There's no being ok after this. After the trust is lost there isn't much more you can do to save it. You wish you could but the pain is just burning away in your chest and it's a reminder of what happened. She promises it'll be ok, that the two of you are cool. You stopped believing it though, you cant when you hurt this much. When the pain flares like fire when you move, and your eyes water from the memories. You cant stop thinking of the past year, and how much you loved it, you feel dumb though as you cut others out of your life and mainstreamed your friends to be circled around her. You know it'll be a fight to the death, neither of you can live with other around. Sometimes, you wish you were stronger, you knew physically she was much stronger, emotionally she holds everything in, but if you tired hard enough you would win in a fight against her. When she hurt you that day, it took everything you had to not jump up and kill her, you'd be dead in a flash if you had though, you never felt so alone that day. Surrounded by people that you apparently didn't know. The rest of the night you had tears lacing your eyes, till you got in the car to drive home. The hour drive you cried the whole way, you cried till you fell asleep on the floor. It made you rethink everything. What would happen if you stopped talking? Who would be in your circle of friends, and who in hers? Could you ever trust her again? Was it worth risking the same pain again? The only answer you had was tears, a bruise on your stomach, and a torn apart heart. So no it'll never be ok after what happened.