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Summary: A short two month relationship between Remus and Dorcas had changed everything. Remus finally admitted to himself that he was gay. Right as he accepted it then Dorcas told him that she was in labour with his kid. Dorcas being unable to provide the child protection and a secure home. Remus had nothing to provide either since he couldn't hold a job. He did the only thing he could think of he have the baby to his parents. Remus 'disappeared' and went to live back home so his kid would know him. What will happen when Lily, James, Sirius, and Peter become suspicious and find out about the baby? How do your raise a baby during a war? How it is the baby isn't a werewolf? How much will a little baby change things for the Marauders and company?
"Holding Onto Sunshine"
Chapter 1 "Sugar and Spice"
It was raining knives and forks. It usually didn't rain like this in Wales. Remus knocked on the door of his parents trying to hide under the porch trying not to get wet. He was already soaked but he was trying to keep the tiny bundle under his cloak dry but that had failed too. The little baby looked up at Remus with wide deep green eyes and a curling lip.
"I know you must be cold but hold up we will be inside soon," cooed Remus. Then the door swung open and nearly hit him in the face if he hadn't caught it.
In the doorway stood his mother in her long white gown. Hope had her greying golden blond hair in a plait down her back. She had on pink slippers. Remus's father, Lyall, was shortly behind her in his blue bathroom with his wand in hand.
"Love, do open the—" said Lyall cutting off the rest of his sentence seeing his son. They hadn't seen him in nearly three months.
Hope hugged her son pulling him inside. She forced him to sit down in the living room going into the kitchen to make tea. Remus sat down in the closest living chair. Lyall sat across from his son silently. Remus hadn't taken off his cloak.
"You should take that old thing off. It's not much use with all those holes," said Hope bringing out the tea. Remus tried to smile. He had to tell them, this was the hard part.
"So what brings you here this late?" asked Lyall. Remus looked over at the clock. It was nine thirty at night. He hadn't realized it was that late.
"Well, you remember that girl Dorcas that came with to visit about ten months ago?" asked Remus. Hope nodded she had liked that girl, she seemed rather open-minded and caring. Lyall remembered her because her mother had been a Hufflepuff in his year.
"Well, we broke up oh nine months ago, then I got message today. And this was my surprise," said Remus finally taking out the small bundle. Hope gasped. Lyall gave a sharp slight inhale.
"O fy Nuw," gasped Hope. The tiny little bundle started to wiggle around. It didn't like being a wet blanket or clothes. Hope found a dry blanket and took the baby from her son taking off the wet blanket and wrapping it in a dry one.
"Any idea if it is you know?" asked Lyall. The guilt of what happened to Remus hung heavy over his head. He had never been able to forgive himself for that stupid comment about werewolves. It was not the lycanthropy that makes a werewolf a werewolf it is the choices they make.
"The healers said it was doubtful since they even tried to trigger a transformation but it cause no reaction besides making her cry. They did tell me it is possible another magical ability that contracted the werewolf gene," said Remus. What that could be, he had no idea. His daughter was the first child born to a werewolf, the youngest werewolf to be bitten and survive on top of that.
"There is only one ability that wouldn't be obvious at birth. Since she is clearly not a metamorphmagus so that leaves the ability of sight," said Lyall. Of all people Lyall knew how rare the ability it was but his mother had been a seer, she would have never admitted it and pretended that it was mere chance that as she had predict something would happen to his son at five years old that would be a result of Lyell's actions.
"Everyone has the ability of sight," said Hope. She was cooing over the small baby. Remus smiled faintly, his mother had always wanted a little girl but it never happened.
"Not that type of sight dear. In the wizarding world it is the ability to see the future. We call them Seers with the ability of sight. Love, remember my mother. She was a seer despite her denial about it. I suppose denying it is what killed her," said Lyell. After the attack Lyell's mother suddenly dropped dead, nearly days later. The shock of being right had killed her.
"Is it like that weird DNA science, genetics I think? The gene dominate in you and Remus but now isn't in here?" asked Hope.
"I suppose so but with magical folk it's much more complex. It's very possible that it only exists in the female Lupin line," said Lyall.
"Does she have her names?" asked Hope trying to avoid the confusing subject.
"Lucy Cerys Lupin," replied Remus. Hope smiled at the Welsh middle name. It meant 'to love'. The little girl would be loved for sure and they knew she would be taught to love everyone.
"I suppose you didn't just bring Lucy here just for a visit?" asked Lyall. Remus frowned slightly. He couldn't raise a child alone as a werewolf. The war made it only worse. Being in the Order and raising a child alone was just inviting attacks. She would be safe with his parents.
"Dad you know I'm part of the Order. I don't want anything to happen to her. She'd be safer here. Since she was born at St. Mungo's her birth will already be all over the place," said Remus.
"But she's your daughter. A child needs her parents not surrogates," said Hope. Lyall knew by the look in Remus's eyes that it would never happen. Obviously, Dorcas had known about his condition and that was why they had broken up.
"Love, I'm afraid that isn't going to happen. Remus is right. If she is a seer she's in grave danger right now. Death Eaters would kill or kidnap and brainwash her to see their way. It is also possible even different governments will try to kidnap her being the first child born to a werewolf. Say if Remus was in his other state how would be stop anyone from taking her," said Lyall. He swore on his own grave he'd die before he'd let anyone take her. Death wouldn't even stop him from protecting his granddaughter even.
Hope frowned. The baby started to cry. Hope tried to soothe Lucy and she only cried louder. Just to see Hope gave Lucy to Remus and Lucy stopped crying. The second Remus tried to give Lucy away to his mother Lucy wailed.
"She seems however to save some werewolf tendencies. Like bonding. It's very possible she was an inborn sense of who her mother and father are," said Lyall. It was quite interesting. He could understand why governments would be so interested in her. She could hold the key to a cure of lycanthropy, enhancements to the special units, knowledge of the future, and that was just what was obvious to Lyall. Seeing abilities were just as cryptic as lycanthropy.
"Those might be deadly faults. Think about it what happens when someone she has bonded to dies. She might easily be stronger than the average wizard and witch making it very easy for her to accidently hurt someone in a duel. Not to mention the lunar cycle may affect her mood, seeing abilities, and magical abilities," said Remus. Lucy fell asleep in her father's arms. He wished things were different. He was overjoyed to see that he hadn't passed on the werewolf gene but they had yet to see the long-term effects.
"My boy, one day at a time. For right Lucy is a happy newborn. Like a newborn puppy it is going to need a parent around for the next few weeks. We don't want to risk affecting the bonding and the human attachments," said Lyall. He had seen several magical children in his years as an auror that had their parents taken from them and was not given anyone else to trust. The effects for magically children was deadly. In most cases their magic would lash out and never be able to be controlled. Most died by the time they were thirteen.
"Why isn't Dorcas taking care of her?" asked Hope. A child needed a mother. Hope knew she could never replace a mother in a child's heart.
"I don't know. Dorcas is a Hit Witch. It is just as dangerous for her to keep her. Death Eaters wouldn't hesitate to attack her house. She would be an obviously choice to be keeping the kid. He was certain they know about the baby by now.
"I'll secure the house. Because Remus you can't leave for two months. It is too risky to Lucy's development to do so. We can drop off the radar for two months for her safety. Let your friends know you are going away for two months. Just say we needed you home," said Lyall. He put on shoes to walk around the property to cast the Fidelius Charm. Remus gave Lucy back to his mother so he could send out a quick owl.
Dear Friends,
I'm going on a trip. Please don't try to contact me because all mail will be redirected back. Don't try to find me. I will be back in two months. Tell Dumbledore that I'll be back in two months also. I can't say too much in case this is intercepted.
Sincerely,
Remus
As the small owl took off Remus wondered what he was going to say after being gone two months. The truth was too dangerous to be told. But he didn't want to lie either. He supposed as his father but it. He had to take it a day at a time.
For the next two months Lucy was very clingy to Remus. She eventually started to become more independent. He could go off and do his own things for longer each day. Eventually Hope and Lyall were enough for Lucy. It was a bittersweet change.
But that's when Hope got sick. The muggle doctors said it was breast cancer. The news hit like a wrecking ball into the family. The biggest one to be effected was Lucy. Remus had a feeling Lucy could sense the feeling of death around Hope or had even seen in her dreams, but infant can't tell you so they never really knew. Lucy now clung onto Hope, as if her own life would keep her grandmother alive longer. It was heart wrenching to watch. But Hope held on and it looked as if the cancer had gone into recession but Lucy was still clingy. Remus feared that the cancer was coming to come back.
The two months went by at an uneven past. Either it was agonizingly slow or bafflingly fast. Lucy seemed to grow like a weed and was already ahead of her age. She was starting to grasp objects and would make your unusual baby noises. She was starting to show signs of magic. She would levitate her toys for a few seconds before dropping them again.
When Remus left for his Order meeting Lucy cried. She watched the door and occasionally cried. But eventually she stopped crying and allowed herself to be taken care of. She just laid in her crib awake all night.
"Lucy go to sleep. Your poppy here is too old for this," grumbled Lyall. Lucy kicked her legs and waved her hands around not quite controllable yet. He passed out in the rocking chair.
It was several hours when Remus finally got home. He woke up his father so he could go to bed. Lyall was glad to see Remus since he tried everything that worked for Remus to get her to sleep and nothing worked. Remus couldn't believe that Lucy was still awake. Remus picked Lucy up. Lucy yawned and cooed up at her father.
"Sorry I left you love but I had a really important meeting and your Uncle James, Auntie Lily, Uncle Peter and Uncle Sirius are really nosey. I can't blame them though. I hope they can meet you soon. I don't want anything bad to happen to you though," told Remus. Lucy yawned and snuggled into the crook of her father's arms. He smiled down at her.
"I don't know I'm going to keep you a secret though," sighed Remus kissing the Lucy's forehead before putting her back into her crib. He pushed a tiny brown curl to the side that had been hanging in the middle of her face. She was already so beautiful.
Meanwhile, the four friends sat in the Leaky Cauldron talking. Lily and James had been planning their wedding which was to take place in early July. Sirius had been busy trying to hook up with Marlene McKinnon, whom was not interested. Peter had been with his mother mostly. But now after the meeting all four could agree that Remus had been acting weird.
"How can he just disappear for two months and refuse to tell anyone where he is including Dumbledore?" asked James. It wasn't like Remus. He felt like he was missing something really important.
"Not to mention he would shut down whenever anyone asked," said Sirius.
Lily nodded. She had noticed that Dorcas had been acting strange too. Was it possible they had been together? Had they been going on a mission that Dumbledore had erased his memories of? She was sure her imagination was just running wild.
"Dorcas was acting strange too. Maybe they were together. It could be Dumbledore asked them to erase his memory of whatever they had been doing," offered Lily. James and Sirius looked at Lily as if she was crazy.
"Why would Dorcas have been with Remus?" stuttered Peter. Lily huffed indignity. These three were so dense.
"Never mind," sighed Lily finishing up her drink. She was ready to go home now. She wasn't getting anywhere but she knew there was a connection and was determined to find it out.
Dorcas sat alone in her apartment. She sighed as she fell down onto her couch. She turned on the muggle telly. She didn't actually watched it but used it as a background noise to sleep with. She couldn't sleep in silence. It made her nervous.
Her heart ached for the baby she had given up. But it was the best thing she could do. Her job was too dangerous to raise a child with. She couldn't help but missing the child. Only one person had known she was pregnant and that was her supervisor. Concealing charms and taking it easy she had kept it a secret. But one thing that she couldn't hide was the fact she was different now. The second she had held Lucy everything had changed. She knew she'd never be the same. It was selfish to keep Lucy. Lucy would get killed living with Dorcas. Maybe after the war.
She drifted off to sleep. She tried to hold onto hope but she couldn't stop the sinking feeling in her stomach. She doubted that she would live the war. Something told her that she wouldn't. She didn't want Lucy not to know who she was. So many choices and no right or wrong choice. She'd drive herself mad if she didn't sleep.
Dorcas found herself standing in the Gryffindor common room. She saw three teenagers talking by the fire. They were laughing. Two boys and a girl. One boy had brown hair and green eyes and the other had red hair and blue eyes. The girl had curly brown hair. Dorcas couldn't help but notice that the boy with the brown hair had Lily's eyes. Then it hit her that this was Lily and James's son. The red haired boy could be a Weasley.
Then three others came in through the passageway. Two taller boys with red hair and an average looking girl. What caught Dorcas's eye was the girl entering had a Hufflepuff tie on. Dorcas saw on the faces of the other Gryffindors she was like family.
The boy with brown hair got up off the chair and hugged the Hufflepuff girl. She gave a smile that could melt hearts. She had a warmth around her. Her deep green eyes showed love and desire to protect towards the boy.
The scene suddenly flashed to the Transfiguration Courtyard. There was a red bubble surrounding Hogwarts. Flashes of light. Hogwarts was being attacked. In one a one giant sudden flash the shield fell. People instantly clashed into battles. Dorcas couldn't keep with what was happening around her.
Dorcas caught in her eye the Hufflepuff girl. She blasted a Death Eater thirty feet past with a single spell. She was older know and no longer in a Hufflepuff uniform but it was the same girl. She was clashing wands with Death Eaters left and right. Blasting some straight through walls.
Dorcas caught the girl looking at a certain battle between two witches and two wizards. The Death Eater pair was about to kill the other pair. In a split second the Hufflepuff girl got involved. She jumped in the middle of the battle. Amber flickered in her eyes for a short minute. The girl took the Cruciatus Curse to the chest. She fell to the ground. The wizard fell to his knees next to the girl screaming out profanity. Then he rose his wand and the Death Eater witch that had attacked the girl was dead. The other witch killed the other Death Eaters.
Dorcas woke with a jolt. It hit her like a ton of break who the Hufflepuff girl. That was her Lucy. She couldn't let this happen. She got up and took off to talk to Lily and James then to Remus. They had to know. The Order had to know. She knew this was only the beginning. Weird, she had never had dreams like that before. But she also realized this was first dream since having Lucy. It hit her that Lucy had be a seer, which was why she wasn't a werewolf, possibly but she wasn't sure. Holy freaking Merlin. Was it possible they had just shared a dream? This was too much to keep to herself. POP! Dorcas disappeared without a trace.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I loved writing this. This has to be one of my bests. This chapter is a little bit choppy but I put together what was going to be chapter one and chapter two together because chapter two was too short alone. Please let me know your input, consecutive criticism welcome.