Title: The Last Diary Entry
Written By: Quality Paiges (aka Sailor Air)
Rating: G (as in none of that bad stuff)
Genre: Drama (I guess I really couldn't place it)
Author's Not: This is the last of Relena's Diary Entries, it takes place during the series the night before the Sanq Kingdom was attacked by Romafeller. I try to express here what Relena might have been thinking at the time.
Diary,
Tonight I sat out on my balcony reading my biological father's logs just before the Sanq Kingdom was attacked, I never really knew him and I don't remember him at all but I think he must have been an honorable man, much stronger than I am. Just by reading his logs I can tell he really and truly believed in the ideal of total pacifism which he preached. I sat there reading his logs and I decided to look up at the sky so I could make a wish on the first star I saw. I looked up and then I realized it was a starless night, the clouds had covered the brilliance which the stars radiate. Just for a moment I was sad. It was only a moment, it was only something as simple as making a wish on a star that I knew couldn't come true. At least not by simply wishing for it. I make the same wish every time, I wish for the largest thing I can think of and that is "world peace". I often wonder myself if such a thing can ever exist. I often wonder it because how may the world have peace if I cannot have it inside myself?
Maybe Dorothy is right and the world does love war. As long as there are people there will be war. I simply cannot accept her beliefs though. How can it be? I ask myself. How can it be that people would want chaos instead of order? How may it be that people want war instead of peace? Is it possible that people prefer hate to love? No, I cannot accept this as the truth because I believe with all my heart that is not so. No matter how much turmoil my emotions are in, no matter what my actions must be, the world must wish for peace. It must be so with everyone deep inside their soul. Even those that lead battles must hate the outcome with so many deaths and so little accomplished. Even if they believe that war is the answer I must think they are misguided, so misguided they cannot see the truth in their own hearts.
Total pacifism is the only way I know to peace. So if I must die for my beliefs so be it. I would surrender my soul before I would resort to battle. Yes, I must be willing to give it all up in order to achieve my goal just like my father. The Sanq Kingdom will always be a place of peace as far as it is in my power to make it so. This nation will die before I let anyone fight in the name of it. Miss Dorothy will not have her way. She is wrong. She is sadly misguided and my views will not change because of her. I will have her come to see her mistakes, to see the pain of war. I am totally resolved at such a conclusion.
Those who fight for peace fight because that is only way they know how to obtain peace. People like Heero fight for peace because they do not understand there is another way. Heero left this kingdom after I went to Romafeller, he left without saying goodbye. He left to fight yet again, this I know. But he also knows that peace will come, he will just fight differently than I do. Praying that morning comes, I am Relena Peacecraft.
The next day, the Sanq Kingdom was attacked by the Romafeller Foundation. Relena could have had the Treize Faction help her, she could have asked Quatre and his companions to help, she could have told Noin to fight but she didn't. She dissolved the Sanq Kingdom's sovereignty and she held up her ideals.
So whatcha think. Short I know but Diary entries usually aren't long. Did you think I captured the moment, Relena? Please review so I know how to improve myself as a fanfic writer.