Title:
Truth Discovered
Fandom: Pride and Prejudice
Pairing:
Darcy/Wickham
Rating: PG
Length: 371 words
Summary: After
reading P & P for what was like the 10th time (even though I love
the book) my slash brain refused to cooperate and I started to
question the whole Darcy/Wickham relationship - and this is the
result. It's really just a short bit of prose.
I have lied to so many in the past, concealed things to the point where I, myself, have forgotten that they have even existed. The truth haunts me, while deception has been my constant companion, my only solace.
But I cannot continue to live these lies any longer. Not when my world is crumbling at my feet and my heart is tearing at me. Not when I have finally come to realise what it is that I have been running from for so long, what I've been so determined to hide from -- is you.
I'm in love with you.
But now it is too late. For fate can be cruel in her ways, punishing me for my vehement denials. Because now I stand here beside you, but not with you, giving you away to another.
Even now, as I have discovered what you truly mean to me -- I have already lost you forever. And all I can do is stand here and watch as it happens, pretending not to be affected by this, by you -- even as I am dying slowly inside.
And yet, surprisingly you remain unaware of this. You believe I despise you, that I am jealous of your easy manner and your ever-ready smiles. But that is simply not the case.
I would give every last thing that I possess to have you look at me the way you are looking at her, to have you say those words to me as we lie in each other's arms, to have you feel for me what I cannot help but feel for you.
But now it can never happen and it makes me want to hear my screams of despair echo throughout the halls of this empty church. To have your name on my lips as I cease to live when my heart finally shatters from the pain of never telling you the truth.
I love you.