The call was unexpected; it came right as Murdoc was just about to go back to Kong. He stared at the caller I.D. on his cell phone for the longest time before he had finally answered.
"Ello?" He asked his voice was nearly hesitant.
"Hey Murdoc I'm boarding a plane back to Kong, are you still there?" Russel's voice sounded from the other end.
"No…No, but I was just on my way to the airport….Are…Are Noodle and 2D with you, are they coming back yet?"
He felt nervous, he wasn't sure why. It'd been a few years though since he'd seen his band mates. It had been ages since he'd heard Russel's voice; it'd been ages since he'd said the dullard's name out loud.
"They aren't with me, but Noodle called me a few days ago saying she wanted to get back home and asked me to call D for her since she doesn't have his number….So are you goin' meet us back there or did you ditch us for a new band?" The drummer asked jokingly.
Murdoc laughed, he hadn't laughed for a long time…It actually felt whether weird; he looked around the airport, the people rushing around. All of them had some place to be, most of them were on business trips.
"Yeah I replaced dullard with a machine, least it doesn't complain." He said laughing dryly.
"So I'll be back at Kong probably tonight or tomorrow morning, hard to tell…They keep delaying the damned flights, not sure when Noodle and 2D will be back though. I'll call you if anything changes, alright?"
"Yeah, al'ight, talk to you later." Murdoc said as he clicked the phone off shoving it back into his jeans pocket.
He sat back in the gray plastic chair and stared off. He wondered how much had changed; he knew something had to have changed in all of that time. It'd only been a few years, but really it felt like decades to him. He thought back to the last time he had seen 2D, he'd tried to talk to him that morning, but nothing came of it. The singer had slammed the front door in his face and that was the end of that, he actually missed his voice. He missed so many things about him that he never thought that he would and soon he'd be seeing him again….Knowing the dullard he'd probably be over their fight, over the hurt he had been feeling all that time ago. He'd be back in the bassist arms by the end of the week….What if something changed though, he knew it was a ridiculous thought, but something in the back of his mind told him things would be different now.
In a few more hours he would be back at Kong, be back with his band mates….Back with his family; he would never express to any of them that he actually missed them. It made him physically ill even confessing it to himself, he didn't miss people. They left, he consumed so much alcohol he forgot they ever existed and that was that. This was different though, these people were coming back into his life, and one of them scared the hell out of him. The way 2D made him feel made him hate him, made him want to punch him….That's what he'd done last time and that resulted in the far too long break, he knew he needed to lay off with his temper for awhile. He wanted the singer to stay this time; he didn't need to lose him again….Fuck why couldn't things just stay the way they had been back in their little flat where everything was alright….
He couldn't wait to get back to Kong just so he could drink; he'd barely been sober five hours. Sometimes the alcohol helped to kill his emotions, but sometimes it just made them worse. He would actually cry sometimes, Murdoc, cry. He wanted to hit himself in the face as he thought about it, there'd been a few times he'd cried just over his life in general and then other times it would be over the blue haired singer.
Nobody would ever know about that though, there were a lot of things they would never know about. He wondered if he should start his sexual relationship with the singer back up….Nothing about it had worked out the way he had hoped, all he'd wanted from it was some comfort, and a lot of shagging. He hadn't wanted the younger man to get so attached or for himself to feel something, something that he didn't even want to admit to.
He listened to the announcements over the loud speaker as they announced his flight. He stood and made his way through the crowded building. He was on his way back to Kong and this time he wouldn't be there alone.