Title: Nothing In The World (Part One)
Author: Daughter Of Night
Summary: Extremely Angsty Kurt pining for Kitty
Warnings: EXTREMELY Angsty. 'Nuff said, or I'll ruin it. . .
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Sometimes I can't stand it. Sometimes it chokes me, makes it hard to breathe. Sometimes I wish it would finish the job. Sure, I joke about it, but it's just a facade. A cover-up. The truth is, I'm in love with her.
Sometimes I want to touch her so bad it makes me crazy!
But I can't. So I watch her. Like now. She doesn't know I'm watching. She's laying on her bed, listening to her radio. She's on her stomach, reading something - a magazine probably - and her feet are swinging through the air. God, I love her.
Desperate for changing.
Starving for Truth.
I'm closer to where I started.
Oh, chasing after you.
I hear those words coming from her radio and I'm strangely interested. It doesn't sound like anything I'd normally listen to, but it sways me. Those words make sense to me; it's how I feel, desperate, helpless.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
Jesus. How could there be a song that described how I felt? Exactly how I felt. I can't help it! I love her. Falling would be the right word for it. It's like you're surrounded by darkness, being sucked into a bottomless hole. The black presses in on you, suffocating you. But it doesn't end. You just keep going.
Forgetting all I'm lacking.
Completely incomplete.
I'll take your invitation.
You take all of me.
She could. She could have all of me. Anything she wanted, I'd give it to her. But she doesn't want me. Never me, because she could never forget what I lack: normality. Sure, we're all mutants, but I can't even pull off human. Not without that watch. I looked down at it and turned it off.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
I'm living for the only think I know.
I'm running and I question where to go.
And I don't know what I'm tapping into.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
And again I am falling. She's there. She can pull me up. But she doesn't see me. Not like I see her, anyway. I'm waiting for her to open her eyes. I'm hanging on, just for her. But she doesn't know it. She doesn't see me, and she doesn't want to.
There's nothing else to lose.
There's nothing else to find.
There's nothing in the world.
That can change my mind.
There was nothing else.
There was nothing else.
There was nothing else.
I'm beyond caring about my dignity, my pride. I've already asked her out three times. She'd said no. Three times. I know I'll continue to ask her. If it sounds desperate, it is. I am. I don't know what else to do. But I won't change my mind. I love her, and that's all.
Desperate for changing.
Starving for Truth.
I'm closer to where I started.
Oh, chasing after you.
She's getting up now. I know I should go before she sees me, but I can't. I can't move, can't breathe. And I want to hear the end of the song.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
Jesus. How could there be a song that described how I felt? Exactly how I felt. I can't help it! I love her. Falling would be the right word for it. It's like you're surrounded by darkness, being sucked into a bottomless hole. The black presses in on you, suffocating you. But it doesn't end. You just keep going.
Forgetting all I'm lacking.
Completely incomplete.
I'll take your invitation.
You take all of me.
She could. She could have all of me. Anything she wanted, I'd give it to her. But she doesn't want me. Never me, because she could never forget what I lack: normality. Sure, we're all mutants, but I can't even pull off human. Not without that watch. I looked down at it and turned it off.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
I'm living for the only think I know.
I'm running and I question where to go.
And I don't know what I'm tapping into.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
She sees me. I guess she wasn't expecting it, because she jumped.
Just hangin' by a moment.
She looks into my eyes. Her eyes are so sad, searching mine.
Hangin' by a moment.
Her look must mirror mine. We both pity me. She must pity me. Poor Kurt. I love her so much.
Hangin' by a moment.
She opens her mouth. She's going to say something, but doesn't. She lowers her head and walks past me.
Hangin' by a moment here with you.
Author: Daughter Of Night
Summary: Extremely Angsty Kurt pining for Kitty
Warnings: EXTREMELY Angsty. 'Nuff said, or I'll ruin it. . .
~
Sometimes I can't stand it. Sometimes it chokes me, makes it hard to breathe. Sometimes I wish it would finish the job. Sure, I joke about it, but it's just a facade. A cover-up. The truth is, I'm in love with her.
Sometimes I want to touch her so bad it makes me crazy!
But I can't. So I watch her. Like now. She doesn't know I'm watching. She's laying on her bed, listening to her radio. She's on her stomach, reading something - a magazine probably - and her feet are swinging through the air. God, I love her.
Desperate for changing.
Starving for Truth.
I'm closer to where I started.
Oh, chasing after you.
I hear those words coming from her radio and I'm strangely interested. It doesn't sound like anything I'd normally listen to, but it sways me. Those words make sense to me; it's how I feel, desperate, helpless.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
Jesus. How could there be a song that described how I felt? Exactly how I felt. I can't help it! I love her. Falling would be the right word for it. It's like you're surrounded by darkness, being sucked into a bottomless hole. The black presses in on you, suffocating you. But it doesn't end. You just keep going.
Forgetting all I'm lacking.
Completely incomplete.
I'll take your invitation.
You take all of me.
She could. She could have all of me. Anything she wanted, I'd give it to her. But she doesn't want me. Never me, because she could never forget what I lack: normality. Sure, we're all mutants, but I can't even pull off human. Not without that watch. I looked down at it and turned it off.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
I'm living for the only think I know.
I'm running and I question where to go.
And I don't know what I'm tapping into.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
And again I am falling. She's there. She can pull me up. But she doesn't see me. Not like I see her, anyway. I'm waiting for her to open her eyes. I'm hanging on, just for her. But she doesn't know it. She doesn't see me, and she doesn't want to.
There's nothing else to lose.
There's nothing else to find.
There's nothing in the world.
That can change my mind.
There was nothing else.
There was nothing else.
There was nothing else.
I'm beyond caring about my dignity, my pride. I've already asked her out three times. She'd said no. Three times. I know I'll continue to ask her. If it sounds desperate, it is. I am. I don't know what else to do. But I won't change my mind. I love her, and that's all.
Desperate for changing.
Starving for Truth.
I'm closer to where I started.
Oh, chasing after you.
She's getting up now. I know I should go before she sees me, but I can't. I can't move, can't breathe. And I want to hear the end of the song.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
Jesus. How could there be a song that described how I felt? Exactly how I felt. I can't help it! I love her. Falling would be the right word for it. It's like you're surrounded by darkness, being sucked into a bottomless hole. The black presses in on you, suffocating you. But it doesn't end. You just keep going.
Forgetting all I'm lacking.
Completely incomplete.
I'll take your invitation.
You take all of me.
She could. She could have all of me. Anything she wanted, I'd give it to her. But she doesn't want me. Never me, because she could never forget what I lack: normality. Sure, we're all mutants, but I can't even pull off human. Not without that watch. I looked down at it and turned it off.
I'm falling even more in love with you.
Letting go of all I've held onto.
I'm standing here until you make me move.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
I'm living for the only think I know.
I'm running and I question where to go.
And I don't know what I'm tapping into.
Just hangin' by a moment here with you.
She sees me. I guess she wasn't expecting it, because she jumped.
Just hangin' by a moment.
She looks into my eyes. Her eyes are so sad, searching mine.
Hangin' by a moment.
Her look must mirror mine. We both pity me. She must pity me. Poor Kurt. I love her so much.
Hangin' by a moment.
She opens her mouth. She's going to say something, but doesn't. She lowers her head and walks past me.
Hangin' by a moment here with you.