AN: Okay, so this is going to be Barson/Rollaro fanfiction, I hope you love it! It might seem more Barson heavy at first, but I can ensure that it will even out later on.

She searched for the soft sheet, it looked even whiter with the contrast of her soft tan skin. As she covered up, she began to bite her lip, she turned over to check on Rafael. His bare chest in the air, heart and chest still moving fast. A smile formed on Olivia's lips. She caressed his chest, and he opened his eyes in a glance. A stare she hated; his brown eyes piecing mad with violent green. "What's wrong?" she said as her voice grew hoarse and she attempted to place her head upon his chest. Rafael moved. His vibe pushing her to the side. Confused but understanding at the same time, she made her way back to the side of the bed which she borrowed. "Are you going to say anything?" Her back was to him, and so was part of her arse. Silence was his only answer. It bothered her a lot, the emptiness he displayed around her after having sex. It did not compare with his livelihood in the courtroom. A soft grumble, and her eyes were all over him. "What is it? What's wrong?... Are you not going to answer?" she asked in a bothered tone.

"Just go to sleep…" he said in a dread. His eyes rolling, like usual. He patted her head a couple of times, but it only made the small fire in Olivia grow out of control. She smacked him right in the shoulder, regretting the instant in which she lost herself. He grabbed her from her shoulders, pinning her down. Everything happened so fast, yet time froze when Rafael's steaming eyes met Olivia's. "I'm sorry…" he whispered, not being able to look at her, the shame bit at him.

Her hand caressed his face tenderly, and his grip was gone from her shoulders. "I shouldn't have punched you, not with that much force." She stood up, bare, looking for her clothes, she left to the living room and picked them off the floor. She decided to change in the middle of the living room, avoiding Rafael. A small laugh escaped her body as she thought about Rafael's frame on top of hers, he "pinning" her down. The door to Rafael's room opened, he was in a robe, with both hands in his pockets.

"Liv, are you going to stay, or should I drive you home?" he said inches from her face.

A mocking laugh, "I think you know better than to ask me that question. Of course I'm not going to stay. Lucy needs sleep…and" she withheld herself from saving more. "I'll call a cab." A simple nod was all she got from Rafael, how disappointing it was to her. Consciously she wanted him to ask her to stay, or beg her to take her home. Yet, he was letting go so easy. For a second, Olivia thought that maybe it was what happened in his bed, but then a dark and foggy thought made it clear that they were nothing, and it was because they were nothing, that he let her go.

The door was about to close, when something pushed Olivia to ask a question, which led to an answer that she did not want to hear, more so her heart. "Do you ever think of us as more than this? You and I without the sex, do you ever just think of me?" Rafael's jaw dropped, and no words made their way to Olivia's ears. It was that penetrating silence that she was so sick about, all she wanted was answers.

"Olivia, this isn't what we agreed upon. It be best if we talked about this later. You should just go." He began to close the door, but her foot stopped him. "What now!"

That didn't answer her question, but it hurt more than if he were to say that he didn't love her, that he had no feelings for her, or that he just liked screwing her. A tear began to form, somehow she gathered enough strength to say goodnight Rafael, but she was cut off by him slamming the door.

On both sides of the door there was pain, one filled with tears and the other with anger. Rafael's was set loose. His house was proof: a vase scattered on the floor, flowers randomly decorating the room, and water spilled on the delicate rug that would surely leave a stain. He hated himself, because he hurt her, made her feel used, and he played with her broken pieces. He swore he would never mess or play with them, because he knew she had suffered too much, too much suffer from too many people. Yet, he did not decline the invitation for there to be something more, instead he helped her built sandcastles in the air, only to see them fall apart. He thought of himself as a monster, but the thought of William Lewis popped up, and the old guilt was brought on top of his chest just like everything else. Rafael's hands went up to his face, "I'm worse than Lewis!"

Olivia felt a bit hollow, but seeing that face of her small tiny child almost seemed to fill her up. The night was restless, regret filled her body, and she should have asked those questions. Turning around, searching for the perfect spot to find sleep, but instead she found more tears. "Why am I so stupid?" she let out in a cry.

Early in the morning, minutes before her alarm clock rang, Olivia got a text in which Lucy, Noah's care giver, mentioned how she would not be able to take care of Noah due that she had a family emergency, and that she would let her know if she could take care of Noah the next day, as soon as she could. Olivia wanting to avoid looking for someone to take care of Noah, so she thought that it would be easiest just to take Noah to work, and so she did.

As soon as she stepped foot out of the elevator she noticed how everyone was taken by the small child in her arms, his eyes so alive and that tiny friendly smile of his. Amanda being there early like always was quick to take him from Olivia's arms. "I assume you won't be chasing anyone today, right Liv?" a smile appeared on both woman.

Olivia nodded, "Something around those lines…" Amanda began talking to Noah when Olivia interrupted their silly conversation, "Make sure everything is under control when you go talk to Jessica Laurillante's cousin. Keep the guys in their place, especially Nick."

Amanda's face became a bit red, "Umm Nick? Why Nick?"

"You know how he gets, just make sure he keeps his cool. I'm sorry I brought it up" Olivia said as she saw from the corner of her eye Nick and Carisi enter continuing their argument from yesterday. Both of them looked over and listened to their conversation. Nick looked up and saw Amanda was there with Noah in Amanda's arms dropped the topic with Carisi hovering over Olivia and Amanda with a smile on his face. His heart speed, seeing Amanda with the tiny child left his mind thinking what a beautiful mom she would make.

"Noah!" he approached Amanda squeezed Noah's cheeks not forgetting to mess up his hair.

"Gosh, Amaro, you know I comb his hair…" Olivia said with a grunt. Amanda noticed Noah stretching out for Nick, so she handed the child over to him. When their arms touched there was a slight pause, only detectable by them. They looked into each other's eyes and smiled.

After talking for a few minutes everyone left to their desks, the whole morning everyone was in and out, except Olivia and Noah. Nick and both Amanda were sitting, it had been a while since they started exchanging subtle glances. They only did this when they were the only ones there, and since Carisi was out with Fin, they couldn't help it. It had been a while since Nick was planning the perfect way to ask Amanda to get a cup of coffee. He was over thinking it, so he decided just to let it out "Want some coffee?"

"Yeah?" both of them got up, meeting at the table where the coffee was at, "Nick? Why don't we get a coffee across the street you know where they have the blue cups and…" she paused herself, thinking she was coming on too strong, "Well, you know I'm tired of Fin's Caribbean blend that he bought."

"Hahaha, Yeah," a smile sparked up in his face, "I'm pretty sure he just brought it over so he wouldn't have to throw it away." Amanda laughed really loud, feeling nervous, people turned their heads, and Nick smiled even wider. They grabbed their coats and they were on their way out. They spotted Barba as he climbed the stairs, and decided not stop and say hello, because a warm cup of coffee awaited them. Nick was glad he asked Amanda for a cup of coffee, it was always nice having her as company, even though they did have their moments. As they got out of the building he noticed how her deep blue eyes looked so beautiful in the sun. "Your eyes, their so blue." Amanda nodded not helping but to laugh.

He did not stop starring, "Stop!" she said feeling how much she was blushing, "Why are you looking at me like that?" she said acting freaked out.

"It's just they are so blue, are they supposed to be this blue?"

Amanda smiled, "Their eyes, just eyes." And they continued their path into the coffee shop disappearing behind the corner.

Once Rafael made it to his destination, after climbing a few flight of stairs, he noticed no one was there and Olivia's door was closed, he crept over to where the blinds were and took a peak, and there she was. He took a deep breath knocked on the door, with the hand in which his suitcase did not drag in. Hearing her voice welcoming him in, he opened the door. There he found Noah in Olivia's lap playing with what seemed to be toy cellphone and small pieces of pink baby food for snaking. Her face was buried into her work, she wrote something more and looked up. "Are you busy sergeant?"

Olivia took off her glasses, "No, not really, why?" she said in a cold voice.

"Ohh okay… How is the case going, any new evidence?" he asked trying to keep his cool.

"Everything is going fine, I was going to have Amanda and Nick send you everything we found regarding the rape… but since you're here you could ask them for it."

Rafael laughed, "Too bad they aren't here."

Noah gabbed Olivia's glasses and she smiled, "Little mister, what you got there?" Noah handed Olivia her glasses, "Glasses, thank you." And she kissed the top of his head.

Rafael was getting a little frustrated, so then said, "Your detectives aren't here…" in an upset tone.

"That's odd." Olivia stood up, feeling awkward because of the way Rafael was looking down at her. Noah rubbed his head on his mom's shoulder and laid a kiss there too. If Rafael hadn't parted the way they did he would have said something about what a great mom she is or how adorable the two of them are. Instead he swallowed his words, and nodded with a blank look on his face waiting for an answer. "You should come back later, I'm sure you will. Want to make that case, don't you? That's all you want; to make a case."

Rafael stuttered to make a comeback, something that was so unusual to him, "I- I," he said as he stepped closer to her, "you know that's not true." Olivia shook her head not believing him. Rafael grabbed Noah's hand, "Adiós campión…" and left without another word. [Translation of {Adiós campión…} is {Goodbye champion…}]

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AN2: OMG I seriously didn't realize how badly I messed up! Instead of Barson in the AN before I said Bensaro! That must have been so confusing! I'm really sorry by the way. I will post the next chapter sometime this week. I actually got into writing this weekend, I'm so excited to share what is next Don't forget to comment, I love hearing what you guys have to say!