Mamo-chan.

My heart has disobeyed me ignored the commands I desire. Casually falling away from you my love to find shelter in the lust of another. Oh yes how I have been betrayed.

I wanted only to forever belong in your embrace to swiftly die among your soul. To only ever bring you joy and contention.

Yet here I am confused and cautious fearful of this impending doom and my inevitable breaking of your heart.

I am not sure if my heart is true this time. I could be leaving the fruitful grasp of your paradise for the baron cold of the planes.

But oh how it feels so right. The words, the kindness the illusion painted before me is too much to ignore and in truth I fear I couldn't even if I wanted to.

It happened by accident I assure you, never once did I plan to falter. Never once did I look for another, hoping to find refuge in their arms.

No this was unplanned and unexpected. Arms held me, consoled me, comforted me when you were lost and in that I found solace and safety.

The string of fate had us bound my love, but that string has been severed and a new knot tied in the love and arms of the fresh.

Our future however it was painted is now a new shade on a different canvass. How this will change the events in Crystal Tokyo I am unaware,

I know only that my happiness now means more to me then the future of a world I can not know.

The idea of a world without our darling Chibi-usa although sad and disturbing is only a minor ripple in the joy that I feel.

And I realize how that sounds, I'm not naive enough to believe I sound noble and true. Hardly, I sound hateful and selfish, greedy and in truth, horrible.

I know this my love but it is the truth, it is how I feel and to love you, to build that life is a lie I can not live.

So I am setting you free, soar among the angels for you are one. Leave knowing that with my soul I did love you, and with that soul I lost you too.

Know that in your absence I am cared for and that when the time is right you too will find your true love. I know now I am not she.

With a heavy heart and an open mind,

Usagi.