Okay, so I am rewriting This story because I feel like its going too fast and it kinda sucks and blah blah blah so yeah, that is what will be happening here.
Warnings: self mutilation drug addiction abuse swearing possible sexual themes, I'll work that out later.
Disclaimer: I, of course, own nothing.
Roxas stood before his black haired boyfriend, his arms crossed and gripping them as if his life depended on it.
"I don't care Xigbar! We're done! I'm so glad I'm moving away now!" Roxas said as tears streamed down his face.
"But Roxas, babe, you gotta listen to me!" Xigbar said, hoping he could explain himself to the blond. Roxas shook his head.
"I'm not listening to you anymore Xigbar. I've had it with you and all your bullshit. Just leave me the fuck alone." Roxas said, and with that he turned on his heel and walked quickly away from the man. Xigbar watched the boy retreat, and he could have sworn his heart was breaking at the sight.
Roxas stomped through his front door, slamming it shut behind him and slipping his shoes off his feet.
"I'm home!" He called out, expecting to hear his mother's voice greeting him, but instead he heard his cousin Sora. Roxas raised an eyebrow, wondering why Sora was here and his mother wasn't. He walked over to the living room and found Sora sitting on the couch watching reruns of the Gilmore Girls.
"Why the fuck are you watching the Gilmore Girls?" Roxas asked. Sora shrugged then looked over to Roxas. His eyes widened and worry could be clearly seen in his sky blue eyes.
"Roxas what happened?" Sora asked as he got off the couch to approach his cousin. Roxas shook his head.
"It's nothing Sora, don't worry about it." Roxas said. Sora put on his stern face and crossed his arms over his chest.
"Roxas don't give me that crap. Now tell me what's the matter." Roxas sighed and walked over to the couch, sitting down where Sora had been seated.
"I broke up with Xigbar." Roxas said quietly.
"He's such an asshole, I should have just listened to you Sora." Fresh tears were beginning to form in the blond's eyes and he could feel the lump in his throat coming back. Sora looked at him sadly then pulled him into a tight embrace.
"I'm so sorry, Roxas. Do you want to talk about it?" Sora asked. Roxas nodded slowly and swallowed the lump in his throat, then he began to tell Sora everything that had happened with Xigbar. Sora nodded in understanding as he listened to his cousin go on. Roxas was thankful that Sora didn't stop him to ask questions or anything, and by the end of the story Sora was sitting there with a thoughtful look on his face.
"Well Roxas, I think this is probably all for the best. I mean, you're going to be moving soon anyways. Hey, maybe you'll meet someone better than Xigbar, someone who will treat you right." Sora said with a sympathetic smile. Roxas shrugged.
"Maybe." He said quietly. But probably not.He added in his head. Sora noticed the look of sadness still on his cousins face and frowned slightly.
"Don't worry Roxas! I'm sure things will start looking up for you real soon!" Sora said, cheerfully, putting on a big smile for the blond. Roxas couldn't help but smile back at Sora, though his smile wasn't nearly as enthusiastic as the brunet's. Maybe Sora was right. Maybe things were going to get a lot better soon. He should really think like Sora more. It couldn't possibly be good for his health to be as negative as he was.
"Thanks Sora. You're a great cousin." Roxas said. Sora laughed.
"I know I am. Now how about I go grab some ice cream from the freezer and we can watch a movie together?" Sora suggested. Roxas smiled and nodded.
"That sounds great Sora."
Sora nodded and stood from the couch.
"Alright, you put in a movie and I'll be right back with the ice cream."
"Don't eat it all on the way back Sora!" Roxas teased. Sora laughed and nodded.
"I'll try!"
"Demyx!" Axel yelled, pouncing on his best friend that was sprawled out on the couch. The impact of Axel's body landing on Demyx's knocked the air right out of him with an 'oof'. Demyx gasped for air for a moment before finally replying to the red head.
"What the hell Axel?" Demyx asked.
"I'm bored!" Axel said with a cheeky grin.
"So you jump on me?!" Demyx asked. Axel nodded.
"Yup! But I'm still bored Demy." Demyx sighed.
"What do you want me to do?" Demyx asked. Axel sat back on his haunches and thought for a moment, stroking his chin with his hand.
"Seranade me!" Axel said after a moment.
"Seranade you?" Demyx asked, making sure he'd heard the other right.
"Yeah! Play me a song on your sitar!" Axel said. Demyx sighed, but smiled none the less.
"Alright, hold on a minute and I'll go grab her." He said, standing up from the couch and hurrying up to his bedroom. While Demyx was gone, Axel moved so that he was sitting upside down on the couch. Demyx chuckled and shook his head when he came back into the room and saw Axel's legs dangling over the back of the couch. Demyx walked over to the couch and plopped himself down beside Axel.
"Any requests?" Demyx asked as he strummed a couple chords. Axel shook his head.
"Nope. Play whatever you want!" Axel said. Demyx chuckled at his friends enthusiasm and nodded. He played an up beat tune that Axel recognized as one of the songs Demyx had written. It lasted for about four and a half minutes, and at the end Axel raised his hands up and clapped.
"Yay!" Axel said happily. He swung his legs around and sat up on the couch. Immediately a wave of dizziness swept over Axel from this action and he quickly grabbed his head.
"You okay man?" Demyx asked, looking at Axel worriedly. Axel slowly nodded.
"Yeah, just a bit dizzy." He said, smiling at his friend to show that he was indeed fine.
"Um... You sure?" Demyx asked, his eyebrows pinching together.
"Yeah Dem. Why?" Axel said, looking at Demyx curiously.
"Because your nose is bleeding." Demyx said. Axel's eyes widened slightly and he touched his fingers under his nose. When he pulled back, sure enough, there was blood on his fingers.
"Well shit." Axel said. He pinched his nose closed and tilted his head back to try and stop the blood flow. Demyx pulled him up by his arm and dragged him into the kitchen. He placed Axel by the sink then hurried off to go find a towel for Axel to wipe the blood up with. After a few minutes Demyx came walking back into the kitchen with a red towel. Axel took it greatfully then placed it under his nose. Demyx shook his head and chuckled.
"What's so funny?" Axel asked, looking at Demyx from the corner of his eye.
"Dude, you're such a moron." He said, smirking at his friend.
"You're one to talk! You're always getting nose bleeds from sitting upside down Dem!" Axel said.
"Yeah, but it's okay if I'm stupid. You're supposed to be the smart one in this friendship!" Demyx said with a laugh.
"What, so I'm not allowed to have moments of stupidity?" Axel asked. Demyx grinned and shook his head.
"Nope!"
Axel laughed and pushed his shoulder.
"Hey man, did you hear about the new student coming next week?" Demyx asked after a moment of standing there in silence against the counter.
"No. But then again, my teacher probably did mention him and I just wasn't listening. Isn't that the second new student this year?" Axel said. Demyx shook his head.
"No, he's the third. I feel bad for the new kid's though. They all just become new toys for Larxene to play with." Demyx said.
"I wouldn't worry too much about it Dem. The new kids always find their little clique and they teach them how to deal with the fucking bitch. Unless she decides that they are worthy to hang out with her. But that rarely happens." Axel said. Demyx sighed and shrugged as he hopped up onto the counter next to the sink.
"I guess. I was talking to Sora about it earlier. He said the new kid was his cousin." Demyx said. Axel slapped Demyx on the leg lightly.
"See! This kid is already guaranteed to be okay! Anything happens, Sora will go to Riku and bat his pretty eyes and Riku will kick their asses!" Axel said with a cheeky grin. Demyx chuckled and shrugged.
"Whatever. Though Riku doesn't melt that easily Ax." Demyx said.
"Yeah yeah, whatever." Axel said, waving off the blond and heading back into the living room.
A week later and Roxas had finally moved. He was finally away from Xigbar, and he was ready to leave all his troubles behind and start a new life in Destiny Islands. It had been a pretty quick move, seeing as Destiny Islands was just an hour away from Twilight Town, but it was still tiring. Especially since they'd spent the weekend unpacking most of the house. Now, it was Monday morning, and his mother was driving him up to his school on her way to work.
"Okay sweetie, have a good day at school, I love you." His mother said as she pulled up to the school.
"Love you too Mom. I'll see you after school." Roxas said. He hopped out of the car and started walking up to the large brick building as his mother drove away.
"Roxas!"
Said boy looked up at the sound of the familiar voice calling his name and found his cousin sitting with his two best friends, Riku and Kairi. Roxas smiled and waved at Sora, whom started running over to the blond.
"Roxas, how have you been?" Sora said. Roxas shrugged.
"I'm better than I was a week ago. What about you?" Roxas said with a small smile.
"I'm great! Hey, you remember Riku and Kairi right?" He said as the two joined us.
"Yeah, hey Riku, Kairi." Roxas said. Riku nodded in recognition.
"Hi Roxas." Kairi said happily with a bright smile on her face.
Axel sat at his desk, right next to Demyx, slouching in his seat with his feet propped up on the chair of the desk in front of his. His hands were on the back of his head as he gazed at the chalkboard before him with half lidded eyes. He'd tried to talk to Demyx several times to relieve him of his boredom, but Demyx just shushed him and continued to focus on his unfinished homework. He suddenly heard the students in the room start to lower their voices to a whisper. He knew it wasn't the teacher, he would have told them to stop talking when he entered the room. And it wasn't Larxene because the whole room would have gone silent had it been her. He couldn't think of any other students that had an affect on the others. He glanced over to the doorway and spotted a boy with blond hair walking up the aisles of chairs. It was apparent that this kid didn't care about the obvious whispers about himself floating about the room from the way he kept his head up and looked straight ahead.
"Dem." Axel said, backhanding the boy beside him on the arm.
"What the hell, Axel?" Demyx said, looking up at the red head in slight irritation as he rubbed at his abused arm.
"Check out the new kid." Axel said, nodding his head in the boys direction.
"Axel, don't be like the rest of the students." Demyx said, looking back down at his homework.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Axel asked, looking at Demyx oddly. Demyx sighed, and, with a roll of his eyes, looked back up at Axel.
"Axel how do you think the new kids feel when everyone stares at them and whispers about them, which I don't understand why they whisper because it's very obvious what they're talking about!" Demyx said. Axel stared at him for a moment with a blank expression and a slightly raised brow.
"Are you good now?" Axel asked.
"Not really, but you can go ahead and say what you need to!" Demyx said, crossing his arms across his chest and pouting at the chalkboard.
"Okay, Dem, the only reason I wanted you to look at him was to see how damn hot he was." He said with a grin. Demyx rolled his eyes once more.
"Axel, don't start this again." Demyx said, going back to doing his homework. Axel furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.
"Start what again?" He asked.
"Don't... Start doing what you always do! You find a guy you like then you start obsessing about him and flirt with him endlessly. Then you never shut up about him, and if he turns you down you start moping about. You're just annoying when you like guys." Demyx said with a huff. Axel stared at him for a moment. Demyx furrowed his brows in worry, wondering if he'd hurt the red head's feelings.
"You okay, Ax?"
"Did you know that sometimes you say something, and it goes in one ear and comes out the other?" Axel asked, looking curiously at Demyx.
"That's just mean Axel!" Demyx said, crossing his arms and pouting.
"Oh come on Dem, like you're not annoying about that Sexion kid you've been in love with since elementary school. How many songs have you wrote for him? And I've listened to every single one of them!" Axel said, smirking and sitting back in his chair. Demyx opened his mouth to retort, but, just then, Larxene walked into the room. She looked around the small space, as if trying to figure out which poor teenager she was going to torment today, and when she spotted the new kid in the back she smiled evilly and started towards him.
"Now, if you will excuse me Dem, I'm gonna go save the new kid from the devil." Axel said, grabbing his bag from the floor and rushing past Larxene to take the seat right next to the boy. The blond looked up, startled by the sudden movement beside him.
"Hey, what's up?" Axel said with a brilliant smile As he waved off the wicked witch that was glaring daggers at him.
"What is he your new boyfriend?" She hissed out, crossing her arms over her chest.
"Not yet. But that's none of your business, Larxene. Hey look, your cheating girlfriend is in the front there, why don't you go piss him off? He's a masochist isn't he? I'm sure he loves your abuse." Axel said, grinning from ear to ear.
"Oh har har har, you're so hilarious."
"I know, it comes naturally." Larxene glared at the red head for a moment longer, then rolled her eyes and turned away with a scoff.
"Whatever. You can't protect him forever you know." Larxene said as she walked away.
"I'll bet you on that!" He said.
"What the hell was that?" The blond asked, startling Axel. He'd almost completely forgotten the boy was there. He recovered from it quickly though and gave the boy his most dazzling smile.
"That was Larxene. She claims to be human, but that has yet to be proven." The boy looked at him with the most deadpanned look he'd ever seen.
"That's not what I meant." He said. Axel shrugged and put his hands behind his head.
"Doesn't matter. What does matter though, is your name. So, care to tell me it?" He said with a seductive smirk, turning his head to look at the boy. The blond rolled his eyes, but he couldn't help the small smile tugging at the corner's of his mouth.
"And why should I tell you that?" He asked, looking straight into Axel's eyes. The red head was slightly taken aback by this and just stared into the blond's eyes for a moment. They we're blue like the early night sky, and the twinkle in them made it all the more real as they shone like the stars.
"I can think of a few reasons, but which one would you like?" He asked, his eyes sparkling mischieviously. The boy glanced over to the clock, then looked back to Axel.
"None." He said, turning away from Axel and looking to the front of the room as the teacher walked in.
"Take a seat everyone, eyes up front and stop talking."
"Roxas! Wait up!" Said blond turned to see his cousin running up to him. Roxas stopped walking and waited for the brunet to catch up to him.
"What's up Sora?" Roxas said, smiling as the boy slung his arm around his shoulders and walked beside him.
"Not much. Did you have a good first day?" Sora said, looking curiously at the blond. Roxas shrugged.
"I guess so. This one guy wouldn't leave me alone though." Roxas said as he looked up at the sky, thinking about the boy with the stunningly red hair and the greenest eyes he'd ever seen. The only thing he could think of that compared to the shade was acid, but even that didn't seem correct to the blond.
"Really? What was his name?" Sora asked. Roxas paused for a moment. He actually hadn't learned the red heads name. Though if he'd asked he probably wouldn't tell him if he had since Roxas wouldn't give him his name.
"I don't know." Roxas said, shaking his head slightly.
"Well, what did he look like?" Sora asked, getting anxious now to find out who had bugged his cousin all day. Roxas shrugged as he stopped walking to wait in line to get on the bus.
"Fire truck red hair that was styled in gravity defying spikes and it came a little past his shoulders. Stunning green eyes, kind of like acid, but even that doesn't seem like the proper shade. It's kind of like they're a shade all their own. And he was very slim, skinnier than any male I've ever met, but you can tell that he's got a bit of muscle on him. And his hips, oh god those hips." Roxas said, looking off into the distance in a slight daze as he thought about the red head.
"I asked you to describe a person not a god." Sora said with a laugh.
"Oh come on Sora, you've got to admit, I am very God like." Roxas turned and found the red head, standing next to him. The blond he'd seen him with in class that morning was with him as well, but he didn't seem to be paying much attention to his friend since he was on his phone, listening intently to the person on the other end. Sora laughed at the boy's input.
"Oh sure A-"
"Don't!" The red head yelled, cutting off Sora. Sora blinked in confusion as Roxas looked on slightly shocked. Not by the fact that the boy had stopped Sora from saying his name, but by the sudden outburst.
"Don't what?" Sora asked in confusion.
"Don't say my name." He said. Sora furrowed his brows and tilted his head slightly to the side.
"Why?" The brunet asked. The red head smirked and shoved his hands in his pocket.
"Well you see, you're cousin won't tell me his name yet, so I figure if I can't know his name he can't know mine. Seems only fair doesn't it?" He said. Sora looked between Roxas and the red head oddly.
"You two are very strange. But fine, I won't tell either of you the others name." Sora said, placing his hands behind his head and crossing one leg behind the other.
"Thanks." He said, winking at Sora.
"Hey, A-" The red head clamped his hand over the blond's mouth. Said blond's eyes widened for a moment, then his brows pinched together and he looked at his friend with slight irritation.
"Dem, we're you not listening to anything I just said. Don't. Say. My name." The red head said. The blond stared for a moment longer then...
"Oh ew! Really Demyx, you had to lick me?!" He yelled in disgust, wiping his hand off on his pants in disgust.
"Yes, yes I did. Now come on Liono my mom's here." Demyx said.
"Alright, I'll be there in a minute." He said, waving off the blond. Demyx rolled his eyes but smiled.
"Hey, come here for a sec." Demyx said, looking at Roxas. Roxas looked up and Demyx nodded his head. The two boys walked a good distance away from Sora and the red head. Demyx looked over at them once more to make sure he stayed put.
"I'm Demyx, as you heard just moments ago. Just wanted to meet you before I go." Demyx said, smiling at Roxas. Roxas glanced back at the red head then looked back at Demyx.
"Can I trust you?" Roxas asked. Demyx rolled his eyes, but the smile stayed in place.
"Like you can trust Sora." He said. Roxas stared at him for a moment then smiled.
"I'm Roxas. It's nice to meet you Demyx." He said happily, holding out his hand for Demyx to shake.
"It was nice to meet you too Roxas." He said, shaking his hand. "Well, I gotta go. I'll see you tomorrow." Roxas nodded, but just as Demyx was about to leave he stopped him.
"Can I ask you a quick question?" Roxas asked. Demyx looked at him curiously but nodded.
"What's up with your friend? He hasn't even officially met me yet, but he's already all over me." Roxas said. Demyx stood there for a moment, thinking over his answer then shrugged.
"That's just how he is. When he likes someone he's very up front about it. He wants to be with that person as fast as possible. But also, you've turned this into a chase, and A-"
"Don't!" Roxas said quickly, cutting him off. Demyx looked at him in confusion.
"I thought you wanted to know his name? I mean, that was just a slip of the tongue, but still." Demyx said. Roxas quickly shook his head.
"I don't want to know until he tells me." Roxas said. Demyx looked at him oddly.
"Why?" He asked. Roxas shrugged, and looked over to Axel, whom was now beside Sora, looking over at Roxas and Demyx and talking. Sora, however, was clutching one hand to his stomach and the other was on his knee as he doubled over in laughter at what ever the red head was saying. When he caught Roxas looking in their direction he turned away quickly and tapped Sora on the shoulder. The red head now acted as if he wasn't watching them and Sora straightened up, now trying to hold back his laughter. Roxas smiled and shook his head.
"I don't really know." He said at last. "Maybe it's the mystery of it all, or maybe it's just because I think it is fair. But no matter what it is, I do know this. I'm not ready. And not to know his name, but to get into the relationship that he's looking for. When I am ready though... Well, that will be the day I tell him my name." Roxas said. Demyx nodded in understanding.
"Well, I really gotta get going now, Rox. I'll talk to you tomorrow." Demyx said with a smile. Roxas nodded and smiled back at the blond.
"Yeah, I'll see you tomorrow Demyx." He said as Demyx started to walk away.
"You know," he started, turning around and walking backwards. "He's going to be talking about you the whole car ride home!" Demyx called out, loud enough for the red head to hear.
"Dude!" He yelled, arms up in the air and giving Demyx his 'what the fuck' face. Demyx simply laughed and ran off, waving goodbye to Roxas. Roxas chuckled and hurried back over to Sora and the red head. The boy had crossed his arms over his chest and was muttering to himself as he glared at Demyx's retreating form. The line to get on the bus had already moved considerably. With a sigh the red head ran a hand through his hair.
"Well, I better go and kill Demyx now. I'll catch you later chocobo!" He said with a wink. He then started to hurry off to catch up with Demyx.
"Oh that's real clever!" Roxas yelled. He turned around and grinned.
"Isn't it?!" He yelled back. Roxas shook his head and smiled, and with that, he turned back around and continued to sprint.
"You like him don't you?" Sora asked as they made their way onto the bus. Roxas's head snapped to the side so he could look at Sora incredulously.
"What?! No way!" Roxas said as he walked down the aisle to the back.
"Oh don't give me that. It's so obvious Roxas!" Sora said. Roxas could feel his cheeks warming as he took his seat.
"Okay, I'll admit, he is hot. But Sora I'm not ready for a relationship with anyone. You of all people should know that." Roxas said.
"Of course. I'm not forcing you into anything Roxas. Just teasing you." He said with a cheeky grin.
"Oh, by the way. About you and Mr. Sexy Butt not wanting to know each others names, Kairi and I can spread the word and make sure no one tells you two. If you want that is." Sora said. Roxas shook his head.
"No, that would just be really weird. Besides I like the surprise of it all." Roxas said, turning his head to stare out the window as Sora nodded in understanding.
so, I hope you enjoyed this chapter, there will be more to come for sure.
Just because this was in the original chapter, and I find it kind of important, if you have read new schools and old friends then you should know that Roxas tells Zexion in one of the chapters that he used to have an addiction to self harm and drugs so the title not only is referring to that addiction, but also how Axel is his addiction, later when he gets off the drugs and stops hurting himself Axel is what's there keeping him clean. Hope you understood that, cause I got lost somewhere in writing that. Just ask me if you need clarification. Well, I'll catch ya later!