and searched for an empty compartment to sit down. While doing that, he passed a lot of students he knew and who indicated him to join them, but he refused politely and went his way. He found an empty compartment near the end of the train, stowed his trunk away and let himself fell into a seat. He looked to the station just in the right moment to watch his parents leaving side by side. For him they looked like strangers, who didn't had anything to say to each other anymore. He missed the days, where it was different. That day 5 years ago destroyed everything. Voldemort destroyed his life and he allowed him to do that.
"Prongsiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie!" crowed Sirius with such a high voice, James had to close his eyes to endure that nasty sound. "Do you always have to hole up at the last compartment, you cutie pie!" And his voice changed into that of a very sweet girl. He sat down next to his best friend and gave him a high five. Then Remus and Peter entered the compartment, also greeted him by shaking hands and sat down in front of the other two Marauders.
"Where did you left Anna?" James asked Sirius, who made himself comfortable by taking three seats for himself and laid there like a King in his castle.
"Hanging with Alice, Evans and that pretty boy Shaklebolt."
"Did I miss something?" He asked puzzled.
"Padfoot and Anna broke up yesterday," Remus answered, shrugging before he took out a book to read. James gave his best friend a confused look, who didn't take any notice of that and started to whistle at the ceiling.
"What have you done to her this time, Padfoot? You just got together 2 month ago?"
"I didn't do anything!" Sirius protested, looking hurt. "Why everyone thinks, that I did something?"
Nobody of them really gave an answer, but it was obvious for everyone. It was always Sirius, who broke up with a girl.
"Hey, we both did that, okay?" He defended himself, looking cool. He actually seemed not to care a lot about the break up, but James knew his best friend better. He was a terrible actor if it concerned Anna White. Sirius was never able to hide his true intentions towards him.
"We decided to stay good friends. The whole stress of such a tight relationship would be to much anyway. 2 month was long enough! It's a miracle, we even made it that long..."
"Hiiiiiiii!" called Melissa, who arrived alongside with several other students. Those were Anna, Alice, Frank, Lilli, Diana Ayenterro and Kingsley Shaklebolt. She jumped into the compartment, fight her way across Sirius legs and onto James lap to sit down. He hugged her longingly and they started to kiss passionately. It seemed they hardened in that position over hours and didn't even need to breath.
"Hello, Lilli. How were your holidays?" Remus started a conversation, so everyone could stop watching the couple and also because Lilli eyed those two more frustrated than thrilled.
"All right," she answered and gave him a friendly hug before sitting down next to him. Lilli and Remus were a couple for several weeks. After their break up they do manage to remain good friends and therefore were probably one of the few couples that friend-thing worked.
"Well, somehow it's too crowded in here," Alice smirked. "We go into the other compartment. There is still room there with Cat Jordan. I love her gossip!"
Alice dragged Frank with her away and Kingsley followed them by choice. Anna sat down on the seat next to Sirius. Only Diana was still standing, looking shy. She was, on the contrary to everyone else in that compartment, not a Gryffindor but a Rawenclaw, always more the conservative one and if she didn't walk along with Lilli, no one of them would probably even notice her at all.
"Damn it, Ayenterro. Do you have to play door stopper or could you do us a favour and close the door? It's draughty! The best thing would be if you close the door with you standing outside. Would really be grateful," Melissa said nasty. To say that, she even stopped kissing her boyfriend. Melissa Kingcade belonged to those girls, who loved to bully around the weak ones, just out of fun. Diana seemed to be puzzled and looked at Lilli for help.
"Diana, come here and sit down as well," she said smiling.
"Great! As if it's not crowded enough!" Kingcade said angry. This time looking venomous at Lilli.
"If you can sit here, I don't see any reason why she shouldn't sit here as well," she answered calmly.
"First come, first served! By the way, it would be great if you get lost, too!"
"Yeah, hearing that out of your mouth means the same as an chewing gum on the floor. Maybe the chewing gum would be even more interesting."
"Right back at you, Mudblood."
"Yeah, didn't hurt at all. It's obvious that your vocabulary isn't very large, consider your IQ is so low, even a monkey is smarter than you."
"Are you out of your mind, Evans?" This time, Anna had spoken instead of Kingcade, who apparently would have jumped into Lilli if Anna had not said anything. "Isn't it a little bit arrogant to think of yourself as smarter than others, just because you dislike them? Who said that you are smarter than a monkey, by the way?"
Anna White was like Melissa Kingcade the daughter of a very rich pureblood family. Something, which do made them think of themselves as something better. At least, that's what Lilli always thought. She attended school with them for now 6 years, but they never became friends or even slightly close. The only good thing, Lilli had ever heard of her was from Remus, which was, that she was a real asset as a friend.
"Please, sit down, Diana," Remus said friendly to calm the situation. Diana sat down next to Lilli, who pressed the others a little bit to the side, so her friend could sit down, but seven people in one compartment was just too much.
"Man!" Sirius protested, because he had to give away his other two seats. By giving them away, he kicked ruggedly against Anna's head, who looked toxic back at him.
"For crying out loud! Black!" she yelled bugged.
"Since when you've become a wimp, White?"
"You beat the crap out of me and I'm being a wimp?!"
"Beat the crap out of you? That could've been a friendly stroke!"
"Then I rather not be your friend, if one came out looking like just being with you in a Boxing-match."
"What happened to them?" ask Melissa confused, who didn't seem to be up to date either. She finally stopped kissing her boyfriend and just hugged him tenderly, while looking strangely at her two friends. Everyone thought of Melissa and James as a match made in heaven. James knew that better.
Lilli was the only one who notice James sad eyes. She didn't dare to talk to him, but his frustrated glare tore at her heart. "So, are you two acting now like our ugly Mudblood here? I thought you are together?"
Lilli felt again offended.
"Maybe, she noticed, what a blockhead Black is, though someone here obviously didn't notice that about you."
Lilli smiled nasty to Melissa, who smiled vicious and bitchy back. The rivalry between the two girls existed already for years but finally culminated now. The reason of their rivalry didn't know, that he was the reason. James Potter. Anna knew that James never noticed, that Lilli started to be interested in him as well, because if he would have noticed that, she was sure, he would have already broke up with Melissa after everything she've already done to him.
"And that coming from the geek of England! Remus was only with you because he pitied you. Oh, look, there is Evans, who no one wants. Let's be nice to her. So, he seems to draw the line, before it's got to ugly for him. Are you really that nerve-racking if even Remus can't take you anymore or just a hideous dork!?"
Lilli opened her mouth to say something but didn't know what. She noticed with discomfort, that Remus didn't said a thing, despite the fact that he was sitting right next to her. That everyone's eyes laid on her, didn't really help much to ease her anger. She snorted when realizing that nobody seemed to want her here. Not even James, who also haven't said anything.
"Excuse me! As Head Girl,-" she glared furiously at Melissa. "- I don't have to listen to this!" She immediately stood up, opened the door and shut it close behind her. Diana hesitated just a second before she also stood up to follow her friend.
"See you, Remus," she said softly, before closing the door behind her.
"That was not nice," said Remus, causing Anna to role her eyes. So, that was Remus angry way of yelling at somebody for insulting his still good friend. How scary...
"James?" Anna asked after some time.
"Hm?" He asked not really interested, his lips were again busy kissing his girlfriend.
"Aren't you Head Boy?"
"Yes?"
"Shouldn't you be with the prefects and guide them in? I only mention that now, because... Lissy and Remus are prefects this year and should attend the meeting as well."
"Oh."
"Oh!"
"Oh!"
In an instant all three were storming outside. As crowded as the compartment was a moment ago, now they had enough space for themselves.
Peter sat anxiously there, looking between Anna and Sirius in turn. His puzzled expression said everything. The tension between Sirius and Anna just couldn't be ignored.
"Wormtail, could you buckle away for some time?" Sirius asked his friend, but looked at her.
"Um, where should I go?" he asked insecurely, which immediately upset Sirius.
"Go eat something or to the bathroom. Just buckle away!"
Peter didn't hesitate to jump to his feed and ran away faster than a rat would have done.
"Well, well," he started slobbery. "Seems we are alone, now."
"What a miracle," commented she sarcastically, looking back at him with the same telling expression he did. Their meaning might differed though.
"What's going on between you and Shaklebolt?"
"Something very big. I think it's called friendship, dork!"
"Everybody, whose brain is bigger than a jelly bean would see that he wants more from you, blindworm."
"Everybody, whose gaze wander higher than the boobs, would have seen that I told him already very clear that I'm not interested and that it will always just be a friendship, you brainsick dumb-ass. And you didn't have any right to tell me about whom I date and whom not since the break up is your fault."
"Whaaaaaaaaat?" he squealed. "You broke up with me!"
"Because you flirted with that six year slut."
"I only gave her private lessons."
"We had holidays!"
"She just needed help in Transfiguration."
"She just needed help in Transfiguration," she imitated him extremely ridiculously. "Erin Goyle is the best in her class in Transfiguration, Sirius!"
"Let me guess! Know-it-all-Evans told you that?"
"Dumbledore, stop that!" she said seriously. "No, I know Erin Goyle. You chauvinist."
"Whaaaaaaaaat?" he squealed again. "What was wrong with that?"
"You can't explain yourself even once without insulting someone else."
"WRONG! I only insulted smart-arse Evans and I have every reason to do that after I got how many troubles thanks to her?"
"Again! Dumbledore, I don't like Evans myself but I didn't insult her all the time just because of that and by the way, you deserved at least half of the troubles."
"Oh, come on. She's just a nerd without any charisma. Moony was just with her because -"
"He didn't pity her! He loved her," she said gentle.
"How can he love that running dwarf?"
"Damn it, Dumbledore," she cursed again, starting to wave with her hands to gesticulate how mad he made her.
"See? One Insult after another. Have you ever ask Remus why he dated her? Or why they even broke up? I have and I know that he really loved her."
"Of course," he said amusingly. "Next moment, you are telling me that Ayenterro is truly a chatterbox, who just have a dropout every now and then."
"You are really the most cocky, bossy, selfish -"
An extreme fat and blond, but very arrogant Slytherin student opened the door just in that moment and searched the whole compartment with his eyes. His eyes wandered across the two, then to the right, again to the both of them, then to the left, into the corner, across of both of them again, to the ceiling, stop, back down to them and stayed there.
"Where is Melissa?" he asked stupidly.
"She is a prefect. Think, Goyle. Where would someone in this position would be at this time?" she spat at him, angry about being disturbed while she do had a run in describing her ex-boyfriend.
"..." Goyle seemed to be thinking very hard. They just keept on looking at him to finally get an idea.
"But... She wasn't in the bathroom?"
"Dumbledore! She is in the compartment with all the other prefects, the Head Girl and the Head Boy!"
"Ah, okay," he bawled. "You could've just said that."
And he slammed the door shut faster than any of them would have thought. Sirius turned again towards Anna and smiled at her with full of expectations.
"What?" she asked suspicious.
"We stopped at selfish?"
"What are you playing at? You really want me to find hundred other nasty words to describe you?"
"I can take it. Or do you want to stare silently holes into the air?"
"Sirius," Anna finally said tired. "This is going to be a very long year, if we continue to nag on each other like that."
"Didn't started it."
"All right." It was obvious that he would love to continue like this. Sirius talent to have notorious Neanderthal conversations were just unbeatable. "Proposal: We start again as good friends as we were before. The past 2 month just never happened. Okay?"
He seemed to think about that very thoroughly, then made a grimace and finally smirked broadly.
"All right. It's a deal! Good friends. I like that more, anyway."
"Yeah, me too."
And in the end both of them leaned back against the seat and relaxed.
"I really didn't understand, how you can hang around such a annoying pain in the ass."
"Sirius!"
"Sorry! Hang around such an annoying chick."
"Call her Lilli or at least Evans."
"All right, Evans."
"Well, Alice seems to like her a lot and I like Alice a lot. It's not that easy. It's not like we're hanging around all the time and it surely didn't mean that I didn't like her. I didn't really know her."
"You insulted her earlier?"
"I defended Melissa, that's different. She is my friend and if Evans attack her, I have the right to defend her."
"Yeah, right," Sirius said in a know-it-all manner. "Admit it, White. We are both alike, but I didn't need a false reason to justify myself."
She narrowed her eyes nastily.
"Do me a favour, Black and apparate to the other end of the train!"
"That would torture you!"
"Dumbledore, you know that you are extreme big-headed?"
"You are cursing with your great-grandfather name. You do realise that, don't you?"
"Merlin was the biggest wizard of our time and you use his name to curse all the time. As long as I'm not cursing with Oh, Voldemort, there is no reason to put me into St. Mungo."
So, the train ride continued and they both carried on talking about nonsense till their friends came back.
"That was such a torment!" Kingcade said bugged. "Evans have lost her wand, if you ask me. She acts like she is the boss or something."
"Well, she is in a way. She is Head Girl," Remus said calmingly.
"So what? It's just a transcription for teachers pet. I wonder why Dumbledore didn't name you Head Girl, Anna. You are his -"
"Great-Granddaughter? So what?" she answered and faintly smiled.
"You know him and his exaggerative sense of justice. What should the others think if he favoured his own family? I didn't want to be that anyway. In that position, you magically draw trouble which is probably the reason he chose James."
"Huehn?" he made surprised and when he finally understood her words, he just narrowed his eyes and blinked at her offended. "Ha-Ha, very funny. Drop it!"
Anna just smirked boldly back. Even so she was James best friend, she was still a closed book to him. Everybody knew that she was the last offspring of the Dumbledore family, but she never acted like anybody wanted her to. She neither fulfilled the expectations of Dumbledore or any other teacher or even her own friends. In school she was considered as difficult to handle and not really a nice person. James was probably the only one, who really was very close to Anna due to the fact that they shared some secrets only with each other. This maybe also a reason why Melissa set value on her friendship with Anna, who knew about that value she held by being close friends with James and the other Marauders. But deep in her heart, Anna wished something else for herself. She wished to have a life like her friends, which seemed to be so much easier than her own life.
Lilli sat several compartments further, starring towards the forest outside the window. The more they came towards Hogwarts, the more they hid behind the mountain group. With her in the compartment were Diana and several other Rawenclaws. Lilli wasn't very close to the other Rawenclaws. Actually, she wasn't very close to anyone in Hogwarts or at home. She wasn't close to anyone. The truth was that Lilli felt so much loneliness she never expected she could really be able to feel.
"Are you all right, Lilli?" Diana asked worried. She turned to her and nodded depressed.
"Of course," she answered, but deep in her heart she was not all right at all. This year would be hard for her. That was what she thought. Very hard.
"Lilli?"
"Hm?"
"Because of James and Anna -"
"I don't want to talk about it, Diana. You know that and there is nothing left to say, okay?"
"Okay, if you say so."
With that the journey continued towards Hogwarts without them saying anything more.