Hey guys! Just a little story I'm working on, here's the first chapter. Let me know what you think :D

Disclaimer: No. But soon, very soon :D

Jade's POV

I've always wondered what love is, and I thought I'd found it when I started dating Beck, but I was wrong. He cheated on me, broke my heart; he tried to fix it but he couldn't find all the pieces. It's been two years and I'm over it, but that's not what I want to talk about. I want to talk about this girl, Tori Vega; the most perfect, beautiful and amazing girl on the planet. She's my best friend, my rock, my everything. She doesn't know it, but I'm in love with her, so in love that it kills me. She doesn't even know I'm gay, which is why I can't tell her that I love her because I know she's not. It hurts to love someone who can't love you back; I mean; she has a boyfriend. I just don't want to go on knowing that I can't ever be with her. I need to stop moping because I'm at her house and I'm spending the weekend with her. I take a deep breath and knock on the door. She opens it a few seconds later and she looks beautiful as always.

"Hey Jade!" She smiled; oh god, her smile could just kill me.

"Hey, ready for the weekend?" I ask, going inside and putting my bag on the counter.

"Well, duh. I miss you Jadey." She smirked and I just raise my eyebrow.

"Don't challenge me Vega." I sneered playfully.

"What're you gunna do, huh West?" She crossed her arms and I ran towards her and put her over my shoulder. "Put me down!"

"No can do! I told you not to challenge me." I laughed as we fell on the couch. I landed on top of her and looked in her eyes, shit... she's so perfect. She just smiled at me and I sat up, but damn, I could stay like that forever.

~2 hours and a few glasses of wine later~

"Jadeeeee." She whined.

"Yes?"

"Come cuddle with me, this movie's scary." She said, patting the spot beside her on the couch. I swallowed hard and went and sat by her. She cuddled into my side and I melted at her touch; cheesy I know, but that's what she does to me. After we finished the movie we went up to her room to mess around, and not like that. But that's what we always do, we watch a movie, eat popcorn and go up to her room to play games or write.

"Let's play truth or dare." She exclaimed.

"Hmm. Okay." I agreed, sitting next to her on the bed.

"Yay! So, I got the app on my phone, so, let me find it and... got it! And no backing out, got it, West?" She smirked and I nudged her shoulder.

"Whatever, Vega." I scoff as she presses the button...

~13 sucky questions later~

"This is so boring. Can we play something else?" I whined, throwing my head back on her pillow and she does the same.

"Noooo! Come on, one more, it's my turn." She said and pressed the button and stared at it.

"Something wrong?" I asked playfully and looked at the screen; it read 'Make out with the person to your right for more than 2 minutes' No. Fucking. Way. This isn't happening... there's no way in hell...

"You know you don't have t-" And suddenly her lips were on mine. Her lips are so soft; it's unbelievable. And she's not a forceful kisser either; she takes everything slow like it's going to be the last time. I can't take it anymore so I put my hand on her waist and pull her closer. She climbs on top of me so she's straddling me. And now, we were totally making out, it was the best thing in the entire world. I move my hands down a little farther so they're in the pockets of her pants and she moans; holy fuck. I flip us over so I'm on top and I start kissing down her neck, I swear to god it's been at least 5 minutes. Anyways, I continue kissing down her neck until I reach her pulse point and start sucking on it.

"Jade..." She moaned, arching her back a little. I smirk against her neck and I feel her hands resting on the hem of my shirt. Suddenly my shirt was all the way across the room, not that I was protesting but, hey. I take off her shirt and do the same and before I do anything else I realize that she's way more drunk than I am.

"Tori... we need to stop." I said getting off her.

"Why babe?" She asked huskily, sitting up. God damn my good nature, otherwise we'd both be naked right now.

"You're drunk..." I replied, getting up to get our shirts.

"So? Just because I'm drunk doesn't mean we can't finish what we started." She smirked and I shook my head.

"Let's just go bed Vega." I said, putting my shirt back on and throwing her hers.

"Fineeeee, but you're cuddling with me." She whined and leaned up to kiss me, which I didn't reject.

"Goodnight Tor."

"Goodnight Jadey."

~The next morning~

Tori's POV

Last night... what even happened last night? I knew Jade stayed over, I knew I drank a little, but what the hell happened? I go take shower since Jade's still sleeping, hopefully it will clear my mind so I can remember some of what happened last night. So let's see... gotta grab my soap... Jade tackled me... ew, that washrag's cold... um, we ate popcorn... holy shit, this soap smells amazing... I drank a lot more than she did... ow, I have a damn cut... we went up to my room... why the hell is my neck sore... we played truth or dare... Oh my god, I made out with Jade! Oops, I didn't mean to scream, I hope I didn't wake her up...

"Tori? You okay?" She asked from outside the door.

"Um, yeah! I'll be out in a minute." I replied. Holy shit, we made out? That's weird; I don't even like her like that. Okay, maybe I do; okay maybe I'm in love with her, but I swear if you say a word to her I'll throw you in acid. I don't want her to know I'm in love with her, because of Beck. Silly I know, but she's obviously straight because she was traumatized when he broke up with her. Oh god, I can't do this, I can't not be with her, I love her so much it hurts. I don't care about my boyfriend; he's just my cover up because no one knows I'm gay, but still. Sometimes I just wish I could just tell Jade, but I'm too afraid. I want to be with her, I'm just scared of what people would think. I guess I'm gunna have to face it some day, but not today. I dry off, put my clothes on and walk into my room.

"Hey." She smiled.

"Hi." I replied shyly. Ask her about last night... ask her about last night... just do it already, dammit! "Look... Jade, about last night..."

"Oh, yeah that. Can we talk about it?" She asked, sitting on the bed.

"Sure." I shrugged, sitting next to her.

"Listen... it didn't mean anything, we were both drunk and-" She trailed off and looked in my eyes and I stared back. Her eyes are absolutely breath taking; the blue and green are the color of the ocean and I could stare at them all day. She was getting closer, I was getting closer; our lips were almost touching but she stopped; she was centimeters from my lips.

"Tori... I need to tell you something..." She whispered, still in front of my lips.

"Yeah Jade?" I whispered back, brushing our lips together.

"I'm in love with you." She said, closing the gap between us. Holy shit, she's got to be the best kisser in the world. I-I can't believe she's in love with me, I thought she was straight! Oh who the fuck cares! She loves me! Wait, I can't love her back, it'll make things awkward, and I don't know if I want to date her. What if my friends find out, oh god, what if my Mom or Dad finds out? I won't do this, not again. I push her off me and stand up.

"Um, are you okay?" She asked, standing up next to me.

"Y-you should leave." I whispered.

"What? W-why? I-I thought that... don't you love me too?" She sobbed. God Tori, just tell her you love her, just be brave for once and tell her.

"No."

"But you kissed me! We made out!" She exclaimed, wiping her eyes.

"It doesn't matter Jade! It was a mistake! I never loved you and I never will!" I yelled and she flinched. She nodded sadly and walked towards the door, she turned around; oh god, the look in her eyes I'll never forget. Once I know she's gone I collapse on my bed and scream.

"Why do I fuck everything up!"

Jade's POV

I can't believe this; she doesn't love me back. I get in my car and turn the radio up.

"Why do I fuck everything up!" I scream. Once I got to my house, I ran up to my room and slammed the door. My parents weren't home of course, so I didn't care what I did. I can't take this; school's going to be awkward, my life is ruined, I can't believe I did that! I can't live without her; I just can't do it.

General POV

Neither girl was happy about their decisions. Jade with pushing things with Tori and Tori with not telling Jade how she felt. You get's the worst end of the deal? Jade of course, because not only has she lost her best friend, she's lost the love of her life. And that's why she's going to end all the pain; that's right, Jadelyn Autumn West is going to kill herself. And what Tori doesn't know is that if she doesn't go and apologize to her right now, there won't be another chance.

Tori's POV

I'm such a bitch sometimes, I never wanted to hurt Jade ever, I was just scared and selfish. I have to go apologize to her right now, I have to tell her what I feel for her, I have to tell her everything. I grab my sweatshirt and my keys an start to go out the door.

"Tori? Where are you going?" Trina asked.

"To a friends house, when are Mom and Dad getting back?" I asked.

"In 3 days, but be careful, it's storming pretty hard out there." She replied and smiled.

"Yeah, I will. Thanks sis. Bye." I called, shutting the door and running to my car. When I got to Jade's house, her car was there but her parents' weren't. I go to knock on the door and I find that it's open so I walk in.

"Hello?" I whispered. I walked up the stairs and I heard whimpering, could that be Jade? I walk in to her room to find her on the floor surrounded by painkillers and blood, a lot of blood.

"Oh my god, Jade!" I yelled as I ran to her.

"W-what are you d-doing here Vega?" She asked lowly, wincing from the pain.

"Jade... why'd you do this to yourself?" I asked, picking up one of her arms. There was a deep gash on both arms but the one on the right was worse; there was just so much blood. "Oh god, Jade why?" I sobbed.

"B-because, I can't live w-without you Tori." She explained as I got out my phone and dialed 911. I told them everything and they said they were on their way.

"I'm so sorry Jade. I should have told you. You can't die on me Jade! Please! I love you! I'm so in love with you it hurts." I whispered the last part.

"Why d-didn't you tell me?" She smirked; I chuckled slightly at her cockiness. I took off my sweatshirt and tried to stop the bleeding; where the fuck is that damn ambulance?

"Because I was scared, I'm so sorry Jade. I love you so much."

"I love y-you too." She said weakly and closed her eyes.

"No! Jade! Wake up, please! You can't die!" I screamed and she opened her eyes slightly.

"Hey, Vega it's okay, I'm going somewhere." She whispered and smiled softly.

"No you're not! You're staying right here!"

"K-kiss me." She said and I leaned down and pressed my lips to hers. "Are you g-going to b-be my girlfriend or w-what?"

"Of course. I love you." I whispered, pressing my lips to hers again.

"I love you too." She replied almost in-audibly. I heard the noise and saw the flashing lights outside her window. She's going to be okay... she's going to be okay.