A Song Of Frost and Iron Chapter 1: You Found Me, an avengers fanfic

A/N: Not sure what I made here, but the song made me think of FrostIron and brotherly Loki/Thor.

Might write a series of song drabbles if there's a positive response to this one.

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You Found Me

Loki was walking through New York in a daze, letting the rain tug his long black hair across his face. He had no plan; he was just walking, alone, thinking about his life now.

He reached the corner of 1st Street and 2nd Avenue when he spotted Thor. He vaguely recognised his location: The place the Avengers had gotten their shit together and fought back against him, winning the war in the process.

The god was standing under a narrow ledge with Jane, sheltering from the rain as Jane smoked a cigarette. The woman had vowed to break the habit, said that fag would be her last, though Darcy hadn't believed her.

Thor shouted as he recognised his brother, calling him over, and Jane kissed her boyfriend on the cheek and left the two estranged brothers to talk.

"Where have you been?" Thor said. "Anthony has been asking after you."

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".

-O.O-

The first time Loki had sat down and actually spoken to his brother since Thor's banishment, he'd been back on Asgard and he couldn't control his anger. Thor sat there and took it; everyone had said Loki would be angry, would shout and say horrible things, and that he needed to vent to move past his anger.

"Where were you!?" Loki screamed through tears. "When everything was falling apart, where were you? I hoped you'd return to Asgard and help me! I could not handle what was happening, not without you, and all I needed was you to tell me all would become well, but that never happened! That never came!"

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

-O.O-

Tony was the person who found him. Loki had somehow gone Jӧtunn in his sleep, product of a nightmare about his terrible home planet. He couldn't change back in the cool autumn evening; he'd stumbled to the living room, unable to cry because Jӧtunn physically can't.

Loki had surrounded himself with thick blankets and rugs in an attempt to warm himself up, lying on the floor, feeling a little desperate.

He heard shuffling footsteps and buried his face deeper in an attempt to hide his azure visage.

Loki was expecting Thor's voice: He'd be the only one brave enough to speak to an obviously closed-off Loki. Instead he heard Stark's careful tones, asking him if he was alright.

When Loki didn't reply, Tony just sat next to him and talked at him until Loki finally replied and lifted his head.

Tony gasped in surprise when he saw Loki's face, but it wasn't the horror that Loki had expected, that he would receive from any sensible being. In its place was wonderment; Tony was fascinated by this new thing. He reached forward with rough and calloused hand to touch Loki's Jӧtunn face. His warmth bled into Loki and turned him back to Aesir.

Tony was just a little late to stop the transformation to monster, but he was perfectly timed to bring Loki back.

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

-O.O-

"I have been walking." Loki said simply to his adopted brother.

"What happened between you and Anthony? He seemed most upset." Thor said concernedly.

"We had a fight. I left. Little more is there to be said." Behind the calm facade, Loki was hurting with every word. Tony was the only one who actually knew exactly what it was like to need to lie all the time, to forgo sleeping if it meant you staved off the nightmares of your torture. Tony had woken up and seen the monster in the mirror just as Loki had; Tony had sat there and listened to every hurt in Loki's life.

But Loki had known it would never last. In the end, everyone ends up alone. He'd just not known when he'd lose Tony.

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

-O.O-

Later, another sleepless night, and Loki had removed himself from Tony's bed to avoid waking him, making his way to the training room downstairs to work away his terror.

But as Loki sunk knife after knife into the Hawk's precious training simulator, Tony appeared anyway, looking concerned.

Neither of them said a word.

Loki hadn't realised how much he needed Tony right then. He was lost, and insecure, and having Tony find him made him feel that much better.

-O.O-

"I am sure he wishes to makes amends, Loki. He sounded most distressed." Thor said soothingly.

Loki just stood there, lost in his thoughts, as the rain broke and the city came back to life.

After a while of Loki being distant and Thor trying to figure out if his brother had taken a hit to the head, someone called from the distance.

"Loki! Bambi! I found you! I've been calling you – you didn't leave me a message or anything!" Tony looked panicked and exhausted, like he'd run the distance from Stark Tower.

Loki tried not to smile on seeing Tony, tried to look disinterested – they were having a fight, right? "Why would I?"

Tony stopped in front of Loki, hurt and tired, but beneath so wholly affectionate that Loki could already forgive him. "Don't do that again, please. I need you; you can't leave and take all I have."

"You don't need me." Loki said quietly, bitterly.

"Oh gods, don't you ever think that. I'm so sorry I said that, it's not true." Tony pleaded. Thor slipped away, having apparently fulfilled his purpose of keeping Loki in one place until his paramour could arrive. "I need you just as much as you need me, maybe more."

Loki dropped his cold and haughty disguise, pulling Tony into a hug and burying his face in the inventor's shoulder despite the height difference.

Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all I want

-O.O-

Tony took Loki back to Stark Tower, apologising every few minutes and trying to make Loki feel better.

All Loki really thought about was that Tony hadn't waited; he'd dived out into the rain and hunted Loki down, trying to find him.

"It is okay, Tony." Loki murmured soothingly to him, after the umpteenth apology. "You found me, and that is what matters."

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me