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My immortal
I'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave

"Kei… stop… Kei… … Toshi… … please…nngh!" Sho sat up on the sofa, gasping for air. 'Just that damn dream again,' he thought as he placed one hand on his forehead. He glanced around, feeling as though he wasn't where he should be, and realized he had fallen asleep on the couch.

It was almost a month after Toshi's death, but that day was still fresh in Sho's mind. Every night he'd have the same nightmare, being forced to relive that dreaded moment. Every night he awoke with the image of Kei feeding stuck in his tortured mind.

Kei…

Kei never returned home the night of Toshi's death, nor any time after. He had left Sho behind with nothing but questions from Son and an annoying, repetitive "I-told-you-so" from Shinji. He hated Kei for leaving him…

I wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

No. He wanted to hate Kei, but he couldn't bring himself to. He was angry with Kei, sure, but he could never hate him. He could never hate the person he loved more than life itself. Literally. He knew inside that he would gladly give up his humanity to stay with Kei for eternity. And now, more than anything, he missed the vampire. He and Son had searched all over Mallepa for Kei, but all their attempts came up futile. Sho felt like he'd die if Kei didn't ever come back.

"I need a shower." Sho thought out loud, sighing as he stood up. He stretched out a little, surprised and scared half to death when a knock came to the door. Sho looked at the clock; it read '2:04AM'.

"Who the hell goes around knocking on people's doors at two in the morning!" Sho mumbled. Making sure his guns were in reach, he hesitantly opened the door. Half-expecting it to be his mind playing tricks on him, it took Sho a few seconds to recognize the person who was standing on his doorstep. When he finally realized who it was, his eyes must have been in perfect circles.

These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

"Kei…" It was Kei. It really was Kei. He looked terrible; his clothes were dirty, so was he. His hair hung around his face in a tangled mass, and he looked thinner than Sho had ever seen him, but Kei was still standing there in front of Sho. Kei was there. Kei was back.

And Sho wasn't about to let him go.

He pulled Kei inside by his shoulders, sinking to his knees and bringing Kei with him. There was no struggle or resistance from Kei when Sho wrapped one arm around his shoulders and held Kei's head to his chest with the other, holding onto him like a frantic parent would hold their crying child. Kei was too happy to resist Sho now. Sho didn't hate him, and that's all that mattered to him then.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

"Hey Sho…" Kei's voice was barely above a whisper.

"Kei…you—you're back! But where—Why—" Sho couldn't find the right words to voice his thoughts.

"Baka." Kei grumbled against Sho's chest. Sho was still holding him, and ignored his comment.

Regaining his ability to speak in complete sentences, Sho asked, "Where were you, Kei? I mean, I looked for you… for over a week… where did you go?" Kei sighed and tried to stand up. This action failed, though, due to Sho merely tightening his grasp on his small friend. This let Sho know that Kei hadn't fed since the incident at the park. He could usually break away from Sho easily, if Sho ever had the courage to hug him, but he was too weak to do so now.

You used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

"I'm not letting you go… not again." Sighing once more, Kei pushed the door closed the best he could with his foot.

"I'm not leaving, Sho. Don't worry… but can we at least go sit somewhere more comfortable so that we can talk?" Kei lifted his head and looked directly into the cerulean eyes he knew and loved.

"…Alright." Sho stood up, helping Kei to his feet as well. He then gripped Kei's hand in his own and walked him over to the couch he'd fallen asleep on earlier.

"Sho, you don't have to—" Kei tried to protest as Sho pulled him into another embrace the instant they were seated.

These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

"I want to…" He didn't even want to chance Kei running away. He couldn't go through the worrying and guilt, or the pain. Not again.

"Now please, Kei… answer my question. What happened to you?" Kei hesitated a moment. He didn't feel he deserved anything Sho was giving him right now. He was a filthy monster, and Sho was an angel. How could Sho even look at him?

"Kei?" So was looking down at his vampire friend with deep concern. Noting this, Kei forced a weak smile and began to explain.

"Most of the past month… I've spent telling myself that the world would be better off without me… I've been just wandering the streets with no purpose left. I had deserted my only reason for living… I—I was going to end it all. I couldn't stand myself any more. I loathed this creature that feeds off human blood to survive… I was going to join Luka at dawn… though something stopped me. I even went down to the same beach where Luka died and waited for the sun's rays to take my life. During that time… I ended up thinking over a lot of things. How much I enjoyed draining the precious life out of the bastard who shot Toshi… I mean, it sickens me now, knowing just how much I enjoyed the fact that a human being was at my mercy; how much I enjoyed that kind of power. What if it had been you, Sho…? What would have happened if it were you? The thought that—that I might—might turn on y—you and become like th—that… I couldn't—bear it…" Whatever self-control Kei had left was gone. He was now speaking between sobs that wouldn't stop. Tears were rolling down his face and his fists clenched the material of Sho's black tank top.

Sho was amazed. In all his years with Kei, he had never once seen the vampire cry. He pulled Kei closer to him and rubbed is fingers along Kei's spine in a comforting manner.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

"I thought about how much easier you guys would all have it if I was gone… I'm nothing more than a monster holding you back. Your life would be so much easier if I just disappeared… but, even so… I couldn't go through with it. I couldn't let myself die just yet. I knew that I couldn't leave for good with out at least trying to clear the feeling in my stomach telling me that I'd done something horribly wrong…" Kei took a deep breath before pouring the remainder of his thoughts and feelings into Sho. There was no holding it in, even if Kei wanted to. All his mental barriers crumbled the instant Sho pulled him into his warm embrace. Even now, Sho still wouldn't let go of him.

"I've always been there for you, Sho, ever since the day we met. You're my best friend—my only friend—and I abandoned you when you needed me the most… I realized that you might hate me now; that you might reject me and stand me out in the sun until I'm nothing but ash and dust… but something told me that maybe… maybe you still needed me." Kei sniffled a bit. The two sat there in silence for a few moments. Kei then raised his head and looked Sho in the eyes.

"You know, Sho… It doesn't really matter if you want to reject me anymore. I've decided that—no matter what—I'm not leaving you… because whether you need me around or not… I need you, and I'm going to spend the rest of forever trying to make this up to you, because—" Kei broke their eye contact and buried his forehead into Sho's chest. Tightening his grip on Sho's shirt and shutting his eyes, he blurted out, "—because I love you so much… I've been in love with you for son long… I could never forgive myself if I didn't at least try…"

Kei knew that letting Sho know of his true feelings toward him now was probably not the best idea he'd ever had, but he had exposed all his thoughts and emotions to the only person who would listen; the only person he wanted to listen. All that was left to do was await Sho's reaction… …

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

So? Was it good? Should I continue? I'll try if people like it! I honestly have no idea where to take it, though...

Lyrics are "My Immortal" by Evanescence. I was listen to it while writing... and thought the lyrics kind of fit. So viola