I thought I knew which one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, after I married Jacob, I was certain that I loved him enough to spend eternity with him, things have changed, Jacob has changed. Edward has came back into my life and I can't choose who I want, it's like how it was before all over again, my vows to Jacob were true, I meant them more than anything in the world, but it seems that he doesn't appreciate me being there, like he doesn't want me anymore.

Bella closed her journal and traced the tip of her finger across the leather hard-back cover as a tear draped down her cheek, splashing onto the front of the journal. She stood up slowly at a slouched position and pushed the chair under the table and shook her head.

"Hey beautiful" A low toned voice called out from the doorway, Bella sighed silently, knowing who it was, she turned around and tried her hardest to put on a brave face.

"Hi Jake" She mumbled, rubbing her neck anxiously, placing her journal into the drawer, locking it.

"What was that?" He asked as he casually began to stroll towards her giving her a concerned look.

"Just my journal" She chuckled awkwardly, holding her hands behind her back, twisting her wedding ring around her finger.

"Oh, why do you need a journal when you can tell me everything?" He smiled reassuringly, making questions fly through Bella's head rapidly. Why is he being so caring all of a sudden?

"I just-" She shrugged and turned her head to the side, not watching Jacob.

Jacob traced his finger steadily up her arm then to her jaw, turning her to face him, looking directly into her eyes.

"Jake I-" She was cut off by Jacob's lips, crashing onto hers, Bella stood frozen for a few seconds then she slowly began to kiss him back, moulding her lips with his. She felt Jacob grip her shirt from behind, pulling her in closer, holding onto the kiss.

Bella's frustration was getting the better of her as she slowly began to pull away, her eyes flickered open and Jacob rested his head against hers and looked deep into her chocolate brown eyes.

"I love you" He whispered it so softly, so caringly. The 3 magic words rung through her ears, making her get butterflies. She nodded; keeping her forehead against his then said them back to him, in a less caring tone.

"I love you too, Jake" A smile crept on her mouth, trying to show him that she cared.

"I'll be downstairs if you need me okay, beautiful?" He placed a delicate kiss on her forehead and caressed her cheek then wandered off out of their room and downstairs.

Bella studied his actions, making sure he wasn't aware of her discomfort; she released a small sigh then sat on the edge of her bed with her head cupped inside her hands.

A gush of wind passed by her, she ignored it and stayed exactly the same, not a single movement until..

"Bella.." Her name was called out, a recognisable voice, a voice she's wanted to hear for far too long, Edward's.

Her head shot up, automatically making eye-contact with Edward's dazzling gold eyes.

"Edward, I-" She paused, making sure she wouldn't say the wrong thing.

"I needed to see you Bella, I- I can't live wi-"

"Don't say it Edward, please, you can't be here!" She interrupted, standing up, still making eye-contact with him.

Edwards paced towards her and took her face in his chilled, smooth hands and looked at her longingly.

"Just let me say it, just once, I need you to hear it Bella" He continued to gaze at her, caressing her cheekbone with the tip of his cool thumb.

Bella closed her eyes and inhaled deeply, taking in every scent of him as possible, she missed how he used to hold her; she missed how he used to kiss her and most of all, tell her that he loved her.

Edward's artic touch still managed to send a shiver down her spine, persuading her to fall for him even more, she missed him more than words can describe. She gently opened her eyes, meeting his gaze.

"I love you" The words left his mouth fluently and calmly, playing through her head, the 3 magic words that Jacob said, Edward made them sound much more realistic, more meaningful, more magic.

Bella gulped and examined his face, daring herself not to focus on his lips.

Bella you're married, stop.. Stop it, you love Jacob; just let Edward g-..

He suddenly impacted on her lips, kissing her like there was no tomorrow, Bella needed to pull away but she couldn't, she closed her eyes and leaned into this kiss, accepting it.

Edward moved his arms around her waist and pulled her closer to him, still kissing her passionately, his stone cold lips pressed harder against hers, making her melt in his touch. What felt life forever, was only a few seconds? Bella's mind was exploding like fireworks, her love for Edward never went, it still remained, even at the alter with Jacob; she still thought of Edward, she wanted and needed him more than ever.

Edward pulled away breathlessly and wrapped his arms around her and embraced her. She snuggled into his arms and snaked her arms around his waist and leant her head against his chest, gripping his shirt, never wanting to let him go.

Edward smiled to himself as he was holding the woman he had never stopped loving since the day she left, he placed a soft kiss on her hair and took in her scent and whispered softly:

"My little lamb"

{I would never have thought I would have written something like this, I guess I just had to join in the buzz in Twilight which I love, so thank you for reading and review!}

TOODLES!