Story Notes: What if things had gone different during New Moon. Bella finds herself pregnant after Edward leaves in New Moon. A story I thought of and couldn´t rid myself of.
Rating: MA Does contain a mild lemon.
Enjoy!
A New Beginning
Chapter 1
I woke up to the cheery sound of my cell phone. I quickly got up from my bed and of course stubbed my toe on a chair on the way to the bathroom. ¨Ouch! Must I always injure myself before even going to school? ¨ Oh well, I should get used to the fact that hurting myself on a daily basis is part of my routine.
As I got dressed and ready for school I kept thinking about how much my life had changed in the past two months. Talk about a change. I no longer cared about living life; I simply went about my days trying urgently to survive them.
I stopped caring about the simple things that I loved before him. I couldn´t read anymore. Every book seemed to remind me about him. I endured cooking because of Charlie but that was it. I sat at the table with him and nibbled on my food but a rag doll would have been better company. I felt horrible for Charlie. He had to put up with my half living for eight weeks.
I had been trying to fool Charlie into thinking that I was doing better but of course my demeanor couldn´t fool anybody, especially him.
¨ I can do this, I can do this, I can do this¨ I continued my mantra as I ate a cold pop tart and a glass of milk before hurrying outside and to my truck. Even something as simple as driving to school was anguish. Don´t get me wrong, I loved my truck but I did not want anything to do with anything that constantly reminded me of him.
When I arrived at school the parking lot was almost full. Well, at least I wasn´t late again to first period. Most mornings I arrived early just so the other kids didn´t get to stare at me and make fun of me.
That first week, after the Cullen's disappeared the teachers had been very understanding with me. Some teachers even let me have some extra days to turn in assignments, of course that wasn´t necessary. I needed all the work I could get. I needed to keep my brain busy so I wouldn´t start thinking about them, so I wouldn´t start reliving all my moments with them, and especially with him.
I quickly walked down the hall when Angela caught up to me. ¨Hey Bella, How are you feeling today? ¨
¨ Do I look that bad.¨ I quickly answered her. I knew I did but at least I didn´t have my shirt on backwards again. I didn´t think I looked that bad this morning considering my last two months.
¨You look so tired, are you sure you don´t have the flu or something. You know I was down with it last week and I thought I´d never get over it.¨ She continued telling me while we walked to our lockers and to our first period English class.
Talking with Angela was always easy. She was a great person to be around. She made these two months a lot more bearable.
All my morning classes progressed in the same slow, tedious way they had for the last two months now. By the time lunch came around I was ready to have some time to myself for moping and overall clearing of my emotions so that I could make it through the rest of my pitiful day.
Of course Angela had other ideas. She was waiting for me in the south hall almost at the entrance to the cafeteria. ¨Ready Bella, let´s get some lunch. Eric is saving us a seat already.¨
¨Sure Angela, I´m not that hungry, but I´ll have some fruit.¨ I was just saying this when this horrible smell hit me hard. It smelled like something rancid. The smell didn´t just stay in my nose though. It made my stomach flip and I knew for fact that if I didn´t run out of there fast enough I was going to throw up.
I quickly turned on my heels and ran for it. Of course I caught my toe of my boot on something, but fortunately I didn´t fall on my face. As I hurried down the hall Angela caught up to me and kept to my side all the way to the bathroom.
After throwing up what seemed like an obscene amount of everything I felt instant relief. Angela stayed by my side quietly with a look of worry on her face while I rinsed my mouth and splashed water on my face and neck.
¨Are you okay Bella, I´m telling you I think you´re sick. I mean look at you. I know you´ve always been pale but wow you look like snow white. Should I call your dad? ¨She was looking at me with a worried expression that I couldn´t quite understand.
¨No, Angela let´s not worry him just yet. Let me just see the nurse. I bet she just gives me a ginger ale and sends me to my next class.¨ I tried to reassure her that I was feeling better. Of course she was one not be fooled. ¨Okay, I guess. Let me walk you there though. Angela politely told me while we walked out of the bathroom.
¨Well I guess I´ll see you in P.E.¨ She didn´t look convinced that everything was okay with me but she smiled at me sweetly anyway and walked away to the cafeteria.
I quickly walked into the nurse's office.
The nurse sitting at her desk behind a pile of folders widened her eyes as she surveyed my physical appearance.
¨Hello Bella, what´s wrong? ¨
¨I don´t know.¨ I answered in a low voice. ¨I suddenly felt nauseous.¨
¨Have you felt this way before? ¨ the nurse asked in a worried tone.
¨No¨, I quickly answered her even though I knew I was lying. It suddenly seemed like this whole week my stomach had been feeling really bad. I could hardly keep anything down.
¨Well lay down for a bit while I grab you a ginger ale and you answer some questions for me.¨
She handed me a ginger ale and sat in a chair next to me. I sat up in order to take little sips of it. It was cold and felt great going down my throat. Amazingly it settled my stomach quickly and I felt better in a matter of minutes.
¨Well Bella, I know this might be an awkward question but is there any possibility whatsoever that you might be pregnant? ¨The nurse's question startled me. For a moment I didn´t know what to say.
¨Yes¨, I finally answered after what seemed an eternity. ¨I guess there is a possibility.¨ I stammered.
¨Would you like to take a test? It will only take a few minutes and it´s totally confidential you know.¨ the nurse stood up while she addressed me as politely as possible.
¨Sure, I mean I guess I should.¨ I started to stand up when the nurse handed me a plastic see through cup. The cup had a line marked on it.
¨The bathroom is right there¨, she pointed to a door with blue letters reading restroom. ¨You need to pee up to the line, okay.¨
¨Okay¨ I quickly answered as I entered the restroom.¨ I came out two minutes later with the cup in my hands. She took it from me and set it on the counter next to her desk.
¨Here¨ she said as she put a white stick into the cup. ¨This will take about three minutes okay. Sit down and relax. All there is left to do is wait¨ she added with a smile.
The next three minutes were the longest of my life. Everything suddenly came crashing down on me. What was I going to do? Please let this be one of my nightmares. I mean what can an eighteen year old senior do with a baby. ¨A baby, ¨ I didn´t know I had actually said the last out loud.
¨Yes, hun a baby, you are going to have a baby.¨ She was holding the stick in her hand, right in front of me. I could clearly see the two pink lines on the stick.
¨Thank you.¨ I smiled at the nurse and walked out. I headed to my truck. I needed to think about everything. I was clearly not up to finishing the rest of the day at school. I needed to think about this whole situation. I needed to think about this baby, about Edwards's baby.